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  The schoolroom was a pretty large hall; on the quietest side of
  the house; confronted by the stately stare of some half…dozen of
  the great urns; and commanding a peep of an old secluded garden
  belonging to the Doctor; where the peaches were ripening on the
  sunny south wall。 There were two great aloes; in tubs; on the turf
  outside the windows; the broad hard leaves of which plant
  (looking as if they were made of painted tin) have ever since; by
  association; been symbolical to me of silence and retirement。
  About five…and…twenty boys were studiously engaged at their
  books when we went in; but they rose to give the Doctor good
  morning; and remained standing when they saw Mr。 Wickfield and
  me。
  ‘A new boy; young gentlemen;’ said the Doctor; ‘Trotwood
  Copperfield。’
  One Adams; who was the head…boy; then stepped out of his
  place and welcomed me。 He looked like a young clergyman; in his
  white cravat; but he was very affable and good…humoured; and he
  showed me my place; and presented me to the masters; in a
  gentlemanly way that would have put me at my ease; if anything
  could。
  It seemed to me so long; however; since I had been among such
  boys; or among any companions of my own age; except Mick
  Walker and Mealy Potatoes; that I felt as strange as ever I have
  done in my life。 I was so conscious of having passed through
  scenes of which they could have no knowledge; and of having
  acquired experiences foreign to my age; appearance; and
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  condition as one of them; that I half believed it was an imposture
  to come there as an ordinary little schoolboy。 I had become; in the
  Murdstone and Grinby time; however short or long it may have
  been; so unused to the sports and games of boys; that I knew I was
  awkward and inexperienced in the commonest things belonging to
  them。 Whatever I had learnt; had so slipped away from me in the
  sordid cares of my life from day to night; that now; when I was
  examined about what I knew; I knew nothing; and was put into the
  lowest form of the school。 But; troubled as I was; by my want of
  boyish skill; and of book…learning too; I was made infinitely more
  uncomfortable by the consideration; that; in what I did know; I
  was much farther removed from my companions than in what I
  did not。 My mind ran upon what they would think; if they knew of
  my familiar acquaintance with the King’s Bench Prison? Was
  there anything about me which would reveal my proceedings in
  connexion with the Micawber family—all those pawnings; and
  sellings; and suppers—in spite of myself? Suppose some of the
  boys had seen me coming through Canterbury; wayworn and
  ragged; and should find me out? What would they say; who made
  so light of money; if they could know how I had scraped my
  halfpence together; for the purchase of my daily saveloy and beer;
  or my slices of pudding? How would it affect them; who were so
  innocent of London life; and London streets; to discover how
  knowing I was (and was ashamed to be) in some of the meanest
  phases of both? All this ran in my head so much; on that first day
  at Doctor Strong’s; that I felt distrustful of my slightest look and
  gesture; shrunk within myself whensoever I was approached by
  one of my new schoolfellows; and hurried off the minute school
  was over; afraid of committing myself in my response to any
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  friendly notice or advance。
  But there was such an influence in Mr。 Wickfield’s old house;
  that when I knocked at it; with my new school…books under my
  arm; I began to feel my uneasiness softening away。 As I went up to
  my airy old room; the grave shadow of the staircase seemed to fall
  upon my doubts and fears; and to make the past more indistinct。 I
  sat there; sturdily conning my books; until dinner…time (we were
  out of school for good at three); and went down; hopeful of
  becoming a passable sort of boy yet。
  Agnes was in the drawing…room; waiting for her father; who was
  detained by someone in his office。 She met me with her pleasant
  smile; and asked me how I liked the school。 I told her I should like
  it very much; I hoped; but I was a little strange to it at first。
  ‘You have never been to school;’ I said; ‘have you?’
  ‘Oh yes! Every day。’
  ‘Ah; but you mean here; at your own home?’
  ‘Papa couldn’t spare me to go anywhere else;’ she answered;
  smiling and shaking her head。 ‘His housekeeper must be in his
  house; you know。’
  ‘He is very fond of you; I am sure;’ I said。
  She nodded ‘Yes;’ and went to the door to listen for his coming
  up; that she might meet him on the stairs。 But; as he was not
  there; she came back again。
  ‘Mama has been dead ever since I was born;’ she said; in her
  quiet way。 ‘I only know her picture; downstairs。 I saw you looking
  at it yesterday。 Did you think whose it was?’
  I told her yes; because it was so like herself。
  ‘Papa says so; too;’ said Agnes; pleased。 ‘Hark! That’s papa
  now!’
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  Her bright calm face lighted up with pleasure as she went to
  meet him; and as they came in; hand in hand。 He greeted me
  cordially; and told me I should certainly be happy under Doctor
  Strong; who was one of the gentlest of men。
  ‘There may be some; perhaps—I don’t know that there are—
  who abuse his kindness;’ said Mr。 Wickfield。 ‘Never be one of
  those; Trotwood; in anything。 He is the least suspicious of
  mankind; and whether that’s a merit; or whether it’s a blemish; it
  deserves consideration in all dealings with the Doctor; great or
  small。’
  He spoke; I thought; as if he were weary; or dissatisfied with
  something; but I did not pursue the question in my mind; for
  dinner was just then announced; and we went down and took the
  same seats as before。
  We had scarcely done so; when Uriah Heep put in his red head
  and his lank hand at the door; and said:
  ‘Here’s Mr。 Maldon begs the favour of a word; sir。’
  ‘I am but this moment quit of Mr。 Maldon;’ said his master。
  ‘Yes; sir;’ returned Uriah; ‘but Mr。 Maldon has come back; and
  he begs the favour of a word。’ As he held the door open with his
  hand; Uriah looked at me; and looked at Agnes; and looked at the
  dishes; and looked at the plates; and looked at every object in the
  room; I thought;—yet seemed to look at nothing; he made such an
  appearance all the while of keeping his red eyes dutifully on his
  master。 ‘I beg your pardon。 It’s only to say; on reflection;’ observed
  a voice behind Uriah; as Uriah’s head was pushed away; and the
  speaker’s substituted—‘pray excuse me for this intrusion—that as
  it seems I have no choice in the matter; the sooner I go abroad the
  better。 My cousin Annie did say; when we talked of it; that she
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  liked to have her friends within reach rather than to have them
  banished; and the old Doctor—’
  ‘Doctor Strong; was that?’ Mr。 Wickfield interposed; gravely。
  ‘Doctor Strong; of course;’ returned the other; ‘I call him the old
  Doctor; it’s all the same; you know。’
  ‘I don’t know;’ returned Mr。 Wickfield。
  ‘Well; Doctor Strong;’ said the other—‘Doctor Strong was of the
  same mind; I believed。 But as it appears from the course you take
  with me he has changed his mind; why there’s no more to be said;
  except that the sooner I am off; the better。 Therefore; I thought I’d
  come back and say; that the sooner I am off the better。 When a
  plunge is to be made into the water; it’s of no use lingering on the
  bank。’
  ‘There shall be as little lingering as possible; in your case; Mr。
  Maldon; you may depend upon it;’ said Mr。 Wickfield。
  ‘Thank’ee;’ said the other。 ‘Much obliged。 I don’t want to look a
  gift…horse in the mouth; which is not a gracious thing to do;
  otherwise; I dare say; my cousin Annie could easily arrange it in
  her own way。 I suppose Annie would only have to say to the old
  Doctor—’
  ‘Meaning that Mrs。 Strong would only have to say to her
  husband—do I follow you?’ said Mr。 Wickfield。
  ‘Quite so;’ returned the other; ‘—would only have to say; that
  she wanted such and such a thing to be so and so; and it would be
  so and so; as a matter of course。’
  ‘And why as a matter of course; Mr。 Maldon?’ asked Mr。
  Wickfield; sedately eating his dinner。
  ‘Why; because Annie’s a charming young girl; and the old
  Doctor—Doctor Strong; I mean—is not quite a charming young
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  boy;’ said Mr。 Jack Maldon; laughing。 ‘No offence to anybody; Mr。
  Wickfield。 I only mean that I suppose some compensation is fair
  and reasonable in that sort of marriage。’
  ‘Compensation to the lady; sir?’ asked Mr。 Wickfield gravely。
  ‘To the lady; sir;’ Mr。 Jack Maldon answered; laughing。 But
  appearing to remark that Mr。 Wickfield went on with his dinner in
  the same sedate; immovable manner; and that there was no hope
  of making him relax a muscle of his fac