第 19 节
作者:津夏      更新:2021-04-30 15:57      字数:9322
  almanack; and every seam an entry upon it where public as well as private
  sorrow left its trace。       That pucker on the forehead stood for the Mutiny;
  perhaps; that line of care for the Crimean winter; it may be; and that last
  little sheaf of wrinkles; as my fancy hoped; for the death of Gordon。                   And
  so;  as   I  dreamed   in   my  foolish   way;  the   old   gentleman   with   the   shining
  stock was gone; and it was seventy years of a great nation's life that took
  shape before me on the headland in the morning。
  But   he   soon   brought   me   back   to   earth   again。    As   he   recovered   his
  breath he took a letter out of his pocket; and; putting on a pair of   horn…
  rimmed   eye…      glasses;    he  read   it  through    very   carefully。    Without     any
  design   of   playing   the   spy   I   could   not   help   observing   that   it   was   in   a
  woman's   hand。        When   he   had   finished   it   he   read   it   again;   and   then   sat
  with the corners of his mouth drawn down and his eyes staring vacantly
  out over the bay; the most forlorn…looking old gentleman that ever I have
  seen。     All that is kindly within me was set stirring by that wistful face;
  but   I   knew   that   he   was   in   no   humour   for   talk;   and   so;   at   last;   with   my
  breakfast and my patients calling me; I left him on the bench and started
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  for home。
  I never gave him another thought until the next morning; when; at the
  same hour; he turned up upon the headland; and shared the bench which I
  had been accustomed to look upon as my own。                   He bowed again before
  sitting   down;     but  was    no   more   inclined    than   formerly    to  enter   into
  conversation。       There   had   been   a   change   in   him   during   the   last   twenty…
  four hours; and all for the worse。         The face seemed more heavy and more
  wrinkled;   while   that   ominous   venous   tinge   was   more   pronounced   as   he
  panted up the hill。      The clean lines of his cheek and chin were marred by
  a   day's   growth    of  grey   stubble;   and   his  large;  shapely    head    had  lost
  something of the brave carriage which had struck me when first I glanced
  at him。     He had a letter there; the same; or another; but still in a woman's
  hand;  and over   this he   was   moping   and   mumbling   in his   senile   fashion;
  with   his   brow   puckered;   and   the   corners   of   his   mouth   drawn   down   like
  those of a fretting child。      So I left him; with a vague wonder as to who he
  might be; and why a single spring day should have wrought such a change
  upon him。
  So interested was I that next morning I was on the look out for him。
  Sure   enough;   at   the   same   hour;   I   saw   him   coming   up   the   hill;   but   very
  slowly; with a bent back and a heavy head。              It was shocking to me to see
  the change in him as he approached。
  〃I am  afraid that our  air does   not   agree with   you;  sir;〃 I  ventured to
  remark。
  But it was as though he had no heart for talk。             He tried; as I thought;
  to make some fitting reply; but it slurred off into a mumble and silence。
  How bent and weak and old he seemedten years older at the least than
  when first I had seen him!         It went to my heart to see this fine old fellow
  wasting   away   before   my   eyes。      There   was   the   eternal   letter   which   he
  unfolded with his shaking fingers。            Who was this   woman whose  words
  moved him so?         Some daughter; perhaps; or granddaughter; who should
  have been the light of his home instead of             I smiled to find how bitter
  I   was   growing;    and   how    swiftly   I  was   weaving     a  romance    round    an
  unshaven old man and his correspondence。               Yet all day he lingered in my
  mind;     and   I  had  fitful  glimpses    of  those   two    trembling;    blue…veined;
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  knuckly hands with the paper rustling between them。
  I had hardly hoped to see him again。             Another day's decline must; I
  thought;   hold   him   to   his   room;   if   not   to   his   bed。 Great;   then;   was   my
  surprise when; as I approached my bench; I saw that he was already there。
  But as I came up to him I could scarce be sure that it was indeed the same
  man。     There were the curly…brimmed hat; and the shining stock; and the
  horn glasses; but where were the stoop and the grey…stubbled; pitiable face?
  He was clean… shaven and firm lipped; with a bright eye and a head that
  poised itself upon his great shoulders like an eagle on a rock。                His back
  was as straight and square as a grenadier's; and he switched at the pebbles
  with   his stick   in   his exuberant vitality。    In   the button…  hole of   his   well…
  brushed   black   coat   there   glinted   a   golden   blossom;   and   the   corner   of   a
  dainty   red   silk   handkerchief   lapped   over   from   his   breast   pocket。     He
  might have been the eldest son of the weary creature who had sat there the
  morning before。
  〃Good morning; Sir; good morning!〃 he cried with a merry waggle of
  his cane。
  〃Good morning!〃 I answered how beautiful the bay is looking。〃
  〃Yes; Sir; but you should have seen it just before the sun rose。〃
  〃What; have you been here since then?〃
  〃I was here when there was scarce light to see the path。〃
  〃You are a very early riser。〃
  〃On   occasion;   sir;   on   occasion!〃   He   cocked   his   eye   at   me   as   if   to
  gauge whether I were worthy of his confidence。               〃The fact is; sir; that my
  wife is coming back to me to day。〃
  I suppose that my face showed that I did not quite see the force of the
  explanation。      My eyes; too; may have given him assurance of sympathy;
  for he moved quite close to me and began speaking in a low; confidential
  voice; as if the matter were of such weight that even the sea…gulls must be
  kept out of our councils。
  〃Are you a married man; Sir?〃
  〃No; I am not。〃
  〃Ah; then you cannot quite understand it。             My wife and I have been
  married for nearly fifty years; and we have never been parted; never at all;
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  until now。〃
  〃Was it for long?〃 I asked。
  〃Yes;   sir。   This   is   the   fourth   day。 She   had   to   go   to   Scotland。   A
  matter of duty; you understand; and the doctors would not let me go。                    Not
  that   I   would   have   allowed   them   to   stop   me;   but   she   was   on   their   side。
  Now; thank God! it is over; and she may be here at any moment。〃
  〃Here!〃
  〃Yes; here。      This headland and bench were old friends of ours thirty
  years ago。      The people with whom we stay are not; to tell the truth; very
  congenial;   and   we   have;   little   privacy   among   them。        That   is   why   we
  prefer to meet here。        I could not be sure which train would bring her; but
  if she had come by the very earliest she would have found me waiting。〃
  〃In that case〃 said I; rising。
  〃No;   sir;   no;〃   he   entreated;   〃I   beg   that   you   will   stay。 It   does   not
  weary you; this domestic talk of mine?〃
  〃On the contrary。〃
  〃I have been so driven inwards during these few last days! Ah; what a
  nightmare   it   has   been!   Perhaps   it   may   seem   strange   to   you   that   an   old
  fellow like me should feel like this。〃
  〃It is charming。〃
  〃No credit to me; sir!       There's not a man on this planet but would feel
  the   same   if   he   had   the   good   fortune   to   be   married   to   such   a   woman。
  Perhaps; because you see me like this; and hear me speak of our long life
  together; you conceive that she is old; too。〃
  He laughed heartily; and his eyes twinkled at the humour of the idea。
  〃She's one of those women; you know; who have youth in their hearts;
  and so it can never be very far from their faces。               To me she's just as she
  was when she first took my hand in hers in '45。                 A wee little bit stouter;
  perhaps; but then; if she had a fault as a girl; it was that she was a shade
  too slender。      She was above me in station; you knowI a clerk; and she
  the daughter of my employer。            Oh! it was quite a romance; I give you my
  word; and I won her; and; somehow; I have never got over the freshness
  and the wonder of it。         To think that that sweet; lovel