第 114 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9322
  can bear witness to this。 You yourself; mademoiselle; probably will
  not refuse to confirm my statement that I invited you through Mr。
  Lebeziatnikov; solely in order to discuss with you the hopeless and
  destitute position of your relative; Katerina Ivanovna (whose dinner I
  was unable to attend); and the advisability of getting up something of
  the nature of a subscription; lottery or the like; for her benefit。
  You thanked me and even shed tears。 I describe all this as it took
  place; primarily to recall it to your mind and secondly to show you
  that not the slightest detail has escaped my recollection。 Then I took
  a ten…rouble note from the table and handed it to you by way of
  first instalment on my part for the benefit of your relative。 Mr。
  Lebeziatnikov saw all this。 Then I accompanied you to the door;… you
  being still in the same state of embarrassment… after which; being
  left alone with Mr。 Lebeziatnikov I talked to him for ten minutes;…
  then Mr。 Lebeziatnikov went out and I returned to the table with the
  money lying on it; intending to count it and to put it aside; as I
  proposed doing before。 To my surprise one hundred…rouble note had
  disappeared。 Kindly consider the position。 Mr。 Lebeziatnikov I
  cannot suspect。 I am ashamed to allude to such a supposition。 I cannot
  have made a mistake in my reckoning; for the minute before your
  entrance I had finished my accounts and found the total correct。 You
  will admit that recollecting your embarrassment; your eagerness to get
  away and the fact that you kept your hands for some time on the table;
  and taking into consideration your social position and the habits
  associated with it; I was; so to say; with horror and positively
  against my will; compelled to entertain a suspicion… a cruel; but
  justifiable suspicion! I will add further and repeat that in spite
  of my positive conviction; I realise that I run a certain risk in
  making this accusation; but as you see; I could not let it pass。 I
  have taken action and I will tell you why: solely; madam; solely;
  owing to your black ingratitude! Why! I invite you for the benefit
  of your destitute relative; I present you with my donation of ten
  roubles and you; on the spot; repay me for all that with such an
  action。 It is too bad! You need a lesson。 Reflect! Moreover; like a
  true friend I beg you… and you could have no better friend at this
  moment… think what you are doing; otherwise I shall be immovable!
  Well; what do you say?〃
  〃I have taken nothing;〃 Sonia whispered in terror; 〃you gave me
  ten roubles; here it is; take it。〃
  Sonia pulled her handkerchief out of her pocket; untied a corner
  of it; took out the ten rouble note and gave it to Luzhin。
  〃And the hundred roubles you do not confess to taking?〃 he
  insisted reproachfully; not taking the note。
  Sonia looked about her。 All were looking at her with such awful;
  stern; ironical; hostile eyes。 She looked at Raskolnikov。。。 he stood
  against the wall; with his arms crossed; looking at her with glowing
  eyes。
  〃Good God!〃 broke from Sonia。
  〃Amalia Ivanovna; we shall have to send word to the police and
  therefore I humbly beg you meanwhile to send for the house porter;〃
  Luzhin said softly and even kindly。
  〃Gott der barmherzige! I knew she was the thief;〃 cried Amalia
  Ivanovna; throwing up her hands。
  〃You knew it?〃 Luzhin caught her up; 〃then I suppose you had some
  reason before this for thinking so。 I beg you; worthy Amalia Ivanovna;
  to remember your words which have been uttered before witnesses。〃
  There was a buzz of loud conversation on all sides。 All were in
  movement。
  〃What!〃 cried Katerina Ivanovna; suddenly realising the position;
  and she rushed at Luzhin。 〃What! You accuse her of stealing? Sonia?
  Ah; the wretches; the wretches!〃
  And running to Sonia she flung her wasted arms round her and held
  her as in a vise。
  〃Sonia! how dared you take ten roubles from him? Foolish girl!
  Give it to me! Give me the ten roubles at once… here!
  And snatching the note from Sonia; Katerina Ivanovna crumpled it
  up and flung it straight into Luzhin's face。 It hit him in the eye and
  fell on the ground。 Amalia Ivanovna hastened to pick it up。 Pyotr
  Petrovitch lost his temper。
  〃Hold that mad woman!〃 he shouted。
  At that moment several other persons; besides Lebeziatnikov;
  appeared in the doorway; among them the two ladies。
  〃What! Mad? Am I mad? Idiot!〃 shrieked Katerina Ivanovna。 〃You are
  an idiot yourself; pettifogging lawyer; base man! Sonia; Sonia take
  his money! Sonia a thief! Why; she'd give away her last penny!〃 and
  Katerina Ivanovna broke into hysterical laughter。 〃Did you ever see
  such an idiot?〃 she turned from side to side。 〃And you too?〃 she
  suddenly saw the landlady; 〃and you too; sausage eater; you declare
  that she is a thief; you trashy Prussian hen's leg in a crinoline! She
  hasn't been out of this room: she came straight from you; you
  wretch; and sat down beside me; every one saw her。 She sat here; by
  Rodion Romanovitch。 Search her! Since she's not left the room; the
  money would have to be on her! Search her; search her! But if you
  don't find it; then excuse me; my dear fellow; you'll answer for it!
  I'll go to our Sovereign; to our Sovereign; to our gracious Tsar
  himself; and throw myself at his feet; to…day; this minute! I am alone
  in the world! They would let me in! Do you think they wouldn't? You're
  wrong; I will get in! I will get in! You reckoned on her meekness! You
  relied upon that! But I am not so submissive; let me tell you!
  You've gone too far yourself。 Search her; search her!〃
  And Katerina Ivanovna in a frenzy shook Luzhin and dragged him
  towards Sonia。
  〃I am ready; I'll be responsible。。。 but calm yourself; madam; calm
  yourself。 I see that you are not so submissive!。。。 Well; well; but
  as to that。。。〃 Luzhin muttered; 〃that ought to be before the police。。。
  though indeed there are witnesses enough as it is。。。。 I am ready。。。。
  But in any case it's difficult for a man。。。 on account of her
  sex。。。。 But with the help of Amalia Ivanovna。。。 though; of course;
  it's not the way to do things。。。。 How is it to be done?〃
  〃As you will! Let any one who likes search her!〃 cried Katerina
  Ivanovna。 〃Sonia; turn out your pockets! See。 Look; monster; the
  pocket is empty; here was her handkerchief! Here is the other
  pocket; look! D'you see; d'you see?〃
  And Katerina Ivanovna turned… or rather snatched… both pockets
  inside out。 But from the right pocket a piece of paper flew out and
  describing a parabola in the air fell at Luzhin's feet。 Every one
  saw it; several cried out。 Pyotr Petrovitch stooped down; picked up
  the paper in two fingers; lifted it where all could see it and
  opened it。 It was a hundred…rouble note folded in eight。 Pyotr
  Petrovitch held up the note showing it to every one。
  〃Thief! Out of my lodging。 Police; police!〃 yelled Amalia
  Ivanovna。 〃They must to Siberia be sent! Away!〃
  Exclamations arose on all sides。 Raskolnikov was silent; keeping his
  eyes fixed on Sonia; except for an occasional rapid glance at
  Luzhin。 Sonia stood still; as though unconscious。 She was hardly
  able to feel surprise。 Suddenly the colour rushed to her cheeks; she
  uttered a cry and hid her face in her hands。
  〃No; it wasn't I! I didn't take it! I know nothing about it;〃 she
  cried with a heartrending wail; and she ran to Katerina Ivanovna;
  who clasped her tightly in her arm