第 115 节
作者:不言败      更新:2021-02-21 15:48      字数:9321
  cried with a heartrending wail; and she ran to Katerina Ivanovna;
  who clasped her tightly in her arms; as though she would shelter her
  from all the world。
  〃Sonia! Sonia! I don't believe it! You see; I don't believe it!〃 she
  cried in the face of the obvious fact; swaying her to and fro in her
  arms like a baby; kissing her face continually; then snatching at
  her hands and kissing them; too。 〃You took it! How stupid these people
  are! Oh dear! You are fools; fools;〃 she cried; addressing the whole
  room; 〃you don't know; you don't know what a heart she has; what a
  girl she is! She take it; she? She'd sell her last rag; she'd go
  barefoot to help you if you needed it; that's what she is! She has the
  yellow passport because my children were starving; she sold herself
  for us! Ah; husband; husband! Do you see? Do you see? What a
  memorial dinner for you! Merciful heavens! Defend her; why are you all
  standing still? Rodion Romanovitch; why don't you stand up for her? Do
  you believe it; too? You are not worth her little finger; all of you
  together! Good God! Defend her now; at least!〃
  The wail of the poor; consumptive; helpless woman seemed to
  produce a great effect on her audience。 The agonised; wasted;
  consumptive face; the parched blood…stained lips; the hoarse voice;
  the tears unrestrained as a child's; the trustful; childish and yet
  despairing prayer for help were so piteous that every one seemed to
  feel for her。 Pyotr Petrovitch at any rate was at once moved to
  compassion。
  〃Madam; madam; this incident does not reflect upon you!〃 he cried
  impressively; 〃no one would take upon himself to accuse you of being
  an instigator or even an accomplice in it; especially as you have
  proved her guilt by turning out her pockets; showing that you had no
  previous idea of it。 I am most ready; most ready to show compassion;
  if poverty; so to speak; drove Sofya Semyonovna to it; but why did you
  refuse to confess; mademoiselle? Were you afraid of the disgrace?
  The first step? You lost your head; perhaps? One can quite
  understand it。。。。 But how could you have lowered yourself to such an
  action? Gentlemen;〃 he addressed the whole company; 〃gentlemen!
  Compassionate and so to say commiserating these people; I am ready
  to overlook it even now in spite of the personal insult lavished
  upon me! And may this disgrace be a lesson to you for the future;〃
  he said; addressing Sonia; 〃and I will carry the matter no further。
  Enough!〃
  Pyotr Petrovitch stole a glance at Raskolnikov。 Their eyes met;
  and the fire in Raskolnikov's seemed ready to reduce him to ashes。
  Meanwhile Katerina Ivanovna apparently heard nothing。 She was
  kissing and hugging Sonia like a madwoman。 The children; too; were
  embracing Sonia on all sides; and Polenka;… though she did not fully
  understand what was wrong;… was drowned in tears and shaking with
  sobs; as she hid her pretty little face; swollen with weeping; on
  Sonia's shoulder。
  〃How vile!〃 a loud voice cried suddenly in the doorway。
  Pyotr Petrovitch looked round quickly。
  〃What vileness!〃 Lebeziatnikov repeated; staring him straight in the
  face。
  Pyotr Petrovitch gave a positive start… all noticed it and
  recalled it afterwards。 Lebeziatnikov strode into the room。
  〃And you dared to call me as witness?〃 he said; going up to Pyotr
  Petrovitch。
  〃What do you mean? What are you talking about?〃 muttered Luzhin。
  〃I mean that you。。。 are a slanderer; that's what my words mean!〃
  Lebeziatnikov said hotly; looking sternly at him with his shortsighted
  eyes。
  He was extremely angry。 Raskolnikov gazed intently at him; as though
  seizing and weighing each word。 Again there was a silence。 Pyotr
  Petrovitch indeed seemed almost dumbfounded for the first moment。
  〃If you mean that for me;。。。〃 he began; stammering。 〃But what's
  the matter with you? Are you out of your mind?〃
  〃I'm in my mind; but you are a scoundrel! Ah; how vile! I have heard
  everything。 I kept waiting on purpose to understand it; for I must own
  even now it is not quite logical。。。。 What you have done it all for I
  can't understand。〃
  〃Why; what have I done then? Give over talking in your nonsensical
  riddles! Or maybe you are drunk!〃
  〃You may be a drunkard; perhaps; vile man; but I am not! I never
  touch vodka; for it's against my convictions。 Would you believe it;
  he; he himself; with his own hands gave Sofya Semyonovna that
  hundred…rouble note… I saw it; I was a witness; I'll take my oath!
  He did it; he!〃 repeated Lebeziatnikov; addressing all。
  〃Are you crazy; milksop?〃 squealed Luzhin。 〃She is herself before
  you;… she herself here declared just now before every one that I
  gave her only ten roubles。 How could I have given it to her?〃
  〃I saw it; I saw it;〃 Lebeziatnikov repeated; 〃and although it is
  against my principles; I am ready this very minute to take any oath
  you like before the court; for I saw how you slipped it in her pocket。
  Only like a fool I thought you did it out of kindness! When you were
  saying good…bye to her at the door; while you held her hand in one
  hand; with the other; the left; you slipped the note into her
  pocket。 I saw it; I saw it!〃
  Luzhin turned pale。
  〃What lies!〃 he cried impudently; 〃why; how could you; standing by
  the window; see the note! You fancied it with your shortsighted
  eyes。 You are raving!〃
  〃No; I didn't fancy it。 And though I was standing some way off; I
  saw it all。 And though it certainly would be hard to distinguish a
  note from the window;… that's true… I knew for certain that it was a
  hundred…rouble note; because; when you were going to give Sofya
  Semyonovna ten roubles; you took up from the table a hundred…rouble
  note (I saw it because I was standing near then; and an idea struck me
  at once; so that I did not forget you had it in your hand)。 You folded
  it and kept it in your hand all the time。 I didn't think of it again
  until; when you were getting up; you changed it from your right hand
  to your left and nearly dropped it! I noticed it because the same idea
  struck me again; that you meant to do her a kindness without my
  seeing。 You can fancy how I watched you and I saw how you succeeded in
  slipping it into her pocket。 I saw it; I saw it; I'll take my oath。〃
  Lebeziatnikov was almost breathless。 Exclamations arose on all hands
  chiefly expressive of wonder; but some were menacing in tone。 They all
  crowded round Pyotr Petrovitch。 Katerina Ivanovna flew to
  Lebeziatnikov。
  〃I was mistaken in you! Protect her! You are the only one to take
  her part! She is an orphan。 God has sent you!〃
  Katerina Ivanovna; hardly knowing what she was doing; sank on her
  knees before him。
  〃A pack of nonsense!〃 yelled Luzhin; roused to fury; 〃it's all
  nonsense you've been talking! 'An idea struck you; you didn't think;
  you noticed'… what does it amount to? So I gave it to her on the sly
  on purpose? What for? With what object? What have I to do with
  this。。。?〃
  〃What for? That's what I can't understand; but that what I am
  telling you is the fact; that's certain! So far from my being
  mistaken; you infamous; criminal man; I remember how; on account of
  it; a question occurred to me at once; just when I was thanking you
  and pressing your hand。 What made