第 4 节
作者:疯狂热线      更新:2021-02-21 14:15      字数:9322
  good one。 It is ill playing with him; for his sport will cause me
  sorrow。 What shall I do; then? Shall I draw back I think that
  this would be the act of a wise man; but I cannot tell how to set
  about it。 If Love chastises and threatens in order to teach me
  his lesson; ought I to disdain my master? He who despises his
  master is a fool。 Needs must I store up in my mind Love's lesson
  for soon can great good come of it。 But he buffets me greatly:
  that sets me in alarm! True; neither blow nor wound is visible
  and yet dost thou complain? Then art thou not wrong? Nay; indeed;
  for he has wounded me so sore that he has winged his arrow even
  to my heart; and not yet has he drawn it out again。 How then has
  he struck his dart into thy body when no wound appears without?
  This shalt thou tell me; I would fain know it。 In what member has
  he struck thee? Through the eye。 Through the eye? And yet he has
  not put out thine eye? He has done me no hurt in the eye; but he
  wounds me sorely at the heart。 Now speak reason to me: how has
  the dart passed through thine eye in such wise that the eye is
  not wounded or bruised by it? If the dart enter through the midst
  of the eye; why does my heart suffer pain in my body? Why does
  not my eye also feel the pain; since it receives the first blow?
  That can I well explain。 The eye has no care to understand aught
  nor can it do anything in the matter in any way; but the eye is
  the mirror to the heart; and through this mirror passes the fire
  by which the heart is kindled; yet so that it neither wounds nor
  braises it。 Then is not the heart placed in the body like the
  lighted candle which is put inside the lantern? If you take the
  candle out; never will any light issue thence; but as long as the
  candle lasts the lantern is not dark; and the flame which shines
  through neither harms nor injures it。 Likewise is it with regard
  to a window: never will it be so strong and so whole but that the
  ray of the sun may pass through it without hurting it in any way;
  and the glass will never be so clear that one will see any better
  for its brightness if another brightness does not strike upon it。
  Know that it is the same with the eyes as with the glass and the
  lantern; for the light penetrates into the eyes; the heart's
  mirror; and the heart sees the object outside whatever it be; and
  sees many various objects; some green; others dark of hue; one
  crimson; the other blue; and it blames the one and praises the
  other; holds the one cheap and the other precious; but many an
  object shows him a fair face in the mirror when he looks at it;
  which will betray him if he be not on his guard。 My mirror has
  much deceived me; for in it MY heart has seen a ray by which I am
  struck; which has taken shelter in me; and because of this my
  heart has failed me。 I am ill…treated by my friend who deserts me
  for my enemy。 Well can I accuse my mirror of treachery; for it
  has sinned exceedingly against me。 I thought I  had three
  friends: my heart and my two eyes together; but methinks they
  hate me。 Where shall I find any more a friend ; since these three
  are enemies who belong to me yet kill me? My servants presume
  overmuch who do all their own will and have no care of mine。 Now;
  know I well of a truth from the action of those who have injured
  me: that a good master's love decays through keeping bad
  servants。 He who associates with a bad servant cannot fail to
  lament it sooner or later; whatever come of it。
  〃Now will I speak to you again of the arrow which is given in
  trust to me and tell you how it is made and cut; but I fear much
  that I may fail in the matter; for the carved work of it is so
  magnificent that twill be no marvel if I fail。 And yet I will
  apply all my diligence to say what I think of it。 The notch and
  the feathers together are so close that if a man looks well at
  them there is but one dividing line like a narrow parting in the
  hair; but this line is so polished and straight; that without
  question there is nought in the notch which can be improved。 The
  feathers are of such a hue as if they were gold or gilded; but
  gilding can add nothing; for the feathers; this know I well; were
  brighter still than gold。 The feathers are the blonde tresses
  that I saw the other day at sea。 This is the arrow that makes me
  love。 God! What a priceless boon! If a man could have such a
  treasure; why should he desire any other wealth all his life? For
  my part; I could swear that I should desire nothing more; for
  merely the feathers and the notch would I not give away in
  exchange for Antioch。 And since I prize these two things so much;
  who could duly appraise the value of the rest which is so fair
  and lovable; and so dear and so precious; that I am desirous and
  eager to behold myself mirrored again in the brow that God has
  made so bright that nor mirror nor emerald nor topaz would make
  any show beside it。 But of all this; he who gazes at the
  brightness of the eyes has not a word to say; for to all those
  who behold them they seem two glowing candles。 And who has so
  glib a tongue that he could describe the fashion of the
  well…shaped nose; and of the bright countenance where the rose
  overlays the lily so that it eclipses something of the lily in
  order the better to illuminate the face; and of the smiling
  little mouth which God made such on purpose that no one should
  see it and not think that it is laughing? And what of the teeth
  in her mouth? One is so close to the other that it seems that
  they all touch; and so that they might the better achieve this;
  Nature bestowed special pains; so that whoever should see them
  when the mouth opens would never dream that they were not of
  ivory or silver。 So much there is to say and to recount in the
  describing of each thingboth of the chin and of the earsthat
  it would be no great marvel if I were to leave out something。 Of
  the throat; I tell you; that in comparison with it; crystal is
  but dim。 And the neck beneath her tresses is four times whiter
  than ivory。 As much as is disclosed from the hem of the vest
  behind; to the clasp of the opening in front; saw I of the bare
  bosom uncovered; whiter; than is the new…fallen snow。 My pain
  would indeed have been alleviated if I could have seen the whole
  of the arrow。 Right willingly if I had known would I have said
  what the tip  of the arrow is like: I did not see it; and it is
  not my own fault if I cannot tell the fashion of a thing that I
  have not seen。 Love showed me then nought of it except the notch
  and the feathers; for the arrow was put in the quiver; the quiver
  is the tunic and the vest wherewith the maid was clad。 Faith!
  This is the wound that kills me; this is the dart; this is the
  ray with which I am so cruelly inflamed。 It is ignoble of me to
  be angry。 Never for provocation or for war shall any pledge that
  I must seek of love be broken。 Now let Love dispose of me as he
  ought to do with what is his; for I wish it; and this is my
  pleasure。 Never do I seek that this malady should leave me;
  rather do I wish it to hold me thus for ever; and that from none
  may health come to me if health come not from that source whence
  the disease has come。〃
  Great is the plaint of Alexander; but that which the damsel
  utters is not a whit less。 All night she is in so great pain that
  she neither sleeps nor rests。 Love has set in array within her a
  battle that rages and mightily agitates her heart; and which
  causes such anguish and torture that she weeps all night and
  complains and tosses and starts up; so that her heart all but
  stops beating。 And when she has so grieved and sobbed and moaned
  and started and sighed; then she has looked in her heart to see
  who and of what worth was he for whose sake Love was torturing
  her。 And when she has recalled each wandering thought; then she
  stretches herself and turns over; and turning; she turns to folly
  all the thinking she has done。 Then she starts on another
  argument and says: 〃Fool! What does it matter to me if this youth
  is debonair and wise and courteous and valiant! All this is
  honour and advantage to him。 And what care I for his beauty? Let
  his beauty depart with himand so it will; for all I can do;
  never would I wish to take away aught of it。 Take away? Nay;
  truly; that do I not assuredly。 If he had the wisdom of Solomon;
  and if Nature had put so much beauty in him that she could not
  have put more in a human body; and if God had put in my hand the
  power to destroy all; I would not seek to anger him; but
  willingly if I could would I make him more wise and more
  beautiful。 Faith! then; I do not hate him at all。 And am I then
  on that account his lady? No; indeed; no more than I am
  another's。 And wherefore do I think more of him if he does not
  please me more than another? I know not: I am all bewildered; for
  never did I think so much about any man living in the world。 And
  if I had my wish I should see him always; never would I seek to
  take my eyes off him so much the sight of him delights me。 Is
  this love? Methinks it is。 Never should I have called on him so
  often if I had not loved him more than another。 Yes; I love him:
  let that be granted。 And shall I not have my desire? Yes;
  provided that I find favour in his eyes。 This de