第 5 节
作者:疯狂热线      更新:2021-02-21 14:15      字数:9322
  let that be granted。 And shall I not have my desire? Yes;
  provided that I find favour in his eyes。 This desire is wrong;
  but Love has taken such hold of me that I am foolish and dazed
  and to defend myself avails me nought herein; thus I must suffer
  Love's attack。 I have indeed guarded myself thus wisely and for
  long against Love; never once before did I wish to do aught for
  him; but now I am too gracious to him。 And what thanks does he
  owe me; since he cannot have service or kindness of me by fair
  means? It is by force that Love has tamed my pride; and I must
  needs be subject to his will。 Now I wish to love; now I am under
  his tuition; now will Love teach me。 And what? How I ought to
  serve him。 Of that am I right well apprised。 I am full wise in
  his service; for no one could find fault with me in this matter。
  No need is there henceforth for me to learn more。 Love would have
  me; and I would fain be wise without pride; gracious and
  courteous towards all; but the true love of one only。 Shall I
  love them all for the sake of one? A fair mien should I show to
  each; but Love does not bid me to be a true love to every man。
  Love teaches nought but good。 It is not for nothing that I have
  this name; and that I am called Soredamors。 I ought to love; and
  I ought to be loved; and I wish to prove it by my name; if I can
  find fitting arguments。 It is not without meaning that the first
  part of my name is the colour of gold; for the most beautiful are
  the blondest。 Therefore I hold my name the fairer because it
  begins with the colour with which accords the finest gold。 And
  the end recalls Love; for he who calls me by my right name ever
  calls Love to my mind。 And the one half gilds the other with
  bright and yellow gilding; for Soredamors means the same thing as
  'gilded with love'。 Much; then; has Love honoured me; since he
  has gilded me with himself。 Gilding of gold is not so fine as
  that which illumines me。 And I shall set my care on this; that I
  may be of his gilding; nevermore will I complain of him。 Now I
  love and shall always love。 Whom? Truly; a fine question! Him
  whom Love bids me love; for no other shall ever have my love。
  What does it matter as he will never know it unless I tell him
  myself? What shall I do if I do not pray him for his love? For he
  who desires a thing ought indeed to request and pray for it。 How?
  Shall I then pray him? Nay; indeed。 Why not? It never happened
  that a woman did aught so witless as to beg a man for love unless
  she were more than common mad。 I should be convicted of folly if
  I said with my mouth aught that might turn to my reproach。 If he
  should know it from my mouth; I deem that he would hold me the
  cheaper for it; and would often reproach me with having been the
  first to pray for love。 Never be Love so abased that I should go
  and entreat this man; since he would be bound to hold me the
  cheaper for it。 Ah God! how will he ever know it; since I shall
  not tell him? As yet I have scarce suffered aught for which I
  need so distress myself。 I shall wait till he perceives it; if he
  is ever destined to perceive it。 He will know it well of a truth;
  I think; if ever he had aught to do with Love or heard tell of it
  by word of mouth。 Heard tell! Now have I said foolish words。
  Love's lore is not so easy that a man becomes wise by speaking of
  it unless good experience be there too。 Of myself I know this
  well; for never could I learn aught of it by fair speaking or by
  word of mouth; and yet I have been much at Love's school; and
  have often been flattered; but always have I kept aloof from him;
  and now he makes me pay dear for it; for now I know more of it
  than an ox does of ploughing。 But of this I despairthat he
  never loved ; perhaps; and if he does not love; and has not
  loved; then have I been sowing in the sea where no seed can take
  root; and there is nothing for it but to wait for him and to
  suffer till I see whether I can bring him into the right way by
  hints and covert words。 I will so act that he will be certain of
  having my love if he dares to seek it。 Thus the end of the whole
  matter is that I love him and am his。 If he does not love me; I
  shall love him all the same。〃
  Thus both he and she complain; and the one hides the case from
  the other; they have sorrow in the night and worse by day。 In
  such pain they have; it seems to me; been a long while in
  Brittany until it came to the end of summer。 Right at the
  beginning of October came messengers from the parts about Dover
  from London and from Canterbury to bring the king tidings that
  have troubled his heart。 The messengers have told him thisthat
  he may well tarry too long in Brittany; for he to whom he had
  entrusted his land; and had consigned so great a host of his
  subjects and of his friends; will now set himself in battle array
  against the king; and he has marched into London in order to hold
  the city against the hour that Arthur should have returned。
  When the king heard the news he calls all his barons; for he was
  indignant and full of displeasure。 That he may the better stir
  them up to confound the traitor; he says that all the blame for
  his toil and for his war is theirs; for through their persuasion
  he gave his land and put it into the hand of the traitor who is
  worse than Ganelon。 There is not one who does not quite allow
  that the king has right and reason; for they all counselled him
  to do so; but the traitor will be ruined for it。 And let him know
  well of a truth that in no castle or city will he be able so to
  protect his body that they do not drag him out of it by force。
  Thus they all assure the king and solemnly affirm and swear that
  they will give up the traitor or no longer hold their lands。 And
  the king has it proclaimed through all Brittany that none who can
  bear arms in the host remain in the country without coming after
  him quickly。
  All Brittany is moved: never was such a host seen as King Arthur
  assembled。 When the ships moved out it seemed that everybody in
  the world was on the sea; for not even the waves were seen; so
  covered were they with ships。 This fact is certain; that it seems
  from the stir that all Brittany is taking ship。 Now have the
  ships made the passage; and the folk who have thronged together
  go into quarters along the shore。 It came into Alexander's heart
  to go and beg the king to make him a knight; for if ever he is to
  win renown he will win it in this war。 He takes his comrades with
  him; as his will urges him on to do what he has purposed。 They
  have gone to the king's tent: the king was sitting before his
  tent。 When he sees the Greeks coming he has called them before
  him。 〃Sirs;〃 quoth he; 〃hide not from me what need brought you
  here。〃 Alexander spoke for all and has told him his desire: 〃I am
  come;〃 quoth he; 〃to pray you as I am bound to pray; my lord; for
  my companions and for myself; that you make us knights。〃 The king
  replies: 〃Right gladly; and not a moment's delay shall there be;
  since you have made me this request。〃 Then the king bids there be
  borne harness for twelve knights: done is what the king commands。
  Each asks for his own harness; and each has his own in his
  possession; fair arms and a good steed: each one has taken his
  harness。 All the twelve were of like value; arms and apparel and
  horse; but the harness for Alexander's body was worth as muchif
  any one had cared to value or to sell itas the arms of all the
  other twelve together。 Straightway by the sea they disrobed and
  washed and bathed; for they neither wished nor deigned that any
  other bath should be heated for them。 They made the sea their
  bath and tub。
  The queen; who does not hate Alexanderrather does she love and
  praise and prize him muchhears of the matter。 She wills to do
  him a great service; it is far greater than she thinks。 She
  searches and empties all her chests till she has drawn forth a
  shirt of white silk very well wrought very delicate and very
  fine。 There was no thread in the seams that was not of gold; or
  at the least of silver。 Soredamors from time to time had set her
  hands to the sewing; and had in places sewn in beside the gold a
  hair from her head; both on the two sleeves and on the collar to
  see and to put to the test whether she could ever find a man who
  could distinguish the one from the other; however carefully he
  looked at it; for the hair was as shining and as golden as the
  gold or even more so。 The queen takes the shirt and has given it
  to Alexander。 Ah God! how great joy would Alexander have had if
  he had known what the queen is sending him。 Very great joy would
  she too have had; who had sewn her hair there if she had known
  that her love was to have and wear it。 Much comfort would she
  have had thereof; for she would not have loved all the rest of
  her hair so much as that which Alexander had。 But neither he nor
  she knew it: great pity is it that they do not know。 To the
  harbour where the youths are washing came the messenger of the
  queen; he finds the youths on the beach and has given the shirt
  to him; who is much delighted with it and who held it all the
  dearer for that it came from the queen。 But if he had known the
  whole case he would have loved it still more; for he would not
  have taken all t