第 6 节
作者:美丽心点      更新:2021-02-20 16:50      字数:9322
  me up to think of myself; and by his respect and love; delight and please me。  That I have got ingenuous children; and that they were not born distorted; nor with any other natural deformity。 That I was no great proficient in the study of rhetoric and poetry; and of other faculties; which perchance I might have dwelt upon; if I had found myself to go on in them with success。 That I did by times prefer those; by whom I was brought up; to such places and dignities; which they seemed unto me most to desire; and that I did not put them off with hope and expectation; that (since that they were yet but young) I would do the same hereafter。 That I ever knew Apollonius and Rusticus; and Maximus。 That I have had occasion often and effectually to consider and meditate with myself; concerning that life which is according to nature; what the nature and manner of it is:  so that as for the gods and such suggestions; helps and inspirations; as might be expected from them; nothing did hinder; but that I might have begun long before to live according to nature; or that even now that I was not yet partaker and in present possession of that life; that I myself (in that I did not observe those inward motions; and suggestions; yea and almost plain and apparent instructions and admonitions of the gods;) was the only cause of it。 That my body in such a life; hath been able to hold out so long。 That I never had to do with Benedicta and Theodotus; yea and afterwards when I fell into some fits of love; I was soon cured。 That having been often displeased with Rusticus; I never did him anything for which afterwards I had occasion to repent。 That it being so that my mother was to die young; yet she lived with me all her latter years。  That as often as I had a purpose to help and succour any that either were poor; or fallen into some present necessity; I never was answered by my officers that there was not ready money enough to do it; and that I myself never had occasion to require the like succour from any other。 That I have such a wife; so obedient; so loving; so ingenuous。 That I had choice of fit and able men; to whom I might commit the bringing up of my children。  That by dreams I have received help; as for other things; so in particular; how I might stay my casting of blood; and cure my dizziness; as that also that happened to thee in Cajeta; as unto Chryses when he prayed by the seashore。 And when I did first apply myself to philosophy; that I did not fall into the hands of some sophists; or spent my time either in reading the manifold volumes of ordinary philosophers; nor in practising myself in the solution of arguments and fallacies; nor dwelt upon the studies of the meteors; and other natural curiosities。 All these things without the assistance of the gods; and fortune; could not have been。
  XV。  In the country of the Quadi at Granua; these。  Betimes in the morning say to thyself; This day I shalt have to do with an idle curious man; with an unthankful man; a railer; a crafty; false; or an envious man; an unsociable uncharitable man。 All these ill qualities have happened unto them; through ignorance of that which is truly good and truly bad。  But I that understand the nature of that which is good; that it only is to be desired; and of that which is bad; that it only is truly odious and shameful: who know moreover; that this transgressor; whosoever he be; is my kinsman; not by the same blood and seed; but by participation of the same reason; and of the same divine particle; How can I either be hurt by any of those; since it is not in their power to make me incur anything that is truly reproachful? or angry; and ill affected towards him; who by nature is so near unto me? for we are all born to be fellow…workers; as the feet; the hands; and the eyelids; as the rows of the upper and under teeth: for such therefore to be in opposition; is against nature; and what is it to chafe at; and to be averse from; but to be in opposition?  XVI。  Whatsoever I am; is either flesh; or life; or that which we commonly call the mistress and overruling part of man; reason。  Away with thy books; suffer not thy mind any more to be distracted; and carried to and fro; for it will not be; but as even now ready to die; think little of thy flesh: blood; bones; and a skin; a pretty piece of knit and twisted work; consisting of nerves; veins and arteries; think no more of it; than so。  And as for thy life; consider what it is; a wind; not one constant wind neither; but every moment of an hour let out; and sucked in again。  The third; is thy ruling part; and here consider; Thou art an old man; suffer not that excellent part to be brought in subjection; and to become slavish: suffer it not to be drawn up and down with unreasonable and unsociable lusts and motions; as it were with wires and nerves; suffer it not any more; either to repine at anything now present; or to fear and fly anything to come; which the destiny hath appointed thee。
  XVII。  Whatsoever proceeds from the gods immediately; that any man will grant totally depends from their divine providence。 As for those things that are commonly said to happen by fortune; even those must be conceived to have dependence from nature; or from that first and general connection; and concatenation of all those things; which more apparently by the divine providence are administered and brought to pass。  All things flow from thence: and whatsoever it is that is; is both necessary; and conducing to the whole (part of which thou art); and whatsoever it is that is requisite and necessary for the preservation of the general; must of necessity for every particular nature; be good and behoveful。 And as for the whole; it is preserved; as by the perpetual mutation and conversion of the simple elements one into another; so also by the mutation; and alteration of things mixed and compounded。 Let these things suffice thee; let them be always unto thee; as thy general rules and precepts。  As for thy thirst after books; away with it with all speed; that thou die not murmuring and complaining; but truly meek and well satisfied; and from thy heart thankful unto the gods。
  THE SECOND BOOK
  I。 Remember how long thou hast already put off these things; and how often a certain day and hour as it were; having been set unto thee by the gods; thou hast neglected it。  It is high time for thee to understand the true nature both of the world; whereof thou art a part; and of that Lord and Governor of the world; from whom; as a channel from the spring; thou thyself didst flow: and that there is but a certain limit of time appointed unto thee; which if thou shalt not make use of to calm and allay the many distempers of thy soul; it will pass away and thou with it; and never after return。
  II。  Let it be thy earnest and incessant care as a Roman and a man to perform whatsoever it is that thou art about; with true and unfeigned gravity; natural affection; freedom and justice: and as for all other cares; and imaginations; how thou mayest ease thy mind of them。  Which thou shalt do; if thou shalt go about every action as thy last action; free from all vanity; all passionate and wilful aberration from reason; and from all hypocrisy; and self…love; and dislike of those things; which by the fates or appointment of God have happened unto thee。 Thou seest that those things; which for a man to hold on in a prosperous course; and to live a divine life; are requisite and necessary; are not many; for the gods will require no more of any man; that shall but keep and observe these things。
  III。  Do; soul; do; abuse and contemn thyself; yet a while and the time for thee to respect thyself; will be at an end。 Every man's happiness depends from himself; but behold thy life is almost at an end; whiles affording thyself no respect; thou dost make thy happiness to consist in the souls; and conceits of other men。 IV Why should any of these things that happen externally; so much distract thee?  Give thyself leisure to learn some good thing; and cease roving and wandering to and fro。 Thou must also take heed of another kind of wandering; for they are idle in their actions; who toil and labour in this life; and have no certain scope to which to direct all their motions; and desires。  V。 For not observing the state of another man's soul; scarce was ever any man known to be unhappy。 tell whosoever they be that intend not; and guide not by reason and discretion the motions of their own souls; they must of necessity be unhappy。
  VI。  These things thou must always have in mind:  What is the nature of the universe; and what is minein particular:  This unto that what relation it hath:  what kind of part; of what kind of universe it is: And that there is nobody that can hinder thee; but that thou mayest always both do and speak those things which are agreeable to that nature; whereof thou art a part。  VII。  Theophrastus; where he compares sin with sin (as after a vulgar sense such things I grant may be compared:) says well and like a philosopher; that those sins are greater which are committed through lust; than those which are committed through anger。 For he that is angry seems with a kind of grief and close contraction of himself; to turn away from reason; but he that sins through lust; bei