第 10 节
作者:想聊      更新:2021-02-19 01:11      字数:9322
  done good service to the royalist cause。 〃I shall always distrust men
  of talent;〃 he said。
  Presently the count proposed that we should make the tour of the
  gardens。
  〃Monsieur〃 said his wife。
  〃Well; what; my dear?〃 he said; turning to her with an arrogant
  harshness which showed plainly enough how absolute he chose to be in
  his own home。
  〃Monsieur de Vandenesse walked from Tours this morning and Monsieur de
  Chessel; not aware of it; has already taken him on foot over
  Frapesle。〃
  〃Very imprudent of you;〃 the count said; turning to me; 〃but at your
  age〃 and he shook his head in sign of regret。
  The conversation was resumed。 I soon saw how intractable his royalism
  was; and how much care was needed to swim safely in his waters。 The
  man…servant; who had now put on his livery; announced dinner。 Monsieur
  de Chessel gave his arm to Madame de Mortsauf; and the count gaily
  seized mine to lead me into the dining…room; which was on the ground…
  floor facing the salon。
  This room; floored with white tiles made in Touraine; and wainscoted
  to the height of three feet; was hung with a varnished paper divided
  into wide panels by wreaths of flowers and fruit; the windows had
  cambric curtains trimmed with red; the buffets were old pieces by
  Boulle himself; and the woodwork of the chairs; which were covered by
  hand…made tapestry; was carved oak。 The dinner; plentifully supplied;
  was not luxurious; family silver without uniformity; Dresden china
  which was not then in fashion; octagonal decanters; knives with agate
  handles; and lacquered trays beneath the wine…bottles; were the chief
  features of the table; but flowers adorned the porcelain vases and
  overhung the gilding of their fluted edges。 I delighted in these
  quaint old things。 I thought the Reveillon paper with its flowery
  garlands beautiful。 The sweet content that filled my sails hindered me
  from perceiving the obstacles which a life so uniform; so unvarying in
  solitude of the country placed between her and me。 I was near her;
  sitting at her right hand; serving her with wine。 Yes; unhoped…for
  joy! I touched her dress; I ate her bread。 At the end of three hours
  my life had mingled with her life! That terrible kiss had bound us to
  each other in a secret which inspired us with mutual shame。 A glorious
  self…abasement took possession of me。 I studied to please the count; I
  fondled the dogs; I would gladly have gratified every desire of the
  children; I would have brought them hoops and marbles and played horse
  with them; I was even provoked that they did not already fasten upon
  me as a thing of their own。 Love has intuitions like those of genius;
  and I dimly perceived that gloom; discontent; hostility would destroy
  my footing in that household。
  The dinner passed with inward happiness on my part。 Feeling that I was
  there; under her roof; I gave no heed to her obvious coldness; nor to
  the count's indifference masked by his politeness。 Love; like life;
  has an adolescence during which period it suffices unto itself。 I made
  several stupid replies induced by the tumults of passion; but no one
  perceived their cause; not even SHE; who knew nothing of love。 The
  rest of my visit was a dream; a dream which did not cease until by
  moonlight on that warm and balmy night I recrossed the Indre; watching
  the white visions that embellished meadows; shores; and hills; and
  listening to the clear song; the matchless note; full of deep
  melancholy and uttered only in still weather; of a tree…frog whose
  scientific name is unknown to me。 Since that solemn evening I have
  never heard it without infinite delight。 A sense came to me then of
  the marble wall against which my feelings had hitherto dashed
  themselves。 Would it be always so? I fancied myself under some fatal
  spell; the unhappy events of my past life rose up and struggled with
  the purely personal pleasure I had just enjoyed。 Before reaching
  Frapesle I turned to look at Clochegourde and saw beneath its windows
  a little boat; called in Touraine a punt; fastened to an ash…tree and
  swaying on the water。 This punt belonged to Monsieur de Mortsauf; who
  used it for fishing。
  〃Well;〃 said Monsieur de Chessel; when we were out of ear…shot。 〃I
  needn't ask if you found those shoulders; I must; however;
  congratulate you on the reception Monsieur de Mortsauf gave you。 The
  devil! you stepped into his heart at once。〃
  These words followed by those I have already quoted to you raised my
  spirits。 I had not as yet said a word; and Monsieur de Chessel may
  have attributed my silence to happiness。
  〃How do you mean?〃 I asked。
  〃He never; to my knowledge; received any one so well。〃
  〃I will admit that I am rather surprised myself;〃 I said; conscious of
  a certain bitterness underlying my companion's speech。
  Though I was too inexpert in social matters to understand its cause; I
  was much struck by the feeling Monsieur de Chessel betrayed。 His real
  name was Durand; but he had had the weakness to discard the name of a
  worthy father; a merchant who had made a large fortune under the
  Revolution。 His wife was sole heiress of the Chessels; an old
  parliamentary family under Henry IV。; belonging to the middle classes;
  as did most of the Parisian magistrates。 Ambitious of higher flights
  Monsieur de Chessel endeavored to smother the original Durand。 He
  first called himself Durand de Chessel; then D。 de Chessel; and that
  made him Monsieur de Chessel。 Under the Restoration he entailed an
  estate with the title of count in virtue of letters…patent from Louis
  XVIII。 His children reaped the fruits of his audacity without knowing
  what it cost him in sarcastic comments。 Parvenus are like monkeys;
  whose cleverness they possess; we watch them climbing; we admire their
  agility; but once at the summit we see only their absurd and
  contemptible parts。 The reverse side of my host's character was made
  up of pettiness with the addition of envy。 The peerage and he were on
  diverging lines。 To have an ambition and gratify it shows merely the
  insolence of strength; but to live below one's avowed ambition is a
  constant source of ridicule to petty minds。 Monsieur de Chessel did
  not advance with the straightforward step of a strong man。 Twice
  elected deputy; twice defeated; yesterday director…general; to…day
  nothing at all; not even prefect; his successes and his defeats had
  injured his nature; and given him the sourness of invalided ambition。
  Though a brave man and a witty one and capable of great things; envy;
  which is the root of existence in Touraine; the inhabitants of which
  employ their native genius in jealousy of all things; injured him in
  upper social circles; where a dissatisfied man; frowning at the
  success of others; slow at compliments and ready at epigram; seldom
  succeeds。 Had he sought less he might perhaps have obtained more; but
  unhappily he had enough genuine superiority to make him wish to
  advance in his own way。
  At this particular time Monsieur de Chessel's ambition had a second
  dawn。 Royalty smiled upon him; and he was now affecting the grand
  manner。 Still he was; I must say; most kind to me; and he pleased me
  for the very simple reason that with him I had found peace and rest
  for the first time。 The interest; possibly very slight; which he
  showed in my affairs; seemed to me; lonely and rejected as I was; an
  image of paternal love。 His hospitable care contrasted so strongly
  with the neglect to which I was accustomed; that I felt a childlike
  gratitude to the home where no fetters bound me and where I was
  welcomed and even courted。
  The owners of Frapesle are so associated with the dawn of my life's
  happiness that I mingle them in all those memories I love to revive。
  Later; and more especially in connection with his letters…patent; I
  had the pleasure of doing my host some service。 Monsieur de Chessel
  enjoyed his wealth with an ostentation that gave umbrage to certain of
  his neighbors。 He was able to vary and renew his fine horses and
  elegant equipages; his wife dressed exquisitely; he received on a
  grand scale; his servants were more numerous than his neighbors
  approved; for all of which he was said to be aping princes。 The
  Frapesle estate is immense。 Before such luxury as this the Comte de
  Mortsauf; with one family cariole;which in Touraine is something
  between a coach without springs and a post…chaise;forced by limited
  means to let or farm Clochegourde; was Tourangean up to the time when
  royal favor restored the family to a distinction possibly unlooked
  for。 His greeting to me; the younger son of a ruined family whose
  escutcheon dated back to the Crusades; was intended to show contempt
  for the large fortune and to belittle the possessions; the woods; the
  arable lands; the meadows; of a neighbor who was not of noble birth。
  Monsieur de Chessel fully understood this。 They always met politely;
  but there was none of that daily intercourse or that agreeable
  in