第 9 节
作者:想聊      更新:2021-02-19 01:11      字数:9322
  within it; would probably not have lived in the atmosphere of a city。
  Country air and her mother's brooding care had kept the life in that
  frail body; delicate as a hot…house plant growing in a harsh and
  foreign climate。 Though in nothing did she remind me of her mother;
  Madeleine seemed to have her soul; and that soul held her up。 Her hair
  was scanty and black; her eyes and cheeks hollow; her arms thin; her
  chest narrow; showing a battle between life and death; a duel without
  truce in which the mother had so far been victorious。 The child willed
  to live;perhaps to spare her mother; for at times; when not
  observed; she fell into the attitude of a weeping…willow。 You might
  have thought her a little gypsy dying of hunger; begging her way;
  exhausted but always brave and dressed up to play her part。
  〃Where have you left Jacques?〃 asked the countess; kissing the white
  line which parted the child's hair into two bands that looked like a
  crow's wings。
  〃He is coming with papa。〃
  Just then the count entered; holding his son by the hand。 Jacques; the
  image of his sister; showed the same signs of weakness。 Seeing these
  sickly children beside a mother so magnificently healthy it was
  impossible not to guess at the causes of the grief which clouded her
  brow and kept her silent on a subject she could take to God only。 As
  he bowed; Monsieur de Mortsauf gave me a glance that was less
  observing than awkwardly uneasy;the glance of a man whose distrust
  grows out of his inability to analyze。 After explaining the
  circumstances of our visit; and naming me to him; the countess gave
  him her place and left the room。 The children; whose eyes were on
  those of their mother as if they drew the light of theirs from hers;
  tried to follow her; but she said; with a finger on her lips; 〃Stay
  dears!〃 and they obeyed; but their eyes filled。 Ah! to hear that one
  word 〃dears〃 what tasks they would have undertaken!
  Like the children; I felt less warm when she had left us。 My name
  seemed to change the count's feeling toward me。 Cold and supercilious
  in his first glance; he became at once; if not affectionate; at least
  politely attentive; showing me every consideration and seeming pleased
  to receive me as a guest。 My father had formerly done devoted service
  to the Bourbons; and had played an important and perilous; though
  secret part。 When their cause was lost by the elevation of Napoleon;
  he took refuge in the quietude of the country and domestic life;
  accepting the unmerited accusations that followed him as the
  inevitable reward of those who risk all to win all; and who succumb
  after serving as pivot to the political machine。 Knowing nothing of
  the fortunes; nor of the past; nor of the future of my family; I was
  unaware of this devoted service which the Comte de Mortsauf well
  remembered。 Moreover; the antiquity of our name; the most precious
  quality of a man in his eyes; added to the warmth of his greeting。 I
  knew nothing of these reasons until later; for the time being the
  sudden transition to cordiality put me at my ease。 When the two
  children saw that we were all three fairly engaged in conversation;
  Madeleine slipped her head from her father's hand; glanced at the open
  door; and glided away like an eel; Jacques following her。 They
  rejoined their mother; and I heard their voices and their movements;
  sounding in the distance like the murmur of bees about a hive。
  I watched the count; trying to guess his character; but I became so
  interested in certain leading traits that I got no further than a
  superficial examination of his personality。 Though he was only forty…
  five years old; he seemed nearer sixty; so much had the great
  shipwreck at the close of the eighteenth century aged him。 The
  crescent of hair which monastically fringed the back of his head;
  otherwise completely bald; ended at the ears in little tufts of gray
  mingled with black。 His face bore a vague resemblance to that of a
  white wolf with blood about its muzzle; for his nose was inflamed and
  gave signs of a life poisoned at its springs and vitiated by diseases
  of long standing。 His flat forehead; too broad for the face beneath
  it; which ended in a point; and transversely wrinkled in crooked
  lines; gave signs of a life in the open air; but not of any mental
  activity; it also showed the burden of constant misfortunes; but not
  of any efforts made to surmount them。 His cheekbones; which were brown
  and prominent amid the general pallor of his skin; showed a physical
  structure which was likely to ensure him a long life。 His hard; light…
  yellow eye fell upon mine like a ray of wintry sun; bright without
  warmth; anxious without thought; distrustful without conscious cause。
  His mouth was violent and domineering; his chin flat and long。 Thin
  and very tall; he had the bearing of a gentleman who relies upon the
  conventional value of his caste; who knows himself above others by
  right; and beneath them in fact。 The carelessness of country life had
  made him neglect his external appearance。 His dress was that of a
  country…man whom peasants and neighbors no longer considered except
  for his territorial worth。 His brown and wiry hands showed that he
  wore no gloves unless he mounted a horse; or went to church; and his
  shoes were thick and common。
  Though ten years of emigration and ten years more of farm…life had
  changed his physical condition; he still retained certain vestiges of
  nobility。 The bitterest liberal (a term not then in circulation) would
  readily have admitted his chivalric loyalty and the imperishable
  convictions of one who puts his faith to the 〃Quotidienne〃; he would
  have felt respect for the man religiously devoted to a cause; honest
  in his political antipathies; incapable of serving his party but very
  capable of injuring it; and without the slightest real knowledge of
  the affairs of France。 The count was in fact one of those upright men
  who are available for nothing; but stand obstinately in the way of
  all; ready to die under arms at the post assigned to them; but
  preferring to give their life rather than to give their money。
  During dinner I detected; in the hanging of his flaccid cheeks and the
  covert glances he cast now and then upon his children; the traces of
  some wearing thought which showed for a moment upon the surface。
  Watching him; who could fail to understand him? Who would not have
  seen that he had fatally transmitted to his children those weakly
  bodies in which the principle of life was lacking。 But if he blamed
  himself he denied to others the right to judge him。 Harsh as one who
  knows himself in fault; yet without greatness of soul or charm to
  compensate for the weight of misery he had thrown into the balance;
  his private life was no doubt the scene of irascibilities that were
  plainly revealed in his angular features and by the incessant
  restlessness of his eye。 When his wife returned; followed by the
  children who seemed fastened to her side; I felt the presence of
  unhappiness; just as in walking over the roof of a vault the feet
  become in some way conscious of the depths below。 Seeing these four
  human beings together; holding them all as it were in one glance;
  letting my eye pass from one to the other; studying their countenances
  and their respective attitudes; thoughts steeped in sadness fell upon
  my heart as a fine gray rain dims a charming landscape after the sun
  has risen clear。
  When the immediate subject of conversation was exhausted the count
  told his wife who I was; and related certain circumstances connected
  with my family that were wholly unknown to me。 He asked me my age。
  When I told it; the countess echoed my own exclamation of surprise at
  her daughter's age。 Perhaps she had thought me fifteen。 Later on; I
  discovered that this was still another tie which bound her strongly to
  me。 Even then I read her soul。 Her motherhood quivered with a tardy
  ray of hope。 Seeing me at over twenty years of age so slight and
  delicate and yet so nervously strong; a voice cried to her; 〃They too
  will live!〃 She looked at me searchingly; and in that moment I felt
  the barriers of ice melting between us。 She seemed to have many
  questions to ask; but uttered none。
  〃If study has made you ill;〃 she said; 〃the air of our valley will
  soon restore you。〃
  〃Modern education is fatal to children;〃 remarked the count。 〃We stuff
  them with mathematics and ruin their health with sciences; and make
  them old before their time。 You must stay and rest here;〃 he added;
  turning to me。 〃You are crushed by the avalanche of ideas that have
  rolled down upon you。 What sort of future will this universal
  education bring upon us unless we prevent its evils by replacing
  public education in the hands of the religious bodies?〃
  These words were in harmony with a speech he afterwards made at the
  elections when he refused his support to a man whose gifts would have
  done good service to the royalist cause。 〃I