第 49 节
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  at all hours; and some nights even her dreams
  were of ruined; castles where kings and queens
  and bishops disported themselves; with pawns
  for servants; and where a weird knight on horseback
  used the castle's highest tower for a hurdle;
  landing always a hundred yards to one side of
  where he would be expected to come down。
  It was not long; of course; before Billy could
  play a game of chess; after a fashion; but she
  knew just enough to realize that she actually
  knew nothing; and she knew; too; that until she
  could play a really good game; her moves would
  not hold Bertram's attention for one minute。
  Not at present; therefore; was she willing Bertram
  should know what she was attempting to do。
  Billy had not yet learned what the great
  surgeon had said to Bertram。  She knew only that
  his arm was no better; and that he never voluntarily
  spoke of his painting。  Over her now seemed
  to be hanging a vague horror。  Something was
  the matter。  She knew that。  But what it was
  she could not fathom。  She realized that Arkwright
  was trying to help; and her gratitude;
  though silent; knew no bounds。  Not even to
  Aunt Hannah or Uncle William could she speak
  of this thing that was troubling her。  That they;
  too; understood; in a measure; she realized。  But
  still she said no word。  Billy was wearing a proud
  little air of aloofness these days that was heart…
  breaking to those who saw it and read it aright
  for what it was: loyalty to Bertram; no matter
  what happened。  And so Billy pored over her
  chessboard feverishly; tirelessly; having ever
  before her longing eyes the dear time when Bertram;
  across the table from her; should sit happily
  staring for half an hour at a move she had
  made。
  Whatever Billy's chess…playing was to signify;
  however; in her own life; it was destined to play
  a part in the lives of two friends of hers that was
  most unexpected。
  During Billy's very first lesson; as it chanced;
  Alice Greggory called and found Billy and Arkwright
  so absorbed in their game that they did
  not at first hear Eliza speak her name。
  The quick color that flew to Arkwright's face
  at sight of herself was construed at once by Alice
  as embarrassment on his part at being found
  tte……tte with Bertram Henshaw's wife。  And
  she did not like it。  She was not pleased that he
  was there。  She was less pleased that he blushed
  for being there。
  It so happened that Alice found him there
  again several times。  Alice gave a piano lesson
  at two o'clock every Tuesday and Friday afternoon
  to a little Beacon Street neighbor of Billy's;
  and she had fallen into the habit of stepping in
  to see Billy for a few minutes afterward; which
  brought her there at a little past three; just after
  the chess lesson was well started。
  If; the first time that Alice Greggory found
  Arkwright opposite Billy at the chess…table; she
  was surprised and displeased; the second and third
  times she was much more so。  When it finally
  came to her one day with sickening illumination;
  that always the tte……ttes were during Bertram's
  hour at the doctor's; she was appalled。
  What could it mean?  Had Arkwright given
  up his fight?  Was he playing false to himself
  and to Bertram by trying thus; on the sly; to win
  the love of his friend's wife?  Was this man;
  whom she had so admired for his brave stand;
  and to whom all unasked she had given her heart's
  best love (more the pity of it!)was this idol
  of hers to show feet of clay; after all?  She could
  not believe it。  And yet
  Sick at heart; but imbued with the determination
  of a righteous cause; Alice Greggory resolved;
  for Billy's sake; to watch and wait。  If
  necessary she should speak to some onethough
  to whom she did not know。  Billy's happiness
  should not be put in jeopardy if she could help it。
  Indeed; no!
  As the weeks passed; Alice came to be more
  and more uneasy; distressed; and grieved。  Of
  Billy she could believe no evil; but of Arkwright
  she was beginning to think she could believe
  everything that was dishonorable and despicable。
  And to believe that of the man she still loved
  no wonder that Alice did not look nor act like
  herself these days。
  Incensed at herself because she did love him;
  angry at him because he seemed to be proving
  himself so unworthy of that love; and genuinely
  frightened at what she thought was the fast…
  approaching wreck of all happiness for her dear
  friend; Billy; Alice did not know which way to
  turn。  At the first she had told herself confidently
  that she would ‘‘speak to somebody。''  But; as
  time passed; she saw the impracticability of that
  idea。  Speak to somebody; indeed!  To whom?
  When?  Where?  What should she say?  Where
  was her right to say anything?  She was not
  dealing with a parcel of naughty children who had
  pilfered the cake jar!  She was dealing with grown
  men and women; who; presumedly; knew their
  own affairs; and who; certainly; would resent
  any interference from her。  On the other hand;
  could she stand calmly by and see Bertram lose
  his wife; Arkwright his honor; Billy her happiness;
  and herself her faith in human nature; all
  because to do otherwise would be to meddle in other
  people's business?  Apparently she could; and
  should。  At least that seemed to be the rle which
  she was expected to play。
  It was when Alice had reached this unhappy
  frame of mind that Arkwright himself unexpectedly
  opened the door for her。
  The two were alone together in Bertram
  Henshaw's den。  It was Tuesday afternoon。  Alice
  had called to find Billy and Arkwright deep in
  their usual game of chess。  Then a matter of
  domestic affairs had taken Billy from the room。
  ‘‘I'm afraid I'll have to be gone ten minutes;
  or more;'' she had said; as she rose from the table
  reluctantly。  ‘‘But you might be showing Alice
  the moves; Mr。 Arkwright;'' she had added; with
  a laugh; as she disappeared。
  ‘‘Shall I teach you the moves?'' he had smiled;
  when they were alone together。
  Alice's reply had been so indignantly short
  and sharp that Arkwright; after a moment's
  pause; had said; with a whimsical smile that yet
  carried a touch of sadness:
  ‘‘I am forced to surmise from your answer
  that you think it is _you_ who should be teaching
  _me_ moves。  At all events; I seem to have been
  making some moves lately that have not suited
  you; judging by your actions。  Have I offended
  you in any way; Alice?''
  The girl turned with a quick lifting of her head。
  Alice knew that if ever she were to speak; it must
  be now。  Never again could she hope for such
  an opportunity as this。  Suddenly throwing
  circumspect caution quite aside; she determined
  that she would speak。  Springing to her feet she
  crossed the room and seated herself in Billy's
  chair at the chess…table。
  ‘‘Me!  Offend me!'' she exclaimed; in a low
  voice。  ‘‘As if I were the one you were offending!''
  ‘‘Why; _Alice!_'' murmured the man; in obvious
  stupefaction。
  Alice raised her hand; palm outward。
  ‘‘Now don't; _please_ don't pretend you don't
  know;'' she begged; almost piteously。  ‘‘Please
  don't add that to all the rest。  Oh; I understand;
  of course; it's none of my affairs; and I wasn't
  going to speak;'' she choked; ‘‘but; to…day; when
  you gave me this chance; I had to。  At first I
  couldn't believe it;'' she plunged on; plainly hurrying
  against Billy's return。  ‘‘After all you'd
  told me of how you meant to fight ityour
  tiger skin。  And I thought it merely _happened_
  that you were here alone with her those days I
  came。  Then; when I found out they were _always_
  the days Mr。 Henshaw was away at the doctor's;
  I had to believe。''
  She stopped for breath。  Arkwright; who; up
  to this moment had shown that he was completely
  mystified as to what she was talking
  about; suddenly flushed a painful red。  He was
  obviously about to speak; but she prevented him
  with a quick gesture。
  ‘‘There's a little more I've got to say; please。
  As if it weren't bad enough to do what you're
  doing _at all_; but you must needs take it at such
  a time as this whenwhen her husband _isn't_
  doing just what he ought to do; and we all know
  itit's so unfair to take her now; and try to
  to win  And you aren't even fair with him;''
  she protested tremulously。  ‘‘You pretend to
  be his friend。  You go with him everywhere。  It's
  just as if you were _helping_ toto pull him down。
  You're one with the whole bunch。''  (The blood
  suddenly receded from Arkwright's face; leaving
  it very white; but if Alice saw it; she paid no
  heed。)  ‘‘Everybody says you are。  Then to
  come here like this; on the sly; when you know
  he can't be here; I  Oh; can't you see what
  you're doing?''
  There was a moment's pause; then Arkwright
  spoke。  A deep pain looked from his eyes。  He
  was still very pale; and his mouth had settled