第 50 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2021-02-18 21:46      字数:9322
  spoke。  A deep pain looked from his eyes。  He
  was still very pale; and his mouth had settled
  into sad lines。
  ‘‘I think; perhaps; it may be just as well if I
  tell you what I _am_ doingor; rather; trying to
  do;'' he said quietly。
  Then he told her。
  ‘‘And so you see;'' he added; when he had
  finished the tale; ‘‘I haven't really accomplished
  much; after all; and it seems the little I have
  accomplished has only led to my being misjudged
  by you; my best friend。''
  Alice gave a sobbing cry。  Her face was scarlet。
  Horror; shame; and relief struggled for mastery
  in her countenance。
  ‘‘Oh; but I didn't know; I didn't know;'' she
  moaned; twisting her hands nervously。  ‘‘And
  now; when you've been so brave; so truefor
  me to accuse you of  Oh; can you _ever_ forgive
  me?  But you see; knowing that you _did_ care for
  her; it did look''  She choked into silence;
  and turned away her head。
  He glanced at her tenderly; mournfully。
  ‘‘Yes;'' he said; after a minute; in a low voice。
  ‘‘I can see how it did look; and so I'm going to
  tell you now something I had meant never to tell
  you。  There really couldn't have been anything in
  that; you see; for I found out long ago that it was
  gonewhatever love there had been for
  Billy。''
  ‘‘But yourtiger skin!''
  ‘‘Oh; yes; I thought it was alive;'' smiled
  Arkwright; sadly; ‘‘when I asked you to help me
  fight it。  But one day; very suddenly; I discovered
  that it was nothing but a dead skin of dreams
  and memories。  But I made another discovery;
  too。  I found that just beyond lay another one;
  and that was very much alive。''
  ‘‘Another one?'' Alice turned to him in
  wonder。  ‘‘But you never asked me to help you fight
  that one!''
  He shook his head。
  ‘‘No; I couldn't; you see。  You couldn't have
  helped me。  You'd only have hindered me。''
  ‘‘Hindered you?''
  ‘‘Yes。  You see; it was my love foryou;
  that I was fightingthen。''
  Alice gave a low cry and flushed vividly; but
  Arkwright hurried on; his eyes turned away。
  ‘‘Oh; I understand。  I know。  I'm not asking
  foranything。  I heard some time ago of your
  engagement to Calderwell。  I've tried many
  times to say the proper; expected pretty speeches;
  butI couldn't。  I will now; though。  I do。
  You have all my tenderest best wishes for your
  happinessdear。  If long ago I hadn't been
  such a blind fool as not to know my own
  heart''
  ‘‘Butbut there's some mistake;'' interposed
  Alice; palpitatingly; with hanging head。
  ‘‘II'm not engaged to Mr。 Calderwell。''
  Arkwright turned and sent a keen glance into
  her face。
  ‘‘You'renot?''
  ‘‘No。''
  ‘‘But I heard that Calderwell''  He stopped
  helplessly。
  ‘‘You heard that Mr。 Calderwell was engaged;
  very likely。  Butit so happens he isn't engaged
  to me;'' murmured Alice; faintly。
  ‘‘But; long ago you said''  Arkwright
  paused; his eyes still keenly searching her face。
  ‘‘Never mind what I saidlong ago;'' laughed
  Alice; trying unsuccessfully to meet his gaze。
  ‘‘One says lots of things; at times; you know。''
  Into Arkwright's eyes came a new light; a
  light that plainly needed but a breath to fan it
  into quick fire。
  ‘‘Alice;'' he said softly; ‘‘do you mean that
  maybe nowI needn't try to fightthat other
  tiger skin?''
  There was no answer。
  Arkwright reached out a pleading hand。
  ‘‘Alice; dear; I've loved you so long;'' he begged
  unsteadily。  ‘‘Don't you think that sometime;
  if I was very; very patient; you could just _begin_
  to care a little for me?''
  Still there was no answer。  Then; slowly; Alice
  shook her head。  Her face was turned quite away
  which was a pity; for if Arkwright could have
  seen the sudden tender mischief in her eyes; his
  own would not have become so somber。
  ‘‘Not even a little bit?''
  ‘‘I couldn't everbegin;'' answered a half…
  smothered voice。
  ‘‘Alice!'' cried the man; heart…brokenly。
  Alice turned now; and for a fleeting instant
  let him see her eyes; glowing with the love so
  long kept in relentless exile。
  ‘‘I couldn't; because; you see…I began
  long ago;'' she whispered。
  ‘‘Alice!''  It was the same single word; but
  spoken with a world of difference; for into it now
  was crowded all the glory and the wonder of a
  great love。  ‘‘Alice!'' breathed the man again;
  and this time the word was; oh; so tenderly whispered
  into the little pink and white ear of the girl
  in his arms。
  ‘‘I got delayed;'' began Billy; in the doorway。
  ‘‘Oh…h!'' she broke off; beating a hushed; but
  precipitate; retreat。
  Fully thirty minutes later; Billy came to the
  door again。  This time her approach was heralded
  by a snatch of song。
  ‘‘I hope you'll excuse my being gone so long;''
  she smiled; as she entered the room where her
  two guests sat decorously face to face at the chess…
  table。
  ‘‘Well; you know you said you'd be gone ten
  minutes;'' Arkwright reminded her; politely。
  ‘‘Yes; I know I did。''  And Billy; to her credit;
  did not even smile at the man who did not know
  ten minutes from fifty。
  CHAPTER XXX
  BY A BABY'S HAND
  After all; it was the baby's hand that did it;
  as was proper; and perhaps to be expected; for
  surely; was it not Bertram; Jr。's place to show
  his parents that he was; indeed; no Wedge; but
  a dear and precious Tie binding two loving; loyal
  hearts more and more closely together?  It
  would seem; indeed; that Bertram; Jr。; thought
  so; perhaps; and very bravely he set about it;
  though; to carry out his purpose; he had to turn
  his steps into an unfamiliar waya way of pain;
  and weariness; and danger。
  It was Arkwright who told Bertram that the
  baby was very sick; and that Billy wanted him。
  Bertram went home at once to find a distracted;
  white…faced Billy; and a twisted; pain…racked
  little creature; who it was almost impossible to
  believe was the happy; laughing baby boy he
  had left that morning。
  For the next two weeks nothing was thought
  of in the silent old Beacon Street house but the
  tiny little life hovering so near Death's door that
  twice it appeared to have slipped quite across
  the threshold。  All through those terrible weeks
  it seemed as if Billy neither ate nor slept; and
  always at her side; comforting; cheering; and
  helping wherever possible was Bertram; tender;
  loving; and marvelously thoughtful。
  Then came the turning point when the universe
  itself appeared to hang upon a baby's
  breath。  Gradually; almost imperceptibly; came
  the fluttering back of the tiny spirit into the
  longing arms stretched so far; far out to meet and
  hold it。  And the father and the mother; looking
  into each other's sleepless; dark…ringed eyes;
  knew that their son was once more theirs to love
  and cherish。
  When two have gone together with a dear one
  down into the Valley of the Shadow of Death;
  and have come back; either mourning or rejoicing;
  they find a different world from the one they
  had left。  Things that were great before seem
  small; and some things that were small seem
  great。  At least Bertram and Billy found their
  world thus changed when together they came
  back bringing their son with them。
  In the long weeks of convalescence; when the
  healthy rosiness stole bit by bit into the baby's
  waxen face; and the light of recognition and
  understanding crept day by day into the baby's
  eyes; there was many a quiet hour for heart…to…
  heart talks between the two who so anxiously
  and joyously hailed every rosy tint and fleeting
  sparkle。  And there was so much to tell; so much
  to hear; so much to talk about!  And always;
  running through everything; was that golden
  thread of joy; beside which all else paledthat
  they had Baby and each other。  As if anything
  else mattered!
  To be sure; there was Bertram's arm。  Very
  early in their talks Billy found out about that。
  But Billy; with Baby getting well; was not to be
  daunted; even by this。
  ‘‘Nonsense; darlingnot paint again;
  indeed!  Why; Bertram; of course you will;'' she
  cried confidently。
  ‘‘But; Billy; the doctor said;'' began Bertram;
  but Billy would not even listen。
  ‘‘Very well; what if he did; dear?'' she
  interrupted。  ‘‘What if he did say you couldn't use
  your right arm much again?''  Billy's voice broke
  a little; then quickly steadied into something very
  much like triumph。  ‘‘You've got your left one!''
  Bertram shook his head。
  ‘‘I can't paint with that。''
  ‘‘Yes; you can;'' insisted Billy; firmly。  ‘‘Why;
  Bertram; what do you suppose you were given
  two arms for if not to fight with both of them?
  And I'm going to be ever so much prouder of
  what you paint now; because I'll know how splendidly
  you worked to do it。  Besides; there's Baby。
  As if you weren't ever going to paint for Baby!
  Why; Bertram; I'm going to have you paint Bab