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作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9250
  pleasant   now;   and   Adam;   when   he   came   in   the   evening;   said;   if
  Hetty could set off to…morrow; he would make time to go with her
  to Treddleston and see her safe into the Stoniton coach。
  “I wish I could go with you and take care of you; Hetty;” he said;
  the next morning; leaning in at the coach door; “but you won’t stay
  much beyond a week—the time ’ull seem long。”
  He was looking at her fondly; and his strong hand held hers in
  its grasp。 Hetty felt a sense of protection in his presence—she was
  used to it now: if she could have had the past undone and known
  no other love than her quiet liking for Adam! The tears rose as she
  gave him the last look。
  “God   bless   her   for   loving   me;”   said   Adam;   as   he   went   on   his
  way to work again; with Gyp at his heels。
  But Hetty’s tears were not for Adam—not for the anguish that
  would come upon him when he found she was gone from him for
  ever。 They were for the misery of her own lot; which took her away
  from this brave tender man who offered up his whole  life  to  her;
  and threw her; a poor helpless suppliant; on the man who would
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  think it a misfortune that she was obliged to cling to him。
  At three o’clock that day; when Hetty was on the coach that was
  to take her; they said; to Leicester—part of the long; long  way  to
  Windsor—she felt dimly that she might be travelling all this weary
  journey towards the beginning of new misery。
  Yet Arthur was at Windsor; he would surely not be angry with
  her。    If  he  did  not  mind    about    her   as  he  used    to  do;  he  had
  promised to be good to her。
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  Book Fifth
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  Chapter XXXVI
  The Journey of Hope
  long; lonely journey; with sadness in the heart; away from
  Athe familiar to the strange: that is a hard and dreary thing
  even to the rich; the strong; the instructed;   a  hard   thing;
  even when we are called by duty; not urged by dread。
  What was it then to Hetty? With her poor narrow thoughts; no
  longer melting into vague hopes; but pressed upon by the chill of
  definite   fear;   repeating  again   and again   the   same   small   round   of
  memories—shaping   again   and   again   the   same   childish;   doubtful
  images   of   what   was   to   come—seeing   nothing   in   this   wide   world
  but the little history of her own pleasures and pains; with so little
  money in her pocket; and the way so long and difficult。 Unless she
  could   afford   always   to   go   in   the   coaches—and   she   felt   sure   she
  could   not;   for   the   journey   to   Stoniton   was   more   expensive   than
  she   had   expected—it   was   plain   that   she   must   trust   to   carriers’
  carts   or   slow   waggons;   and   what   a   time   it   would   be   before   she
  could get to the end of her journey! The burly old coachman from
  Oakbourne; seeing such a pretty young woman among the outside
  passengers;      had    invited   her   to  come    and    sit  beside   him;   and
  feeling that it became him as a man and a coachman to open the
  dialogue with a joke; he applied   himself as   soon   as   they  were   off
  the stones to the elaboration of one suitable in all respects。 After
  many cuts with his whip and glances at Hetty out of the corner of
  his eye; he lifted his lips above the edge of his wrapper and said;
  “He’s pretty nigh six foot; I’ll be bound; isna he; now?”
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  “Who?” said Hetty; rather startled。
  “Why;     the   sweetheart      as  you’ve    left  behind;    or  else   him   as
  you’re goin’ arter—which is it?”
  Hetty felt her face flushing and then turning pale。 She thought
  this   coachman   must   know   something   about   her。   He   must   know
  Adam; and might tell him where she was gone; for it is difficult to
  country   people   to   believe   that   those   who   make   a   figure   in   their
  own   parish   are   not   known   everywhere   else;   and   it   was   equally
  difficult to Hetty to understand that chance words could happen to
  apply     closely   to  her   circumstances。       She   was    too  frightened     to
  speak。
  “Hegh; hegh!” said the coachman; seeing that his joke was not
  so gratifying as he had expected; “you munna take it too ser’ous; if
  he’s behaved ill; get another。 Such  a pretty  lass  as   you  can   get a
  sweetheart any day。”
  Hetty’s   fear   was   allayed   by…and…by;   when   she   found   that   the
  coachman made no further allusion to her personal concerns; but
  it still had the effect of preventing her from asking him what were
  the   places   on   the   road   to   Windsor。   She   told   him   she   was   only
  going a little way out of Stoniton; and   when she   got  down   at  the
  inn where the coach stopped; she hastened away with her basket
  to   another   part   of   the   town。   When   she   had   formed   her   plan   of
  going to Windsor; she had not foreseen any difficulties except that
  of getting away; and after she had overcome this by proposing the
  visit to Dinah; her thoughts   flew  to  the   meeting  with  Arthur  and
  the   question   how   he   would   behave        to   her—not   resting   on     any
  probable incidents of the journey。 She was too entirely ignorant of
  travelling   to   imagine   any   of   its   details;   and   with   all   her   store   of
  money—her         three    guineas—in       her   pocket;   she   thought     herself
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  amply provided。 It was not until she found how much it cost her to
  get   to   Stoniton   that   she   began   to   be   alarmed   about   the   journey;
  and then; for the first time; she felt her ignorance as to the places
  that must be passed on her way。 Oppressed with this new alarm;
  she walked along the grim Stoniton streets; and at last turned into
  a shabby little inn; where she hoped to get a cheap lodging for the
  night。 Here she asked the landlord if he could tell her what places
  she must go to; to get to Windsor。
  “Well; I can’t rightly say。 Windsor must be pretty nigh London;
  for it’s where the king lives;” was the answer。 “Anyhow; you’d best
  go   t’   Ashby   next—that’s   south’ard。       But   there’s   as   many   places
  from here to London as there’s houses in Stoniton; by what I can
  make  out。   I’ve   never   been   no   traveller   myself。   But   how   comes   a
  lone young woman like you to be thinking o’ taking such a journey
  as that?”
  “I’m    going    to  my   brother—he’s       a  soldier   at  Windsor;”      said
  Hetty; frightened at the landlord’s questioning look。 “I can’t afford
  to go by the coach; do you think there’s a cart goes toward Ashby
  in the morning?”
  “Yes; there may be carts if anybody knowed where they started
  from;     but   you   might   run   over   the   town    before   you   found    out。
  You’d best set off and walk; and trust to summat overtaking you。”
  Every     word    sank    like  lead   on   Hetty’s    spirits;  she   saw    the
  journey   stretch   bit   by   bit   before   her   now。   Even   to   get   to   Ashby
  seemed a hard thing: it might take the day; for what she knew; and
  that was nothing to the rest of the journey。 But it must be done—
  she   must   get   to   Arthur。   Oh;   how   she   yearned   to   be   again   with
  somebody who would care for her! She who had never  got  up   in
  the morning without the certainty of seeing familiar faces; people
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  on whom she had an acknowledged claim; whose farthest journey
  had been to Rosseter on the pillion with her uncle; whose thoughts
  had always been taking holiday in dreams of ple