第 50 节
作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9300
  those  wonderful   eyes。  How  she  will   dote   on   her   children!  She   is
  almost  a   child  herself; and   the   little   pink   round   things   will   hang
  about  her  like   florets   round   the   central   flower;   and   the   husband
  will    look   on;   smiling     benignly;     able;   whenever       he   chooses;     to
  withdraw   into   the   sanctuary   of         his  wisdom;      towards     which   his
  sweet  wife   will look   reverently;   and   never   lift   the   curtain。   It   is   a
  marriage such as they made in the golden age; when the men were
  all wise and majestic and the women all lovely and loving。
  It   was    very   much     in   this   way    that   our   friend    Adam      Bede
  thought about Hetty; only he put his thoughts into different words。
  If   ever   she   behaved      with    cold   vanity    towards      him;   he   said   to
  himself it is only because she doesn’t love me well enough; and he
  was sure that  her  love;   whenever  she   gave   it;   would be   the   most
  precious thing a man could possess on earth。   Before   you  despise
  Adam   as   deficient   in   penetration;   pray   ask   yourself   if   you   were
  ever predisposed to believe evil of any pretty woman—if you ever
  could;   without   hard   head…breaking   demonstration;   believe   evil   of
  the  one    supremely   pretty        woman       who    has   bewitched       you。   No:
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  people who love downy peaches are apt not to think of the stone;
  and sometimes jar their teeth terribly against it。
  Arthur   Donnithorne;   too;   had   the   same   sort   of   notion   about
  Hetty; so far as he had thought of her nature of all。 He felt sure she
  was   a   dear;   affectionate;   good   little   thing。   The   man   who   awakes
  the wondering tremulous passion of a young girl always thinks her
  affectionate;   and   if   he   chances   to   look   forward   to   future   years;
  probably imagines himself being virtuously tender to her; because
  the poor thing is so clingingly fond of him。 God made   these dear
  women so—and it is a convenient arrangement in case of sickness。
  After all; I believe the wisest of us must be beguiled in this way
  sometimes; and must think both better and worse of people than
  they      deserve。     Nature      has    her     language;      and     she    is   not
  unveracious;   but   we   don’t   know   all   the   intricacies   of   her   syntax
  just yet; and in a hasty reading we may happen to extract the very
  opposite   of   her   real   meaning。   Long   dark   eyelashes;   now—what
  can   be   more   exquisite?   I   find   it   impossible   not   to   expect   some
  depth of soul behind a deep grey eye with a long dark eyelash; in
  spite of an experience which has shown me that they may go along
  with   deceit;   peculation;   and   stupidity。   But   if;   in   the   reaction   of
  disgust;   I   have   betaken   myself   to   a   fishy   eye;   there   has   been   a
  surprising similarity of result。 One begins to suspect at length that
  there   is   no   direct   correlation   between   eyelashes   and   morals;   or
  else;   that   the   eyelashes   express   the   disposition   of   the   fair   one’s
  grandmother; which is on the whole less important to us。
  No   eyelashes   could   be   more   beautiful   than   Hetty’s;   and   now;
  while   she   walks   with   her   pigeon…like   stateliness   along   the   room
  and looks down on her shoulders bordered by the old black lace;
  the   dark   fringe shows   to  perfection   on   her  pink   cheek。   They   are
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  but dim ill…defined pictures that her narrow bit of an imagination
  can   make   of   the   future;   but   of   every   picture   she   is   the   central
  figure   in   fine   clothes;   Captain   Donnithorne   is   very   close   to   her;
  putting   his   arm   round   her;   perhaps   kissing   her;   and   everybody
  else is   admiring  and   envying  her—especially  Mary  Burge;   whose
  new   print   dress   looks   very   contemptible   by   the   side   of   Hetty’s
  resplendent  toilette。   Does   any  sweet  or  sad   memory   mingle   with
  this    dream     of  the    future—any       loving    thought     of  her    second
  parents—of the children she had helped to tend—of any youthful
  companion; any pet animal; any relic of her own childhood even?
  Not   one。   There   are   some   plants   that   have   hardly   any   roots:   you
  may tear them from their native nook of rock or wall; and just lay
  them over your ornamental flower…pot; and they blossom none the
  worse。 Hetty could have cast all her past life behind her and never
  cared to be reminded of it again。 I think she had no feeling at all
  towards the old house; and did not like the Jacob’s Ladder and the
  long row of  hollyhocks in   the  garden better  than   other  flowers—
  perhaps not so well。 It was wonderful how little she seemed to care
  about waiting on her uncle; who had been a good father to her—
  she   hardly   ever   remembered   to   reach   him   his   pipe   at   the   right
  time without being told; unless a visitor happened to be there; who
  would      have   a  better    opportunity      of  seeing    her   as  she    walked
  across the hearth。 Hetty did not understand how anybody could be
  very    fond    of   middle…aged       people。    And    as   for   those   tiresome
  children;   Marty   and   Tommy   and   Totty;   they   had   been   the   very
  nuisance      of  her   life—as   bad    as   buzzing     insects   that   will  come
  teasing  you  on a   hot   day   when   you   want   to   be   quiet。   Marty;   the
  eldest;    was    a  baby    when     she   first  came     to  the   farm;   for   the
  children born before him had died; and so Hetty had had them all
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  three; one after the other; toddling by her side in the meadow; or
  playing about her on wet days in the half…empty rooms of the large
  old   house。   The  boys   were  out  of  hand   now;   but   Totty   was   still   a
  day…long plague; worse than either of the others had been; because
  there was more fuss made about her。 And there was no end to the
  making   and   mending   of   clothes。   Hetty   would   have   been   glad   to
  hear that she should never see a child again; they were worse than
  the nasty little lambs that the shepherd was always bringing in to
  be taken special care of in lambing time; for the lambs were got rid
  of   sooner   or   later。   As   for   the   young   chickens   and   turkeys;   Hetty
  would   have  hated   the  very   word   “hatching;”   if   her   aunt   had   not
  bribed   her   to   attend   to   the   young   poultry   by   promising   her   the
  proceeds       of  one   out   of  every    brood。    The   round     downy      chicks
  peeping out from under their mother’s wing never touched Hetty
  with   any   pleasure;   that   was   not   the   sort   of   prettiness   she   cared
  about; but she did care about the prettiness of the new things she
  would   buy   for   herself   at   Treddleston   Fair   with   the   money   they
  fetched。     And    yet   she   looked     so  dimpled;     so   charming;      as  she
  stooped   down   to   put   the   soaked   bread   under   the   hen…coop;   that
  you must have been a very acute personage indeed to suspect her
  of that hardness。 Molly; the housemaid; with a turn…up nose and a
  protuberant   jaw;   was   really   a   tender…hearted           girl;   and;   as  Mrs。
  Poyser  said;  a   jewel   to  look   after   the   poultry;   but   her   stolid   face
  showed nothing of this maternal delight; any more   than   a brown
  earthenware pitcher will show the light of the lamp within it。
  It   is  generally     a  feminine     eye    that   first  detects    the   moral
  deficiencies hidden under the “dear deceit” of beauty; so it is not
  surprising      that   Mrs。    Poyser;    with    her   keenness      and   abundant
  opportunity   for   observation;   should   have   formed   a   tolerably   fair
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  estimate      of   what   might   be   expected     from    Hetty    in