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  painful to me; and a glance from her eye would call the blush of conscious
  guilt into my cheek。
  〃I will write a letter to her; which you may deliver when I am gone; as
  I   shall   go   to   St。   Eustatia   the   day   after   my   union   with   Julia;   who   will
  accompany me。〃
  Belcour   promised   to   fulfil   the   request   of   his   friend;   though   nothing
  was   farther   from   his   intentions;   than   the   least   design   of   delivering   the
  letter; or making Charlotte acquainted with the provision Montraville had
  made for her; he was bent on the complete ruin of the unhappy girl; and
  supposed; by reducing her to an entire dependance on him; to bring her by
  degrees to consent to gratify his ungenerous passion。
  The evening before the day appointed for the nuptials of Montraville
  and Julia; the former refired early to his apartment; and ruminating on the
  past scenes of his life; suffered the keenest remorse in the remembrance of
  Charlotte's seduction。 〃Poor girl; 〃 said he; 〃I will at least write and bid her
  adieu;   I   will   too   endeavour   to   awaken   that   love   of   virtue   in   her   bosom
  which her unfortunate attachment to me has extinguished。〃 He took up the
  pen and began to write; but words were denied him。 How could he address
  the    woman      whom     he   had    seduced;    and    whom;     though     he  thought
  unworthy his tenderness; he was about to bid adieu for ever? How should
  he    tell  her  that  he   was   going    to  abjure    her;  to  enter   into  the   most
  indissoluble ties with another; and that he could not even own the infant
  which she bore as his child? Several letters were begun and destroyed: at
  length he completed the following:
  TO CHARLOTTE。
  〃Though I have taken up my pen to address you; my poor injured girl;
  I feel I am inadequate to the task; yet; however painful the endeavour; I
  could not resolve upon leaving you for ever without one kind line to bid
  you adieu; to tell you how my heart bleeds at the remembrance of what
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  you   was;   before   you   saw   the   hated   Montraville。   Even   now   imagination
  paints   the   scene;   when;   torn   by   contending   passions;   when;   struggling
  between love and duty; you fainted in my arms; and I lifted you into the
  chaise:    I  see   the  agony     of  your   mind;    when;     recovering;    you    found
  yourself   on   the  road   to Portsmouth:   but   how;   my  gentle girl;  how   could
  you;  when   so   justly  impressed   with   the  value   of   virtue;  how   could   you;
  when     loving    as  I  thought    you   loved   me;    yield  to  the   solicitations   of
  Belcour?
  〃Oh Charlotte; conscience tells me it was I; villain that I am; who first
  taught you the allurements of guilty pleasure; it was I who dragged you
  from the calm repose which innocence and virtue ever enjoy; and can I;
  dare I tell you; it was not love prompted to the horrid deed? No; thou dear;
  fallen   angel;   believe   your   repentant   Montraville;   when   he   tells   you   the
  man who truly loves will never betray the object of his affection。 Adieu;
  Charlotte: could you still find charms in a life of unoffend…ing innocence;
  return to your parents; you shall never want the means of support both for
  yourself and   child。  Oh! gracious heaven!   may  that child be   entirely  free
  from the vices of its father and the weakness of its mother。
  〃To…morrowbut no; I cannot tell you what to…morrow will produce;
  Belcour will inform you: he also has cash for you; which I beg you will
  ask for whenever you may want it。 Once more adieu: believe me could I
  hear   you   was   returned   to   your   friends;   and   enjoying   that   tranquillity   of
  which I have robbed you; I should be as completely happy as even you; in
  your fondest hours; could wish me; but till then a gloom will obscure the
  brightest prospects of MONTRAVILLE。〃
  After    he  had    sealed   this  letter  he   threw   himself    on   the  bed;   and
  enjoyed a  few  hours   repose。  Early  in the  morning   Belcour  tapped   at   his
  door: he arose hastily; and prepared to meet his Julia at the altar。
  〃This is the letter to Charlotte;〃 said he; giving it to Belcour: 〃take it to
  her when we are gone to Eustatia; and I conjure you; my dear friend; not
  to use any sophistical arguments to prevent her return to virtue; but should
  she incline that way; encourage her in the thought; and assist her to put her
  design in execution。
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  CHAPTER XXVII。
  Pensive she mourn'd; and hung her languid head; Like a fair lily
  overcharg'd with dew。
  CHARLOTTE   had   now   been   left   almost   three   months   a   prey  to   her
  own     melancholy      reflexionssad     companions      indeed;    nor   did  any   one
  break    in  upon    her  solitude    but  Belcour;    who    once   or  twice   called   to
  enquire after her health; and tell her he had in vain endeavoured to bring
  Montraville to hear reason; and once; but only once; was her mind cheared
  by the receipt of an affectionate letter from Mrs。 Beauchamp。 Often had
  she    wrote    to  her   perfidious     seducer;    and   with   the   most    persuasive
  eloquence endeavoured to convince him of her innocence; but these letters
  were   never   suffered     to   reach   the   hands   of  Montraville;   or   they   must;
  though   on   the   very   eve   of   marriage;   have   prevented   his   deserting   the
  wretched   girl。   Real   anguish   of   heart   had   in   a   great   measure   faded   her
  charms; her cheeks were pale from want of rest; and her eyes; by frequent;
  indeed   almost   continued   weeping;   were   sunk   and   heavy。   Sometimes   a
  gleam     of  hope    would    play   about   her   heart   when    she   thought    of  her
  parents〃They   cannot   surely;〃   she   would   say;   〃refuse   to   forgive   me;   or
  should they deny their pardon to me; they win not hate my innocent infant
  on account of its mother's errors。〃 How often did the poor mourner wish
  for the consoling presence of the benevolent Mrs。 Beauchamp。
  〃If she were here;〃 she would   cry; 〃she would certainly comfort   me;
  and sooth the distraction of my soul。 〃
  She was sitting one afternoon; wrapped in these melancholy reflexions;
  when     she   was    interrupted    by   the  entrance     of  Belcour。    Great    as  the
  alteration was which incessant sorrow had made on her person; she   was
  still  interesting;    still  charming;    and   the  unhallowed      flame;   which    had
  urged Belcour to plant dissension between her and Montraville; still raged
  in his bosom: he was determined; if possible; to make her his mistress; nay;
  he had even conceived the diabolical scheme of taking her to New…York;
  and   making   her   appear   in   every   public   place   where   it   was   likely   she
  should     meet   Montraville;     that  he   might    be  a  witness    to  his  unmanly
  triumph。
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  When he entered the room where Charlotte was sitting; he assumed the
  look     of  tender;    consolatory     friendship。    〃And     how    does    my    lovely
  Charlotte?〃 said he; taking her hand: 〃I fear you are not so well as I could
  wish。〃
  〃I am not well; Mr。 Belcour;〃 said she; 〃very far from it; but the pains
  and infirmities of the body I could easily bear; nay; submit to them with
  patience; were they not aggravated by the most insupportable anguish of
  my mind。〃
  〃You are not happy; Charlotte;〃 said he; with a look of well…dissembled
  sorrow。
  〃Alas!〃 replied she mournfully; shaking her head; 〃how can I be happy;
  deserted and forsaken as I am; without a friend of my own sex to whom I
  can unburthen my full heart; nay; my fidelity suspected by the very man
  for whom I have sacrificed every thing valuable in life; for whom I have
  made myself a poor despised creature; an outcast from society; an object
  only of contempt and pity。〃
  〃You think too meanly of yourself; Miss Temple: there is no one who
  would   dare   to   treat   you   with   contempt:   au   who   have   the   pleasure     of
  knowing you must admire and esteem。 You are lonely here; my dear girl;
  give me leave to conduct you to New…York; where the agreeable society of
  some ladies; to whom I will introduce you; will dispel these sad thoughts;
  and I shall again see returning chearfulness animate those lovely f