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  some ladies; to whom I will introduce you; will dispel these sad thoughts;
  and I shall again see returning chearfulness animate those lovely features。〃
  〃Oh never! never!〃 cried Charlotte; emphatically: 〃the virtuous part of
  my sex will scorn me; and I will never associate with infamy。 No; Belcour;
  here    let  me   hide   my    shame    and   sorrow;    here   let  me   spend    my   few
  remaining      days   in   obscurity;   unknown      and   unpitied;    here   let  me   die
  unlamented;  and   my   name   sink   to   oblivion。〃   Here   her   tears   stopped   her
  utterance。   Belcour   was   awed   to   silence:   he   dared   not   interrupt   her;   and
  after a moment's pause she proceeded〃I once had conceived the thought
  of going to New…York to seek out the still dear; though cruel; ungenerous
  Montraville;      to  throw    myself   at  his  feet;  and   entreat   his   compassion;
  heaven   knows;   not   for   myself;   if   I   am   no   longer   beloved;   I   will   not   be
  indebted   to   his   pity   to   redress   my   injuries;   but   I   would   have   knelt   and
  entreated him not to forsake my poor unborn〃 She could say no more; a
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  crimson   glow   rushed   over   her   cheeks;   and   covering   her   face   with   her
  hands; she sobbed aloud。
  Something   like   humanity   was   awakened   in   Belcour's   breast   by   this
  pathetic speech: he arose and walked towards the window; but the selfish
  passion which had taken possession of his heart; soon stifled these   finer
  emotions;   and   he   thought   if   Charlotte   was   once   convinced   she   had   no
  longer   any   dependance   on   Montraville;   she   would   more   readily   throw
  herself on his protection。 Determined; therefore; to inform her of all that
  had   happened;   he   again   resumed   his   seat;   and   finding   she   began   to   be
  more composed; enquired if she had ever heard from Montraville since the
  unfortunate recontre in her bed chamber。
  〃Ah no;〃 said she。 〃I fear I shall never hear from him again。〃
  〃I am greatly of your opinion;〃 said Belcour; 〃for he has been for some
  time past greatly attached〃
  At    the    word     〃attached〃     a   death…like     paleness     overspread       the
  countenance of Charlotte; but she applied to some hartshorn which stood
  beside her; and Belcour proceeded。
  〃He has been for some time past greatly attached to one Miss Franklin;
  a pleasing lively girl; with a large fortune。〃
  〃She may be richer; may be handsomer;〃 cried Charlotte; 〃but cannot
  love him so well。 Oh may she beware of his art; and not trust him too far
  as I have done。〃
  〃He addresses her publicly;〃 said he; 〃and it was rumoured they were
  to   be   married    before    he   sailed   for  Eustatia;    whither    his  company      is
  ordered。〃
  〃Belcour;〃 said Charlotte; seizing his hand; and gazing at him earnestly;
  while her pale lips trembled with convulsive agony; 〃tell me; and tell me
  truly;   I   beseech   you;   do   you   think   he   can   be   such   a   villain   as   to   marry
  another   woman;   and   leave   me   to   die   with   want   and   misery  in   a   strange
  land: tell me what you think; I can bear it very well; I will not shrink from
  this   heaviest   stroke   of   fate;   I   have   deserved   my   afflictions;   and   I   will
  endeavour to bear them as I ought。〃
  〃I fear;〃 said Belcour; 〃he can be that villain。〃
  〃Perhaps;〃 cried she; eagerly interrupting him; 〃perhaps he is married
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  already:   come;   let   me   know   the   worst;〃   continued   she   with   an   affected
  look of composure: 〃you need not be afraid; I shall not send the fortunate
  lady a bowl of poison。〃
  〃Well then; my dear girl;〃 said he; deceived by her appearance; 〃they
  were     married    on   Thursday;     and    yesterday     morning     they   sailed   for
  Eustatia。〃
  〃Marriedgonesay        you?〃    cried   she  in  a  distracted    accent;   〃what
  without a last farewell; without one thought on my unhappy situation! Oh
  Montraville;   may   God   forgive   your   perfidy。〃   She   shrieked;   and   Belcour
  sprang forward just in time to prevent her falling to the floor。
  Alarming faintings now succeeded each other; and she was conveyed
  to her bed; from whence she earnestly prayed she might never more arise。
  Belcour staid with her that night; and in the morning found her in a high
  fever。   The   fits   she   had   been   seized   with   had   greatly   terrified   him;   and
  confined as she now was to a bed of sickness; she was no longer an object
  of desire: it is true for several days he went constantly to see her; but her
  pale; emaciated appearance disgusted him: his visits became less frequent;
  he forgot the solemn charge given him by Montraville; he even forgot the
  money   entrusted   to   his   care;   and;   the   burning   blush   of   indignation   and
  shame   tinges   my   cheek   while   I   write   it;   this   disgrace   to   humanity   and
  manhood at length forgot even the injured Charlotte; and; attracted by the
  blooming health of a farmer's daughter; whom he had seen in his frequent
  excursions to the country; he left the unhappy girl to sink unnoticed to the
  grave; a prey to sickness; grief; and penury; while he; having triumphed
  over   the   virtue   of   the   artless   cottager;   rioted   in   all   the   intemperance   of
  luxury and lawless pleasure。
  CHAPTER XXVIII。
  A TRIFLING RETROSPECT。
  〃BLESS my heart;〃 cries my young; volatile reader; 〃I shall never have
  patience to get through these volumes; there are so many ahs! and ohs! so
  much fainting; tears; and distress; I am sick to death of the subject。〃 My
  dear; chearful; innocent girl; for innocent I will suppose you to be; or you
  would acutely feel the woes of Charlotte; did conscience say; thus might it
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  have   been   with   me;   had   not   Providence   interposed   to   snatch   me   from
  destruction:      therefore;    my    lively;  innocent     girl;  I  must    request    your
  patience: I am writing a tale of truth: I mean to write it to the heart: but if
  perchance the heart is rendered impenetrable by unbounded prosperity; or
  a continuance in vice; I expect not my tale to please; nay; I even expect it
  will   be   thrown   by   with   disgust。   But   softly;   gentle   fair   one;   I   pray   you
  throw it not aside till you have perused the whole; mayhap you may find
  something therein to repay you for the trouble。 Methinks I see a sarcastic
  smile sit on your countenance。〃And what;〃 cry you; 〃does the conceited
  author suppose we can glean from these pages; if Charlotte is held up as
  an object of terror; to prevent us from falling into guilty errors? does not
  La   Rue   triumph   in   her   shame;   and   by   adding   art   to   guilt;   obtain    the
  affection of a worthy man; and rise to a station where she is beheld with
  respect; and chearfully received into all companies。 What then is the moral
  you   would   inculcate? Would   you   wish   us   to   think   that   a   deviation   from
  virtue; if covered by art and hypocrisy; is not an object of detestation; but
  on the contrary shall raise us to fame and honour? while the hapless girl
  who     falls  a  victim    to  her   too   great   sensibility;   shall  be   loaded    with
  ignominy       and   shame?〃      No;   my    fair  querist;    I  mean    no   such    thing。
  Remember the endeavours of the wicked are often suffered to prosper; that
  in the end their fall may be attended with more bitterness of heart; while
  the cup of affliction is poured out for wise and salutary ends; and they who
  are compelled to drain it even to the bitter dregs; often find comfort at the
  bottom;   the   tear of   penitence blots   their offences   from  the   book   of   fate;
  and they rise from the heavy; painful trial; purified and fit for a mansion in
  the kingdom of eternity。
  Yes; my young friends; the tear of compassion shall fall for the fate of
  Charlotte; while the name of La Rue shall be detested and despised。 For
  Charlotte; the soul melts with sympathy; for La Rue; it feels nothing but
  horror and contempt。 But perhaps your gay hearts would rather follow the
  fortunate Mrs。 Crayton through the scenes of pleasure and dissipation in
  which   she   was   engaged;   than   listen   to   the   complaints   and   miseries   of
  Charlotte。 I will for on