第 23 节
作者:随便看看      更新:2022-07-12 16:23      字数:9308
  he   could   best   do   alone   …   and   they   came   back;   upon   a   rain   night;   to   the
  scene of her long preparation。          She turned to him upon the threshold; as
  the rain was dripping from the porch; and said:
  '〃O sir; it is the Death…watch ticking for me!〃
  '〃Well!〃   he   answered。     〃And   if   it   were?〃  '〃O   sir!〃   she   returned   to
  him; 〃look kindly on me; and be merciful to me!                 I beg your pardon。        I
  will do anything you wish; if you will only forgive me!〃
  'That had become the poor fool's constant song:              〃I beg your pardon;〃
  and 〃Forgive me!〃
  'She was not worth hating; he felt nothing but contempt for her。 But;
  she had long been in the way; and he had long been weary; and the work
  was near its end; and had to be worked out。
  '〃You fool;〃 he said。      〃Go up the stairs!〃
  'She obeyed very quickly; murmuring; 〃I will do anything you wish!〃
  When he came into the Bride's Chamber; having been a little retarded by
  the heavy fastenings of the great door (for they were alone in the house;
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  and he had arranged that the people who attended on them should come
  and   go   in   the   day);   he   found   her   withdrawn   to   the   furthest   corner;   and
  there  standing   pressed   against   the  paneling   as   if   she  would   have   shrunk
  through   it:    her   flaxen   hair   all   wild   about   her   face;   and   her   large   eyes
  staring at him in vague terror。
  '〃What are you afraid of?         Come and sit down by me。〃
  '〃I will do anything you wish。          I beg your pardon; sir。        Forgive me!〃
  Her monotonous tune as usual。
  '〃Ellen; here is a writing that   you must write out to…morrow; in   your
  own hand。       You may as well be seen by others; busily engaged upon it。
  When you have written it all fairly; and corrected all mistakes; call in any
  two people there may be about the house; and sign your name to it before
  them。     Then;   put   it   in   your   bosom   to   keep   it   safe;   and   when   I   sit   here
  again to…morrow night; give it to me。〃
  '〃I will do it all; with the greatest care。       I will do anything you wish。〃
  '〃Don't shake and tremble; then。〃
  '〃I will try my utmost not to do it … if you will only forgive me!〃
  'Next day; she sat down at her desk; and did as she had been told。 He
  often passed in and out of the room; to observe her; and always saw her
  slowly and laboriously writing:           repeating to herself the words she copied;
  in appearance quite mechanically; and without caring or endeavouring to
  comprehend        them;   so   that  she   did  her   task。   He    saw   her   follow    the
  directions she had received; in all particulars; and at night; when they were
  alone   again   in   the   same   Bride's   Chamber;   and   he   drew   his   chair   to   the
  hearth; she timidly approached him from her distant seat; took the paper
  from her bosom; and gave it into his hand。
  'It secured all her possessions to him; in the event of her death。 He put
  her   before   him;   face   to   face;   that   he   might   look   at   her   steadily;   and   he
  asked her; in so many plain words; neither fewer nor more; did she know
  that?
  'There were spots of ink upon the bosom of her white dress; and they
  made her face look whiter and her eyes look larger as she nodded her head。
  There were spots of ink upon the hand with which she stood before him;
  nervously plaiting and folding her white skirts。
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  'He took her by the arm; and looked her; yet more closely and steadily;
  in the face。     〃Now; die!      I have done with you。〃
  'She shrunk; and uttered a low; suppressed cry。
  '〃I am not going to   kill you。        I will not   endanger my life for   yours。
  Die!〃
  'He sat before her in the gloomy Bride's Chamber; day after day; night
  after night; looking the word at her when he did not utter it。               As often as
  her large unmeaning eyes were raised from the hands in which she rocked
  her head; to the stern figure; sitting with crossed arms and knitted forehead;
  in   the   chair;  they   read    in  it;  〃Die!〃    When      she   dropped     asleep   in
  exhaustion;      she  was    called   back   to  shuddering     consciousness;      by   the
  whisper; 〃Die!〃       When she fell upon her old entreaty to be pardoned; she
  was answered 〃Die!〃 When she had out…watched and out…suffered the long
  night; and the rising sun flamed into the sombre room; she heard it hailed
  with; 〃Another day and not dead? … Die!〃
  'Shut up in the deserted mansion; aloof from all mankind; and engaged
  alone in such a struggle without any respite; it came to this … that either he
  must   die;   or   she。  He   knew   it   very   well;   and   concentrated   his   strength
  against her feebleness。        Hours upon hours he held her by the arm when
  her arm was black where he held it; and bade her Die!
  'It   was   done;   upon   a   windy   morning;   before   sunrise。   He   computed
  the time to be half…past four; but; his forgotten watch had run down; and
  he could not be sure。        She had broken away from him in the night; with
  loud and sudden cries … the first of that kind to which she had given vent …
  and   he   had   had   to   put   his   hands   over   her   mouth。 Since   then;   she   had
  been quiet in the corner of the paneling where she had sunk down; and he
  had   left   her;   and   had   gone   back   with   his   folded   arms   and   his   knitted
  forehead to his chair。
  'Paler in the pale light; more colourless than ever in the leaden dawn;
  he saw her coming; trailing herself along the floor towards him … a white
  wreck of hair; and dress; and wild eyes; pushing itself on by an irresolute
  and bending hand。
  '〃O; forgive me!       I will do anything。      O; sir; pray tell me I may live!〃
  '〃Die!〃
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  '〃Are you so resolved?         Is there no hope for me?〃
  '〃Die!〃
  'Her large eyes strained themselves with wonder and fear; wonder and
  fear changed to reproach; reproach to blank nothing。                  It was done。      He
  was not at first so sure it was done; but that the morning sun was hanging
  jewels   in   her   hair   …   he   saw   the   diamond;   emerald;   and   ruby;   glittering
  among it in little points; as he stood looking down at her … when he lifted
  her and laid her on her bed。
  'She was soon laid in the ground。            And now they were all gone; and
  he had compensated himself well。
  'He had a mind to travel。         Not that he meant to waste his Money; for
  he   was   a   pinching   man   and   liked   his   Money  dearly   (liked   nothing   else;
  indeed); but; that he had grown tired of the desolate house and wished to
  turn his back upon it and have done with it。               But; the house was worth
  Money; and Money must not be thrown away。                     He determined to sell it
  before he went。        That it might look the less wretched and bring a better
  price; he hired some labourers to work in the overgrown garden; to cut out
  the    dead   wood;    trim   the  ivy   that  drooped     in  heavy    masses    over   the
  windows       and   gables;   and    clear  the   walks    in  which    the  weeds     were
  growing mid…leg high。
  'He worked; himself; along with them。             He worked later than they did;
  and; one evening at dusk; was left working alone; with his bill…hook in his
  hand。     One autumn evening; when the Bride was five weeks dead。
  '〃It grows too dark to work longer;〃 he said to himself; 〃I must give
  over for the night。〃
  'He  detested   the   house;   and   was   loath   to   enter  it。 He   looked   at   the
  dark porch waiting for him like a tomb; and felt that it was an accursed
  house。     Near to the porch; and near to where he stood; was a tree whose
  branches waved before the old bay…window of the Bride's Chamber; where
  it   had   been   done。    The   tree   swung   suddenly;   and   made   him   start。     It
  swung   again;   although   the   night   was   still。   Looking   up   into   it;   he   saw   a
  figure among the branches。
  'It   was   the   figure   of   a   young   man。 The   face   looked   down;   as   his
  looked up; the branches cracked and swayed; the figure rapidly descended;
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