第 22 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-04-27 10:15      字数:9322
  kick in the left eye。  My eyeball seemed to have
  burst。  When they saw my eye closed; and badly
  swollen; they left me。  With this I seized the hand…
  spike; and for a time pursued them。  But here the
  carpenters interfered; and I thought I might as well
  give it up。  It was impossible to stand my hand
  against so many。  All this took place in sight of not
  less than fifty white ship…carpenters; and not one
  interposed a friendly word; but some cried; 〃Kill
  the damned nigger!  Kill him! kill him!  He struck
  a white person。〃  I found my only chance for life
  was in flight。  I succeeded in getting away without
  an additional blow; and barely so; for to strike a
  white man is death by Lynch law;and that was the
  law in Mr。 Gardner's ship…yard; nor is there much
  of any other out of Mr。 Gardner's ship…yard。
  I went directly home; and told the story of my
  wrongs to Master Hugh; and I am happy to say of
  him; irreligious as he was; his conduct was heavenly;
  compared with that of his brother Thomas under
  similar circumstances。  He listened attentively to my
  narration of the circumstances leading to the savage
  outrage; and gave many proofs of his strong indigna…
  tion at it。  The heart of my once overkind mistress
  was again melted into pity。  My puffed…out eye and
  blood…covered face moved her to tears。  She took a
  chair by me; washed the blood from my face; and;
  with a mother's tenderness; bound up my head;
  covering the wounded eye with a lean piece of fresh
  beef。  It was almost compensation for my suffering
  to witness; once more; a manifestation of kindness
  from this; my once affectionate old mistress。  Master
  Hugh was very much enraged。  He gave expression
  to his feelings by pouring out curses upon the heads
  of those who did the deed。  As soon as I got a little
  the better of my bruises; he took me with him to
  Esquire Watson's; on Bond Street; to see what could
  be done about the matter。  Mr。 Watson inquired who
  saw the assault committed。  Master Hugh told him
  it was done in Mr。 Gardner's ship…yard at midday;
  where there were a large company of men at work。
  〃As to that;〃 he said; 〃the deed was done; and there
  was no question as to who did it。〃  His answer was;
  he could do nothing in the case; unless some white
  man would come forward and testify。  He could
  issue no warrant on my word。  If I had been killed
  in the presence of a thousand colored people; their
  testimony combined would have been insufficient
  to have arrested one of the murderers。  Master Hugh;
  for once; was compelled to say this state of things
  was too bad。  Of course; it was impossible to get any
  white man to volunteer his testimony in my behalf;
  and against the white young men。  Even those who
  may have sympathized with me were not prepared
  to do this。  It required a degree of courage unknown
  to them to do so; for just at that time; the slightest
  manifestation of humanity toward a colored person
  was denounced as abolitionism; and that name sub…
  jected its bearer to frightful liabilities。  The watch…
  words of the bloody…minded in that region; and in
  those days; were; 〃Damn the abolitionists!〃 and
  〃Damn the niggers!〃  There was nothing done; and
  probably nothing would have been done if I had
  been killed。  Such was; and such remains; the state
  of things in the Christian city of Baltimore。
  Master Hugh; finding he could get no redress; re…
  fused to let me go back again to Mr。 Gardner。  He
  kept me himself; and his wife dressed my wound
  till I was again restored to health。  He then took me
  into the ship…yard of which he was foreman; in the
  employment of Mr。 Walter Price。  There I was im…
  mediately set to calking; and very soon learned the
  art of using my mallet and irons。  In the course of
  one year from the time I left Mr。 Gardner's; I was
  able to command the highest wages given to the
  most experienced calkers。  I was now of some impor…
  tance to my master。  I was bringing him from six
  to seven dollars per week。  I sometimes brought him
  nine dollars per week: my wages were a dollar and
  a half a day。  After learning how to calk; I sought
  my own employment; made my own contracts; and
  collected the money which I earned。  My pathway
  became much more smooth than before; my condi…
  tion was now much more comfortable。  When I could
  get no calking to do; I did nothing。  During these
  leisure times; those old notions about freedom would
  steal over me again。  When in Mr。 Gardner's employ…
  ment; I was kept in such a perpetual whirl of ex…
  citement; I could think of nothing; scarcely; but
  my life; and in thinking of my life; I almost forgot
  my liberty。  I have observed this in my experience
  of slavery;that whenever my condition was im…
  proved; instead of its increasing my contentment;
  it only increased my desire to be free; and set me to
  thinking of plans to gain my freedom。  I have found
  that; to make a contented slave; it is necessary to
  make a thoughtless one。  It is necessary to darken his
  moral and mental vision; and; as far as possible; to
  annihilate the power of reason。  He must be able to
  detect no inconsistencies in slavery; he must be made
  to feel that slavery is right; and he can be brought
  to that only when he ceases to be a man。
  I was now getting; as I have said; one dollar and
  fifty cents per day。  I contracted for it; I earned it;
  it was paid to me; it was rightfully my own; yet;
  upon each returning Saturday night; I was compelled
  to deliver every cent of that money to Master Hugh。
  And why?  Not because he earned it;not because
  he had any hand in earning it;not because I owed
  it to him;nor because he possessed the slightest
  shadow of a right to it; but solely because he had
  the power to compel me to give it up。  The right of
  the grim…visaged pirate upon the high seas is exactly
  the same。
  CHAPTER XI
  I now come to that part of my life during which I
  planned; and finally succeeded in making; my escape
  from slavery。  But before narrating any of the pe…
  culiar circumstances; I deem it proper to make
  known my intention not to state all the facts con…
  nected with the transaction。  My reasons for pursuing
  this course may be understood from the following:
  First; were I to give a minute statement of all the
  facts; it is not only possible; but quite probable; that
  others would thereby be involved in the most embar…
  rassing difficulties。  Secondly; such a statement would
  most undoubtedly induce greater vigilance on the
  part of slaveholders than has existed heretofore
  among them; which would; of course; be the means
  of guarding a door whereby some dear brother bond…
  man might escape his galling chains。  I deeply regret
  the necessity that impels me to suppress any thing
  of importance connected with my experience in
  slavery。  It would afford me great pleasure indeed;
  as well as materially add to the interest of my nar…
  rative; were I at liberty to gratify a curiosity; which
  I know exists in the minds of many; by an accurate
  statement of all the facts pertaining to my most
  fortunate escape。  But I must deprive myself of this
  pleasure; and the curious of the gratification which
  such a statement would afford。  I would allow my…
  self to suffer under the greatest imputations which
  evil…minded men might suggest; rather than excul…
  pate myself; and thereby run the hazard of closing
  the slightest avenue by which a brother slave might
  clear himself of the chains and fetters of slavery。
  I have never approved of the very public manner
  in which some of our western friends have conducted
  what they call the ~underground railroad;~ but which
  I think; by their open declarations; has been made
  most emphatically the ~upperground railroad。~  I honor
  those good men and women for their noble daring;
  and applaud them for willingly subjecting them…
  selves to bloody persecution; by openly avowing their
  participation in the escape of slaves。  I; however; can
  see very little good resulting from such a course;
  either to themselves or the slaves escaping; while;
  upon the other hand; I see and feel assured that
  those open declarations are a positive evil to the
  slaves remaining; who are seeking to escape。  They
  do nothing towards enlightening the slave; whilst
  they do much towards enlightening the master。
  They stimulate him to greater watchfulness; and
  enhance his power to capture his slave。  We owe
  something to the slave south of the line as well as
  to those north of it; and in aiding the latter on their
  way to freedom; we should be careful to do nothing
  which would be likely to hinder the former from
  escaping from slavery。  I would keep the merciless
  slaveholder profoundly ignorant of the means of
  flight adopted by the slave。  I would leave him to
  imagine himself surrounded by myriads of invisible
  tormentors; ever ready to snatch from his infernal
  grasp his trem