第 20 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-04-27 10:15      字数:9322
  I say; this picture sometimes appalled us; and made
  us
  〃rather bear those ills we had;
  Than fly to others; that we knew not of。〃
  In coming to a fixed determination to run away;
  we did more than Patrick Henry; when he resolved
  upon liberty or death。  With us it was a doubtful
  liberty at most; and almost certain death if we failed。
  For my part; I should prefer death to hopeless bond…
  age。
  Sandy; one of our number; gave up the notion;
  but still encouraged us。  Our company then consisted
  of Henry Harris; John Harris; Henry Bailey; Charles
  Roberts; and myself。  Henry Bailey was my uncle;
  and belonged to my master。  Charles married my
  aunt: he belonged to my master's father…in…law; Mr。
  William Hamilton。
  The plan we finally concluded upon was; to get
  a large canoe belonging to Mr。 Hamilton; and upon
  the Saturday night previous to Easter holidays;
  paddle directly up the Chesapeake Bay。  On our ar…
  rival at the head of the bay; a distance of seventy
  or eighty miles from where we lived; it was our
  purpose to turn our canoe adrift; and follow the
  guidance of the north star till we got beyond the
  limits of Maryland。  Our reason for taking the water
  route was; that we were less liable to be suspected as
  runaways; we hoped to be regarded as fishermen;
  whereas; if we should take the land route; we should
  be subjected to interruptions of almost every kind。
  Any one having a white face; and being so disposed;
  could stop us; and subject us to examination。
  The week before our intended start; I wrote sev…
  eral protections; one for each of us。  As well as I
  can remember; they were in the following words; to
  wit:
  〃This is to certify that I; the undersigned; have
  given the bearer; my servant; full liberty to go to
  Baltimore; and spend the Easter holidays。  Written
  with mine own hand; &c。; 1835。
  〃WILLIAM HAMILTON;
  〃Near St。 Michael's; in Talbot county; Maryland。〃
  We were not going to Baltimore; but; in going up
  the bay; we went toward Baltimore; and these pro…
  tections were only intended to protect us while on
  the bay。
  As the time drew near for our departure; our
  anxiety became more and more intense。  It was truly
  a matter of life and death with us。  The strength of
  our determination was about to be fully tested。  At
  this time; I was very active in explaining every dif…
  ficulty; removing every doubt; dispelling every fear;
  and inspiring all with the firmness indispensable to
  success in our undertaking; assuring them that half
  was gained the instant we made the move; we had
  talked long enough; we were now ready to move;
  if not now; we never should be; and if we did not
  intend to move now; we had as well fold our arms;
  sit down; and acknowledge ourselves fit only to be
  slaves。  This; none of us were prepared to acknowl…
  edge。  Every man stood firm; and at our last meeting;
  we pledged ourselves afresh; in the most solemn
  manner; that; at the time appointed; we would cer…
  tainly start in pursuit of freedom。  This was in the
  middle of the week; at the end of which we were
  to be off。  We went; as usual; to our several fields
  of labor; but with bosoms highly agitated with
  thoughts of our truly hazardous undertaking。  We
  tried to conceal our feelings as much as possible;
  and I think we succeeded very well。
  After a painful waiting; the Saturday morning;
  whose night was to witness our departure; came。  I
  hailed it with joy; bring what of sadness it might。
  Friday night was a sleepless one for me。  I probably
  felt more anxious than the rest; because I was; by
  common consent; at the head of the whole affair。
  The responsibility of success or failure lay heavily
  upon me。  The glory of the one; and the confusion
  of the other; were alike mine。  The first two hours
  of that morning were such as I never experienced
  before; and hope never to again。  Early in the
  morning; we went; as usual; to the field。  We were
  spreading manure; and all at once; while thus en…
  gaged; I was overwhelmed with an indescribable feel…
  ing; in the fulness of which I turned to Sandy; who
  was near by; and said; 〃We are betrayed!〃  〃Well;〃
  said he; 〃that thought has this moment struck me。〃
  We said no more。  I was never more certain of any
  thing。
  The horn was blown as usual; and we went up
  from the field to the house for breakfast。  I went for
  the form; more than for want of any thing to eat
  that morning。  Just as I got to the house; in looking
  out at the lane gate; I saw four white men; with
  two colored men。  The white men were on horseback;
  and the colored ones were walking behind; as if tied。
  I watched them a few moments till they got up to
  our lane gate。  Here they halted; and tied the colored
  men to the gate…post。  I was not yet certain as to
  what the matter was。  In a few moments; in rode
  Mr。 Hamilton; with a speed betokening great excite…
  ment。  He came to the door; and inquired if Master
  William was in。  He was told he was at the barn。  Mr。
  Hamilton; without dismounting; rode up to the barn
  with extraordinary speed。  In a few moments; he and
  Mr。 Freeland returned to the house。  By this time;
  the three constables rode up; and in great haste dis…
  mounted; tied their horses; and met Master William
  and Mr。 Hamilton returning from the barn; and
  after talking awhile; they all walked up to the
  kitchen door。  There was no one in the kitchen but
  myself and John。  Henry and Sandy were up at the
  barn。  Mr。 Freeland put his head in at the door; and
  called me by name; saying; there were some gentle…
  men at the door who wished to see me。  I stepped
  to the door; and inquired what they wanted。  They
  at once seized me; and; without giving me any satis…
  faction; tied melashing my hands closely together。
  I insisted upon knowing what the matter was。  They
  at length said; that they had learned I had been in a
  〃scrape;〃 and that I was to be examined before my
  master; and if their information proved false; I
  should not be hurt。
  In a few moments; they succeeded in tying John。
  They then turned to Henry; who had by this time
  returned; and commanded him to cross his hands。
  〃I won't!〃 said Henry; in a firm tone; indicating his
  readiness to meet the consequences of his refusal。
  〃Won't you?〃 said Tom Graham; the constable。  〃No;
  I won't!〃 said Henry; in a still stronger tone。  With
  this; two of the constables pulled out their shining
  pistols; and swore; by their Creator; that they would
  make him cross his hands or kill him。  Each cocked
  his pistol; and; with fingers on the trigger; walked
  up to Henry; saying; at the same time; if he did not
  cross his hands; they would blow his damned heart
  out。  〃Shoot me; shoot me!〃 said Henry; 〃you can't
  kill me but once。  Shoot; shoot;and be damned!  ~I
  won't be tied!~〃  This he said in a tone of loud defi…
  ance; and at the same time; with a motion as quick
  as lightning; he with one single stroke dashed the
  pistols from the hand of each constable。  As he did
  this; all hands fell upon him; and; after beating
  him some time; they finally overpowered him; and
  got him tied。
  During the scuffle; I managed; I know not how;
  to get my pass out; and; without being discovered;
  put it into the fire。  We were all now tied; and just
  as we were to leave for Easton jail; Betsy Freeland;
  mother of William Freeland; came to the door with
  her hands full of biscuits; and divided them between
  Henry and John。  She then delivered herself of a
  speech; to the following effect:addressing herself
  to me; she said; 〃~You devil!  You yellow devil!~ it was
  you that put it into the heads of Henry and John
  to run away。  But for you; you long…legged mulatto
  devil! Henry nor John would never have thought
  of such a thing。〃  I made no reply; and was imme…
  diately hurried off towards St。 Michael's。  Just a mo…
  ment previous to the scuffle with Henry; Mr。 Hamil…
  ton suggested the propriety of making a search for
  the protections which he had understood Frederick
  had written for himself and the rest。  But; just at
  the moment he was about carrying his proposal into
  effect; his aid was needed in helping to tie Henry;
  and the excitement attending the scuffle caused
  them either to forget; or to deem it unsafe; under
  the circumstances; to search。  So we were not yet
  convicted of the intention to run away。
  When we got about half way to St。 Michael's;
  while the constables having us in charge were look…
  ing ahead; Henry inquired of me what he should
  do with his pass。  I told him to eat it with his biscuit;
  and own nothing; and we passed the word around;
  〃~Own nothing;~〃 and 〃~Own nothing!~〃 said we all。
  Our confidence in each other was unshaken。  We
  were resolved to succeed or fail together; after the
  calamity had befallen us as much as before。  We
  were now pre