第 17 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-04-27 10:15      字数:9322
  I found Sandy an old adviser。  He told me; with
  great solemnity; I must go back to Covey; but that
  before I went; I must go with him into another
  part of the woods; where there was a certain ~root;~
  which; if I would take some of it with me; carrying
  it ~always on my right side;~ would render it impos…
  sible for Mr。 Covey; or any other white man; to
  whip me。  He said he had carried it for years; and
  since he had done so; he had never received a blow;
  and never expected to while he carried it。  I at first
  rejected the idea; that the simple carrying of a root
  in my pocket would have any such effect as he had
  said; and was not disposed to take it; but Sandy
  impressed the necessity with much earnestness; tell…
  ing me it could do no harm; if it did no good。  To
  please him; I at length took the root; and; ac…
  cording to his direction; carried it upon my right
  side。  This was Sunday morning。  I immediately
  started for home; and upon entering the yard gate;
  out came Mr。 Covey on his way to meeting。  He
  spoke to me very kindly; bade me drive the pigs
  from a lot near by; and passed on towards the
  church。  Now; this singular conduct of Mr。 Covey
  really made me begin to think that there was some…
  thing in the ROOT which Sandy had given me; and
  had it been on any other day than Sunday; I could
  have attributed the conduct to no other cause than
  the influence of that root; and as it was; I was half
  inclined to think the ~root~ to be something more
  than I at first had taken it to be。  All went well till
  Monday morning。  On this morning; the virtue of
  the ROOT was fully tested。  Long before daylight; I
  was called to go and rub; curry; and feed; the horses。
  I obeyed; and was glad to obey。  But whilst thus
  engaged; whilst in the act of throwing down some
  blades from the loft; Mr。 Covey entered the stable
  with a long rope; and just as I was half out of the
  loft; he caught hold of my legs; and was about tying
  me。  As soon as I found what he was up to; I gave
  a sudden spring; and as I did so; he holding to my
  legs; I was brought sprawling on the stable floor。
  Mr。 Covey seemed now to think he had me; and
  could do what he pleased; but at this moment
  from whence came the spirit I don't knowI re…
  solved to fight; and; suiting my action to the reso…
  lution; I seized Covey hard by the throat; and as I
  did so; I rose。  He held on to me; and I to him。  My
  resistance was so entirely unexpected that Covey
  seemed taken all aback。  He trembled like a leaf。
  This gave me assurance; and I held him uneasy;
  causing the blood to run where I touched him with
  the ends of my fingers。  Mr。 Covey soon called out
  to Hughes for help。  Hughes came; and; while Covey
  held me; attempted to tie my right hand。  While he
  was in the act of doing so; I watched my chance;
  and gave him a heavy kick close under the ribs。
  This kick fairly sickened Hughes; so that he left
  me in the hands of Mr。 Covey。  This kick had the
  effect of not only weakening Hughes; but Covey also。
  When he saw Hughes bending over with pain; his
  courage quailed。  He asked me if I meant to persist
  in my resistance。  I told him I did; come what
  might; that he had used me like a brute for six
  months; and that I was determined to be used so
  no longer。  With that; he strove to drag me to a
  stick that was lying just out of the stable door。  He
  meant to knock me down。  But just as he was leaning
  over to get the stick; I seized him with both hands
  by his collar; and brought him by a sudden snatch
  to the ground。  By this time; Bill came。  Covey called
  upon him for assistance。  Bill wanted to know what
  he could do。  Covey said; 〃Take hold of him; take
  hold of him!〃  Bill said his master hired him out to
  work; and not to help to whip me; so he left Covey
  and myself to fight our own battle out。  We were
  at it for nearly two hours。  Covey at length let me
  go; puffing and blowing at a great rate; saying that
  if I had not resisted; he would not have whipped
  me half so much。  The truth was; that he had not
  whipped me at all。  I considered him as getting en…
  tirely the worst end of the bargain; for he had drawn
  no blood from me; but I had from him。  The whole
  six months afterwards; that I spent with Mr。 Covey;
  he never laid the weight of his finger upon me in
  anger。  He would occasionally say; he didn't want
  to get hold of me again。  〃No;〃 thought I; 〃you
  need not; for you will come off worse than you did
  before。〃
  This battle with Mr。 Covey was the turning…
  point in my career as a slave。  It rekindled the few
  expiring embers of freedom; and revived within me
  a sense of my own manhood。  It recalled the de…
  parted self…confidence; and inspired me again with
  a determination to be free。  The gratification af…
  forded by the triumph was a full compensation for
  whatever else might follow; even death itself。  He
  only can understand the deep satisfaction which I
  experienced; who has himself repelled by force the
  bloody arm of slavery。  I felt as I never felt before。
  It was a glorious resurrection; from the tomb of
  slavery; to the heaven of freedom。  My long…crushed
  spirit rose; cowardice departed; bold defiance took
  its place; and I now resolved that; however long I
  might remain a slave in form; the day had passed
  forever when I could be a slave in fact。  I did not
  hesitate to let it be known of me; that the white
  man who expected to succeed in whipping; must
  also succeed in killing me。
  From this time I was never again what might be
  called fairly whipped; though I remained a slave
  four years afterwards。  I had several fights; but was
  never whipped。
  It was for a long time a matter of surprise to me
  why Mr。 Covey did not immediately have me taken
  by the constable to the whipping…post; and there
  regularly whipped for the crime of raising my hand
  against a white man in defence of myself。  And the
  only explanation I can now think of does not entirely
  satisfy me; but such as it is; I will give it。  Mr。 Covey
  enjoyed the most unbounded reputation for being
  a first…rate overseer and negro…breaker。  It was of con…
  siderable importance to him。  That reputation was at
  stake; and had he sent mea boy about sixteen years
  oldto the public whipping…post; his reputation
  would have been lost; so; to save his reputation; he
  suffered me to go unpunished。
  My term of actual service to Mr。 Edward Covey
  ended on Christmas day; 1833。  The days between
  Christmas and New Year's day are allowed as holi…
  days; and; accordingly; we were not required to per…
  form any labor; more than to feed and take care of
  the stock。  This time we regarded as our own; by the
  grace of our masters; and we therefore used or
  abused it nearly as we pleased。  Those of us who had
  families at a distance; were generally allowed to
  spend the whole six days in their society。  This time;
  however; was spent in various ways。  The staid; sober;
  thinking and industrious ones of our number would
  employ themselves in making corn…brooms; mats;
  horse…collars; and baskets; and another class of us
  would spend the time in hunting opossums; hares;
  and coons。  But by far the larger part engaged in
  such sports and merriments as playing ball; wres…
  tling; running foot…races; fiddling; dancing; and
  drinking whisky; and this latter mode of spending
  the time was by far the most agreeable to the feel…
  ings of our masters。  A slave who would work during
  the holidays was considered by our masters as
  scarcely deserving them。  He was regarded as one
  who rejected the favor of his master。  It was deemed
  a disgrace not to get drunk at Christmas; and he
  was regarded as lazy indeed; who had not provided
  himself with the necessary means; during the year;
  to get whisky enough to last him through Christmas。
  From what I know of the effect of these holidays
  upon the slave; I believe them to be among the
  most effective means in the hands of the slaveholder
  in keeping down the spirit of insurrection。  Were
  the slaveholders at once to abandon this practice;
  I have not the slightest doubt it would lead to an
  immediate insurrection among the slaves。  These
  holidays serve as conductors; or safety…valves; to carry
  off the rebellious spirit of enslaved humanity。  But
  for these; the slave would be forced up to the wild…
  est desperation; and woe betide the slaveholder; the
  day he ventures to remove or hinder the operation
  of those conductors!  I warn him that; in such an
  event; a spirit will go forth in their midst; more to
  be dreaded than the most appalling earthquake。
  The holidays are part and parcel of the gross
  fraud; wrong; and inhumanity of slavery。  They are
  professedly a custom established by the benevolence
  of the slaveholders; but I undertake to say; it is the
  result of selfishness; and one of the grossest frauds
  committed upon the down…trodden slave。  They do
  not give the slaves th