第 15 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-04-27 10:15      字数:9322
  into the woods; he came up and told me to stop my
  cart; and that he would teach me how to trifle away
  my time; and break gates。  He then went to a large
  gum…tree; and with his axe cut three large switches;
  and; after trimming them up neatly with his pocket…
  knife; he ordered me to take off my clothes。  I made
  him no answer; but stood with my clothes on。  He
  repeated his order。  I still made him no answer; nor
  did I move to strip myself。  Upon this he rushed
  at me with the fierceness of a tiger; tore off my
  clothes; and lashed me till he had worn out his
  switches; cutting me so savagely as to leave the marks
  visible for a long time after。  This whipping was the
  first of a number just like it; and for similar of…
  fences。
  I lived with Mr。 Covey one year。  During the first
  six months; of that year; scarce a week passed with…
  out his whipping me。  I was seldom free from a sore
  back。  My awkwardness was almost always his ex…
  cuse for whipping me。  We were worked fully up
  to the point of endurance。  Long before day we were
  up; our horses fed; and by the first approach of day
  we were off to the field with our hoes and plough…
  ing teams。  Mr。 Covey gave us enough to eat; but
  scarce time to eat it。  We were often less than five
  minutes taking our meals。  We were often in the field
  from the first approach of day till its last lingering
  ray had left us; and at saving…fodder time; midnight
  often caught us in the field binding blades。
  Covey would be out with us。  The way he used to
  stand it; was this。  He would spend the most of his
  afternoons in bed。  He would then come out fresh
  in the evening; ready to urge us on with his words;
  example; and frequently with the whip。  Mr。 Covey
  was one of the few slaveholders who could and did
  work with his hands。  He was a hard…working man。
  He knew by himself just what a man or a boy could
  do。  There was no deceiving him。  His work went on
  in his absence almost as well as in his presence; and
  he had the faculty of making us feel that he was
  ever present with us。  This he did by surprising us。
  He seldom approached the spot where we were at
  work openly; if he could do it secretly。  He always
  aimed at taking us by surprise。  Such was his cunning;
  that we used to call him; among ourselves; 〃the
  snake。〃  When we were at work in the cornfield; he
  would sometimes crawl on his hands and knees to
  avoid detection; and all at once he would rise
  nearly in our midst; and scream out; 〃Ha; ha!
  Come; come!  Dash on; dash on!〃  This being his
  mode of attack; it was never safe to stop a single
  minute。  His comings were like a thief in the night。
  He appeared to us as being ever at hand。  He was
  under every tree; behind every stump; in every bush;
  and at every window; on the plantation。  He would
  sometimes mount his horse; as if bound to St。 Mi…
  chael's; a distance of seven miles; and in half an
  hour afterwards you would see him coiled up in
  the corner of the wood…fence; watching every motion
  of the slaves。  He would; for this purpose; leave his
  horse tied up in the woods。  Again; he would some…
  times walk up to us; and give us orders as though
  he was upon the point of starting on a long journey;
  turn his back upon us; and make as though he was
  going to the house to get ready; and; before he would
  get half way thither; he would turn short and crawl
  into a fence…corner; or behind some tree; and there
  watch us till the going down of the sun。
  Mr。 Covey's FORTE consisted in his power to de…
  ceive。  His life was devoted to planning and perpe…
  trating the grossest deceptions。  Every thing he pos…
  sessed in the shape of learning or religion; he made
  conform to his disposition to deceive。  He seemed
  to think himself equal to deceiving the Almighty。
  He would make a short prayer in the morning; and
  a long prayer at night; and; strange as it may seem;
  few men would at times appear more devotional
  than he。  The exercises of his family devotions were
  always commenced with singing; and; as he was a
  very poor singer himself; the duty of raising the
  hymn generally came upon me。  He would read his
  hymn; and nod at me to commence。  I would at
  times do so; at others; I would not。  My non…com…
  pliance would almost always produce much confu…
  sion。  To show himself independent of me; he would
  start and stagger through with his hymn in the most
  discordant manner。  In this state of mind; he prayed
  with more than ordinary spirit。  Poor man! such was
  his disposition; and success at deceiving; I do verily
  believe that he sometimes deceived himself into the
  solemn belief; that he was a sincere worshipper of
  the most high God; and this; too; at a time when
  he may be said to have been guilty of compelling
  his woman slave to commit the sin of adultery。  The
  facts in the case are these:  Mr。 Covey was a poor
  man; he was just commencing in life; he was only
  able to buy one slave; and; shocking as is the fact;
  he bought her; as he said; for A BREEDER。  This woman
  was named Caroline。  Mr。 Covey bought her from
  Mr。 Thomas Lowe; about six miles from St。 Mi…
  chael's。  She was a large; able…bodied woman; about
  twenty years old。  She had already given birth to one
  child; which proved her to be just what he wanted。
  After buying her; he hired a married man of Mr。
  Samuel Harrison; to live with him one year; and him
  he used to fasten up with her every night!  The re…
  sult was; that; at the end of the year; the miserable
  woman gave birth to twins。  At this result Mr。 Covey
  seemed to be highly pleased; both with the man and
  the wretched woman。  Such was his joy; and that of
  his wife; that nothing they could do for Caroline
  during her confinement was too good; or too hard;
  to be done。  The children were regarded as being
  quite an addition to his wealth。
  If at any one time of my life more than another;
  I was made to drink the bitterest dregs of slavery;
  that time was during the first six months of my stay
  with Mr。 Covey。  We were worked in all weathers。
  It was never too hot or too cold; it could never rain;
  blow; hail; or snow; too hard for us to work in the
  field。  Work; work; work; was scarcely more the order
  of the day than of the night。  The longest days were
  too short for him; and the shortest nights too long
  for him。  I was somewhat unmanageable when I first
  went there; but a few months of this discipline
  tamed me。  Mr。 Covey succeeded in breaking me。  I
  was broken in body; soul; and spirit。  My natural
  elasticity was crushed; my intellect languished; the
  disposition to read departed; the cheerful spark that
  lingered about my eye died; the dark night of slavery
  closed in upon me; and behold a man transformed
  into a brute!
  Sunday was my only leisure time。  I spent this in
  a sort of beast…like stupor; between sleep and wake;
  under some large tree。  At times I would rise up; a
  flash of energetic freedom would dart through my
  soul; accompanied with a faint beam of hope; that
  flickered for a moment; and then vanished。  I sank
  down again; mourning over my wretched condition。
  I was sometimes prompted to take my life; and that
  of Covey; but was prevented by a combination of
  hope and fear。  My sufferings on this plantation seem
  now like a dream rather than a stern reality。
  Our house stood within a few rods of the Chesa…
  peake Bay; whose broad bosom was ever white with
  sails from every quarter of the habitable globe。
  Those beautiful vessels; robed in purest white; so
  delightful to the eye of freemen; were to me so
  many shrouded ghosts; to terrify and torment me
  with thoughts of my wretched condition。  I have of…
  ten; in the deep stillness of a summer's Sabbath;
  stood all alone upon the lofty banks of that noble
  bay; and traced; with saddened heart and tearful
  eye; the countless number of sails moving off to
  the mighty ocean。  The sight of these always affected
  me powerfully。  My thoughts would compel utter…
  ance; and there; with no audience but the Almighty;
  I would pour out my soul's complaint; in my rude
  way; with an apostrophe to the moving multitude of
  ships:
  〃You are loosed from your moorings; and are free;
  I am fast in my chains; and am a slave!  You move
  merrily before the gentle gale; and I sadly before
  the bloody whip!  You are freedom's swift…winged
  angels; that fly round the world; I am confined in
  bands of iron!  O that I were free!  O; that I were
  on one of your gallant decks; and under your pro…
  tecting wing!  Alas! betwixt me and you; the turbid
  waters roll。  Go on; go on。  O that I could also go!
  Could I but swim!  If I could fly!  O; why was I born
  a man; of whom to make a brute!  The glad ship
  is gone; she hides in the dim distance。  I am left in
  the hottest hell of unending slavery。  O God; save
  me!  God; deliver me!  Let me be free!  Is there any
  God?  Why am I a slave?  I will run away。  I will not
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