第 10 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-04-27 10:15      字数:9322
  enly smiles; and her voice of tranquil music。
  But; alas! this kind heart had but a short time to
  remain such。  The fatal poison of irresponsible power
  was already in her hands; and soon commenced its
  infernal work。  That cheerful eye; under the influ…
  ence of slavery; soon became red with rage; that
  voice; made all of sweet accord; changed to one of
  harsh and horrid discord; and that angelic face gave
  place to that of a demon。
  Very soon after I went to live with Mr。 and Mrs。
  Auld; she very kindly commenced to teach me the
  A; B; C。  After I had learned this; she assisted me in
  learning to spell words of three or four letters。  Just
  at this point of my progress; Mr。 Auld found out
  what was going on; and at once forbade Mrs。 Auld
  to instruct me further; telling her; among other
  things; that it was unlawful; as well as unsafe; to
  teach a slave to read。  To use his own words; further;
  he said; 〃If you give a nigger an inch; he will take
  an ell。  A nigger should know nothing but to obey
  his masterto do as he is told to do。  Learning would
  ~spoil~ the best nigger in the world。  Now;〃 said he; 〃if
  you teach that nigger (speaking of myself) how to
  read; there would be no keeping him。  It would for…
  ever unfit him to be a slave。  He would at once be…
  come unmanageable; and of no value to his master。
  As to himself; it could do him no good; but a great
  deal of harm。  It would make him discontented and
  unhappy。〃  These words sank deep into my heart;
  stirred up sentiments within that lay slumbering;
  and called into existence an entirely new train of
  thought。  It was a new and special revelation; ex…
  plaining dark and mysterious things; with which my
  youthful understanding had struggled; but struggled
  in vain。  I now understood what had been to me a
  most perplexing difficultyto wit; the white man's
  power to enslave the black man。  It was a grand
  achievement; and I prized it highly。  From that mo…
  ment; I understood the pathway from slavery to free…
  dom。  It was just what I wanted; and I got it at a
  time when I the least expected it。  Whilst I was sad…
  dened by the thought of losing the aid of my kind
  mistress; I was gladdened by the invaluable instruc…
  tion which; by the merest accident; I had gained
  from my master。  Though conscious of the difficulty
  of learning without a teacher; I set out with high
  hope; and a fixed purpose; at whatever cost of trou…
  ble; to learn how to read。  The very decided manner
  with which he spoke; and strove to impress his wife
  with the evil consequences of giving me instruction;
  served to convince me that he was deeply sensible
  of the truths he was uttering。  It gave me the best
  assurance that I might rely with the utmost confi…
  dence on the results which; he said; would flow from
  teaching me to read。  What he most dreaded; that
  I most desired。  What he most loved; that I most
  hated。  That which to him was a great evil; to be
  carefully shunned; was to me a great good; to be
  diligently sought; and the argument which he so
  warmly urged; against my learning to read; only
  served to inspire me with a desire and determina…
  tion to learn。  In learning to read; I owe almost as
  much to the bitter opposition of my master; as to
  the kindly aid of my mistress。  I acknowledge the
  benefit of both。
  I had resided but a short time in Baltimore before
  I observed a marked difference; in the treatment of
  slaves; from that which I had witnessed in the coun…
  try。  A city slave is almost a freeman; compared with
  a slave on the plantation。  He is much better fed and
  clothed; and enjoys privileges altogether unknown
  to the slave on the plantation。  There is a vestige of
  decency; a sense of shame; that does much to curb
  and check those outbreaks of atrocious cruelty so
  commonly enacted upon the plantation。  He is a des…
  perate slaveholder; who will shock the humanity of
  his non…slaveholding neighbors with the cries of his
  lacerated slave。  Few are willing to incur the odium
  attaching to the reputation of being a cruel master;
  and above all things; they would not be known as
  not giving a slave enough to eat。  Every city slave…
  holder is anxious to have it known of him; that he
  feeds his slaves well; and it is due to them to say;
  that most of them do give their slaves enough to eat。
  There are; however; some painful exceptions to this
  rule。  Directly opposite to us; on Philpot Street; lived
  Mr。 Thomas Hamilton。  He owned two slaves。  Their
  names were Henrietta and Mary。  Henrietta was
  about twenty…two years of age; Mary was about four…
  teen; and of all the mangled and emaciated creatures
  I ever looked upon; these two were the most so。  His
  heart must be harder than stone; that could look
  upon these unmoved。  The head; neck; and shoulders
  of Mary were literally cut to pieces。  I have fre…
  quently felt her head; and found it nearly covered
  with festering sores; caused by the lash of her cruel
  mistress。  I do not know that her master ever whipped
  her; but I have been an eye…witness to the cruelty of
  Mrs。 Hamilton。  I used to be in Mr。 Hamilton's house
  nearly every day。  Mrs。 Hamilton used to sit in a large
  chair in the middle of the room; with a heavy cow…
  skin always by her side; and scarce an hour passed
  during the day but was marked by the blood of one
  of these slaves。  The girls seldom passed her without
  her saying; 〃Move faster; you ~black gip!~〃 at the same
  time giving them a blow with the cowskin over the
  head or shoulders; often drawing the blood。  She
  would then say; 〃Take that; you ~black gip!~〃 con…
  tinuing; 〃If you don't move faster; I'll move you!〃
  Added to the cruel lashings to which these slaves
  were subjected; they were kept nearly half…starved。
  They seldom knew what it was to eat a full meal。
  I have seen Mary contending with the pigs for the
  offal thrown into the street。  So much was Mary
  kicked and cut to pieces; that she was oftener called
  〃~pecked~〃 than by her name。
  CHAPTER VII
  I lived in Master Hugh's family about seven years。
  During this time; I succeeded in learning to read and
  write。  In accomplishing this; I was compelled to re…
  sort to various stratagems。  I had no regular teacher。
  My mistress; who had kindly commenced to instruct
  me; had; in compliance with the advice and direc…
  tion of her husband; not only ceased to instruct; but
  had set her face against my being instructed by any
  one else。  It is due; however; to my mistress to say
  of her; that she did not adopt this course of treat…
  ment immediately。  She at first lacked the depravity
  indispensable to shutting me up in mental darkness。
  It was at least necessary for her to have some training
  in the exercise of irresponsible power; to make her
  equal to the task of treating me as though I were
  a brute。
  My mistress was; as I have said; a kind and tender…
  hearted woman; and in the simplicity of her soul she
  commenced; when I first went to live with her; to
  treat me as she supposed one human being ought
  to treat another。  In entering upon the duties of a
  slaveholder; she did not seem to perceive that I sus…
  tained to her the relation of a mere chattel; and
  that for her to treat me as a human being was not
  only wrong; but dangerously so。  Slavery proved as
  injurious to her as it did to me。  When I went there;
  she was a pious; warm; and tender…hearted woman。
  There was no sorrow or suffering for which she had
  not a tear。  She had bread for the hungry; clothes for
  the naked; and comfort for every mourner that came
  within her reach。  Slavery soon proved its ability to
  divest her of these heavenly qualities。  Under its in…
  fluence; the tender heart became stone; and the
  lamblike disposition gave way to one of tiger…like
  fierceness。  The first step in her downward course was
  in her ceasing to instruct me。  She now commenced
  to practise her husband's precepts。  She finally be…
  came even more violent in her opposition than her
  husband himself。  She was not satisfied with simply
  doing as well as he had commanded; she seemed
  anxious to do better。  Nothing seemed to make her
  more angry than to see me with a newspaper。  She
  seemed to think that here lay the danger。  I have had
  her rush at me with a face made all up of fury; and
  snatch from me a newspaper; in a manner that fully
  revealed her apprehension。  She was an apt woman;
  and a little experience soon demonstrated; to her
  satisfaction; that education and slavery were incom…
  patible with each other。
  From this time I was most narrowly watched。  If I
  was in a separate room any considerable length of
  time; I was sure to be suspected of having a book;
  and was at once called to give an account of myself。
  All this; however; was too late。  The first step had
  been taken。  Mistress; in teaching me the alphabet;
  had given me the ~inch;~ and no precaution could p