第 9 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2022-04-27 10:15      字数:9322
  We were not regularly allowanced。  Our food was
  coarse corn meal boiled。  This was called MUSH。  It
  was put into a large wooden tray or trough; and set
  down upon the ground。  The children were then
  called; like so many pigs; and like so many pigs they
  would come and devour the mush; some with oyster…
  shells; others with pieces of shingle; some with naked
  hands; and none with spoons。  He that ate fastest
  got most; he that was strongest secured the best
  place; and few left the trough satisfied。
  I was probably between seven and eight years old
  when I left Colonel Lloyd's plantation。  I left it with
  joy。  I shall never forget the ecstasy with which I
  received the intelligence that my old master (An…
  thony) had determined to let me go to Baltimore;
  to live with Mr。 Hugh Auld; brother to my old
  master's son…in…law; Captain Thomas Auld。  I re…
  ceived this information about three days before my
  departure。  They were three of the happiest days
  I ever enjoyed。  I spent the most part of all these
  three days in the creek; washing off the plantation
  scurf; and preparing myself for my departure。
  The pride of appearance which this would indicate
  was not my own。  I spent the time in washing; not so
  much because I wished to; but because Mrs。
  Lucretia had told me I must get all the dead skin
  off my feet and knees before I could go to Balti…
  more; for the people in Baltimore were very cleanly;
  and would laugh at me if I looked dirty。  Besides;
  she was going to give me a pair of trousers; which I
  should not put on unless I got all the dirt off me。
  The thought of owning a pair of trousers was great
  indeed!  It was almost a sufficient motive; not only
  to make me take off what would be called by pig…
  drovers the mange; but the skin itself。  I went at it
  in good earnest; working for the first time with the
  hope of reward。
  The ties that ordinarily bind children to their
  homes were all suspended in my case。  I found no
  severe trial in my departure。  My home was charm…
  less; it was not home to me; on parting from it; I
  could not feel that I was leaving any thing which I
  could have enjoyed by staying。  My mother was dead;
  my grandmother lived far off; so that I seldom saw
  her。  I had two sisters and one brother; that lived in
  the same house with me; but the early separation of
  us from our mother had well nigh blotted the fact
  of our relationship from our memories。  I looked for
  home elsewhere; and was confident of finding none
  which I should relish less than the one which I was
  leaving。  If; however; I found in my new home hard…
  ship; hunger; whipping; and nakedness; I had the
  consolation that I should not have escaped any one
  of them by staying。  Having already had more than
  a taste of them in the house of my old master; and
  having endured them there; I very naturally inferred
  my ability to endure them elsewhere; and especially
  at Baltimore; for I had something of the feeling
  about Baltimore that is expressed in the proverb;
  that 〃being hanged in England is preferable to
  dying a natural death in Ireland。〃  I had the strongest
  desire to see Baltimore。  Cousin Tom; though not
  fluent in speech; had inspired me with that desire
  by his eloquent description of the place。  I could
  never point out any thing at the Great House; no
  matter how beautiful or powerful; but that he had
  seen something at Baltimore far exceeding; both in
  beauty and strength; the object which I pointed out
  to him。  Even the Great House itself; with all its
  pictures; was far inferior to many buildings in Bal…
  timore。  So strong was my desire; that I thought a
  gratification of it would fully compensate for what…
  ever loss of comforts I should sustain by the ex…
  change。  I left without a regret; and with the highest
  hopes of future happiness。
  We sailed out of Miles River for Baltimore on a
  Saturday morning。  I remember only the day of the
  week; for at that time I had no knowledge of the
  days of the month; nor the months of the year。  On
  setting sail; I walked aft; and gave to Colonel Lloyd's
  plantation what I hoped would be the last look。  I
  then placed myself in the bows of the sloop; and
  there spent the remainder of the day in looking
  ahead; interesting myself in what was in the distance
  rather than in things near by or behind。
  In the afternoon of that day; we reached Annap…
  olis; the capital of the State。  We stopped but a
  few moments; so that I had no time to go on shore。
  It was the first large town that I had ever seen; and
  though it would look small compared with some of
  our New England factory villages; I thought it a
  wonderful place for its sizemore imposing even
  than the Great House Farm!
  We arrived at Baltimore early on Sunday morn…
  ing; landing at Smith's Wharf; not far from Bow…
  ley's Wharf。  We had on board the sloop a large
  flock of sheep; and after aiding in driving them to
  the slaughterhouse of Mr。 Curtis on Louden Slater's
  Hill; I was conducted by Rich; one of the hands
  belonging on board of the sloop; to my new home
  in Alliciana Street; near Mr。 Gardner's ship…yard; on
  Fells Point。
  Mr。 and Mrs。 Auld were both at home; and met
  me at the door with their little son Thomas; to take
  care of whom I had been given。  And here I saw what
  I had never seen before; it was a white face beaming
  with the most kindly emotions; it was the face of
  my new mistress; Sophia Auld。  I wish I could de…
  scribe the rapture that flashed through my soul as I
  beheld it。  It was a new and strange sight to me;
  brightening up my pathway with the light of happi…
  ness。  Little Thomas was told; there was his Freddy;
  and I was told to take care of little Thomas; and
  thus I entered upon the duties of my new home with
  the most cheering prospect ahead。
  I look upon my departure from Colonel Lloyd's
  plantation as one of the most interesting events of
  my life。  It is possible; and even quite probable; that
  but for the mere circumstance of being removed
  from that plantation to Baltimore; I should have
  to…day; instead of being here seated by my own table;
  in the enjoyment of freedom and the happiness of
  home; writing this Narrative; been confined in the
  galling chains of slavery。  Going to live at Baltimore
  laid the foundation; and opened the gateway; to all
  my subsequent prosperity。  I have ever regarded it
  as the first plain manifestation of that kind provi…
  dence which has ever since attended me; and marked
  my life with so many favors。  I regarded the selection
  of myself as being somewhat remarkable。  There were
  a number of slave children that might have been
  sent from the plantation to Baltimore。  There were
  those younger; those older; and those of the same
  age。  I was chosen from among them all; and was
  the first; last; and only choice。
  I may be deemed superstitious; and even egotisti…
  cal; in regarding this event as a special interposition
  of divine Providence in my favor。  But I should be
  false to the earliest sentiments of my soul; if I sup…
  pressed the opinion。  I prefer to be true to myself;
  even at the hazard of incurring the ridicule of others;
  rather than to be false; and incur my own abhor…
  rence。  From my earliest recollection; I date the en…
  tertainment of a deep conviction that slavery would
  not always be able to hold me within its foul em…
  brace; and in the darkest hours of my career in slav…
  ery; this living word of faith and spirit of hope de…
  parted not from me; but remained like ministering
  angels to cheer me through the gloom。  This good
  spirit was from God; and to him I offer thanksgiving
  and praise。
  CHAPTER VI
  My new mistress proved to be all she appeared
  when I first met her at the door;a woman of the
  kindest heart and finest feelings。  She had never had
  a slave under her control previously to myself; and
  prior to her marriage she had been dependent upon
  her own industry for a living。  She was by trade a
  weaver; and by constant application to her business;
  she had been in a good degree preserved from the
  blighting and dehumanizing effects of slavery。  I was
  utterly astonished at her goodness。  I scarcely knew
  how to behave towards her。  She was entirely unlike
  any other white woman I had ever seen。  I could not
  approach her as I was accustomed to approach other
  white ladies。  My early instruction was all out of
  place。  The crouching servility; usually so acceptable
  a quality in a slave; did not answer when manifested
  toward her。  Her favor was not gained by it; she
  seemed to be disturbed by it。  She did not deem it
  impudent or unmannerly for a slave to look her in
  the face。  The meanest slave was put fully at ease
  in her presence; and none left without feeling bet…
  ter for having seen her。  Her face was made of heav…
  enly smiles; and her voice of tranquil music。
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