第 45 节
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  however; Maitland steadily grew worse。  Gwen watched by him night
  and day until I was finally obliged to insist; on account of her
  own health; that she should leave the sick room long enough to take
  the rest she so needed。  Indeed; I feared lest I should soon have
  two invalids upon my hands; but Gwen yielded her place to Jeannette
  and Alice during the nights and soon began to show the good effects
  of sleep。
  I should have told you that; during all this time; Jeannette was
  staying with us as a guest。  I had convinced her father that it was
  best she should remain with us until the unpleasant notoriety caused
  by his arrest had; in a measure; subsided。  Then; too; I told him
  with a frankness warranted; I thought; by circumstances that he
  could not hope to live many weeks longer; and that every effort
  should be made to make the blow his death would deal Jeannette as
  light as possible。  At this he almost lost his self…control。  〃What
  will become of my child when I am gone?〃 he moaned。  〃I shall leave
  her penniless and without any means of support。〃
  〃My dear Mr。 Latour;〃 I replied; 〃you need give yourself no
  uneasiness on that score。  I will give you my word; as a man of
  honour; that so long as Miss Darrow and I live we will see that your
  daughter wants for none of the necessities of life; … unless she
  shall find someone who shall have a better right than either of us
  to care for her。〃  This promise acted like magic upon him。   He
  showered his blessings upon me; exclaiming; 〃You have lifted a great
  load from my heart; and I can now die in peace!〃  And so; indeed;
  he did。  In less than a week he was dead。  I had prepared Jeannette
  for the shock and so had her father; but; for all this; her grief
  was intense; for she loved her father with a strength of love few
  children give their parents。  In time; however; her grief grew less
  insistent and she began to gain something of her old buoyancy。
  In the meantime; Maitland's life seemed to hang by a single thread。
  It was the very worst case of nervous prostration I have ever been
  called to combat; and for weeks we had to be contented if we enabled
  him to hold his own。  During all this time Gwen watched both
  Maitland and myself with a closeness that suffered nothing to escape
  her。  I think she knew the changes in his condition better even than
  I did。
  And now I am to relate a most singular action on Gwen's part。  I
  doubt not most of her own sex would have considered it very
  unfeminine; but anyone who saw it all as I did could not; I think;
  fail to appreciate the nobility of womanhood which made it possible。
  Gwen was not dominated by those characteristics usually epitomised
  in the epithet 'lady。'  She was a woman; and she possessed; in a
  remarkable degree; that fineness of fibre; that solidity of
  character; and that largeness of soul which rise above the petty
  conventionalities of life into the broad realm of the real verities
  of existence。
  It occurred on the afternoon of the first day that Maitland showed
  the slightest improvement。  I remember distinctly how he had fallen
  into a troubled sleep from which he would occasionally cry out in a
  half…articulate manner; and how Gwen and I sat beside him waiting for
  him to awaken。  Suddenly he said something in his sleep that riveted
  our attention。  〃I tell you; Doc;〃 he muttered; 〃though love of her
  burn my heart to a cinder; I will never trade upon her gratitude;
  nor seek to profit by the promise she made her father。  Never; so
  help me God!〃
  Gwen gave me one hurried; sweeping glance and then; throwing herself
  upon the sofa; buried her face in the cushions。  I forbore to
  disturb her till I saw that Maitland was waking; when I laid my hand
  upon her head and asked her to dry her eyes lest he should notice her
  tears。
  〃May I speak to him?〃 she said; with a look of resolution upon her
  face。  I could not divine her thoughts; as she smiled at me through
  her tears; but I had no hesitancy in relying upon her judgment; so
  I gave her permission and started to leave the room。
  〃Please don't go;〃 she said to me。  〃I would prefer you should hear
  what I have to say。〃  I=20reseated myself and Gwen drew near the
  bedside。  Maitland was now awake and following her every motion。
  〃I have something I want to say to you;〃 she said; bending over him。
  〃Do you feel strong enough to listen?〃  He nodded his head and she
  continued。  〃You have already done a great deal for me; yet I come
  to you now to ask a further favour; … I will not say a sacrifice
  … greater than all the rest。  Will you try to grant it?〃
  The rich; deep tones of her voice; vibrant with tender earnestness;
  seemed to me irresistible。
  〃I will do anything in my power;〃 the invalid replied; never once
  moving his eyes from hers。
  〃Then Heaven grant it be within your power!〃 she murmured; scarcely
  above a whisper。  〃Try not to despise me for what I am about to say。
  Be lenient in your judgment。  My happiness; perhaps my very life;
  depends upon this issue。  I love you more than life; try to love me;
  if only a little!〃
  I watched the effect of this declaration with a good deal of anxiety。
  For fully half a minute Maitland seemed to doubt the evidence of his
  senses。  I saw him pinch himself to see if he were awake; and being
  thus reassured; he said slowly: 〃Try … to … love …  … you!  In vain
  have I tried not to love you from the moment I first saw you。  Oh;
  my God!  how I adore you!〃  He reached his arms out toward her; and;
  in a moment; they were locked in each other's embrace。
  I saw the first kiss given and then stole stealthily from the room。
  There was now no need of a doctor。  The weird; irresistible alchemy
  of love was at work and the reign of medicine was over。  I did not
  wish to dim the newly found light by my shadow; and; … well; … I
  wanted to see Jeannette; so I left。
  I need not tell you; even though you are a bachelor; how fast
  Maitland improved。  Gwen would permit no one else to nurse him; and
  this had much to do with the rapidity of his recovery。  In a month
  he was able to go out; and in another month Gwen became Mrs。 Maitland。
  A happier pair; or one better suited to each other; it has never
  been my privilege to know。  As I visited them in their new home I
  became more and more dissatisfied with bachelor existence; and there
  were times when I had half a mind to go straight to Jeannette and
  ask her advice in the matter。  Ah; those days!  They will never come
  to me again。  Never again will a pink and white angel knock so loudly
  at my heart; or be so warmly welcomed。  I wonder where she is and if
  she is thinking of me。
  And now I may as well stop; for my narrative is over; and I hear
  someone coming along the hail; doubtless after me。  It is only
  Harold; so I may add a word or two more。  I am writing now with
  difficulty; for some frolicsome individual has placed a hand over
  my eyes and says; 〃Guess。〃 I can just see to write between the
  fingers。  Again I am commanded; 〃 Guess!〃 so I say carelessly;
  〃Alice。〃  Then; would you believe it; someone kisses me and
  says: 〃Will you ever have done with that writing?  The children
  wish me to inform you that they have some small claim upon your
  time。〃  You see how it is。  I've got to stop; so I say; as becomes
  an obedient gentleman: 〃Very well; I will quit upon one condition。
  I have been wondering where on earth you were。  Tell me what you
  have been doing with yourself。  I have been repeating in retrospect
  all the horrors of bachelordom。〃
  〃Why; Ned dear;〃 my wife replies; 〃I've only been down…town
  shopping for Harold and little Jeannette。  Bless me; I should think
  I'd been gone a year!〃
  〃Bless you; my dear Jeannette;〃 I reply; 〃I should think you had;〃
  and I draw her down gently into my lap and kiss her again and again
  for the sake of the conviction it will carry。  She says I am
  smothering her; which means she is convinced。
  You see I have learned some things since I was a bachelor。
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