第 44 节
作者:管他三七二十一      更新:2021-12-07 09:25      字数:9321
  everything I once liked too well; I detest every folly that has
  parted us; and I hate myself worst of all。  Oh! oh! oh!  Forgive me
  for crying so。〃
  〃Well; I dare say there are associations about this place that
  upset you。  I shall go and make ready for you; dear; and then you
  can come as soon as you like。〃
  He bestowed a paternal kiss on her brow; and glided doucely away
  before she could possibly cry again。
  The very next week Rosa was at Kent Villa; with the relics of her
  husband about her; his chair; his writing…table; his clock; his
  waste…paper basket; a very deep and large one。  She had them all in
  her bedroom at Kent Villa。
  Here the days glided quietly but heavily。
  She derived some comfort from Uncle Philip。  His rough; friendly
  way was a tonic; and braced her。  He called several times about the
  Bijou。  Told her he had put up enormous boards all over the house;
  and puffed it finely。  〃I have had a hundred agents at me;〃 said
  he; 〃and the next thing; I hope; will be one customer; that is
  about the proportion。〃  At last he wrote her he had hooked a
  victim; and sold the lease and furniture for nine hundred guineas。
  Staines had assigned the lease to Rosa; so she had full powers; and
  Philip invested the money; and two hundred more she gave him; in a
  little mortgage at six per cent。
  Now came the letter from Madeira。  It gave her new life。
  Christopher was well; contented; hopeful。  His example should
  animate her。  She would bravely bear the present; and share his
  hopes of the future: with these brighter views Nature co…operated。
  The instincts of approaching maternity brightened the future。  She
  fell into gentle reveries; and saw her husband return; and saw
  herself place their infant in his arms with all a wife's; a
  mother's pride。
  In due course came another long letter from the equator; with a
  full journal; and more words of hope。  Home in less than a year;
  with reputation increased by this last cure; home; to part no more。
  Ah! what a changed wife he should find! how frugal; how candid; how
  full of appreciation; admiration; and love; of the noblest; dearest
  husband that ever breathed!
  Lady Cicely Treherne waited some weeks; to let kinder sentiments
  return。  She then called in Dear Street; but found Mrs。 Staines was
  gone to Gravesend。  She wrote to her。
  In a few days she received a reply; studiously polite and cold。
  This persistent injustice mortified her at last。  She said to
  herself; 〃Does she think his departure was no loss to ME?  It was
  to her interests; as well as his; I sacrificed my own selfish
  wishes。  I will write to her no more。〃
  This resolution she steadily maintained。  It was shaken for a
  moment; when she heard; by a side wind; that Mrs。 Staines was fast
  approaching the great pain and peril of women。  Then she wavered。
  But no。  She prayed for her by name in the Liturgy; but she
  troubled her no more。
  This state of things lasted some six weeks; when she received a
  letter from her cousin Tadcaster; close on the heels of his last;
  to which she had replied as I have indicated。  She knew his
  handwriting; and opened it with a smile。
  That smile soon died off her horror…stricken face。  The letter ran
  thus:
  TRISTAN D'ACUNHA; Jan。 5。
  DEAR CICELY;A terrible thing has just happened。  We signalled a
  raft; with a body on it; and poor Dr。 Staines leaned out of the
  port…hole; and fell overboard。  Three boats were let down after
  him; but it all went wrong; somehow; or it was too late。  They
  could never find him; he was drowned; and the funeral service was
  read for the poor fellow。
  We are all sadly cut up。  Everybody loved him。  It was dreadful
  next day at dinner; when his chair was empty。  The very sailors
  cried at not finding him。
  First of all; I thought I ought to write to his wife。  I know where
  she lives; it is called Kent Villa; Gravesend。  But I was afraid;
  it might kill her: and you are so good and sensible; I thought I
  had better write to you; and perhaps you could break it to her by
  degrees; before it gets in all the papers。
  I send this from the island; by a small vessel; and paid him ten
  pounds to take it。
  Your affectionate cousin;
  TADCASTER。
  Words are powerless to describe a blow like this: the amazement;
  the stupor; the reluctance to believethe rising; swelling;
  surging horror。  She sat like a woman of stone; crumpling the
  letter。  〃Dead!dead?〃
  For a long time this was all her mind could realizethat
  Christopher Staines was dead。  He who had been so full of life and
  thought and genius; and worthier to live than all the world; was
  dead; and a million nobodies were still alive; and he was dead。
  She lay back on the sofa; and all the power left her limbs。  She
  could not move a hand。
  But suddenly she started up; for a noble instinct told her this
  blow must not fall on the wife as it had on her; and in her time of
  peril。
  She had her bonnet on in a moment; and for the first time in her
  life; darted out of the house without her maid。  She flew along the
  streets; scarcely feeling the ground。  She got to Dear Street; and
  obtained Philip Staines's address。  She flew to it; and there
  learned he was down at Kent Villa。  Instantly she telegraphed to
  her maid to come down to her at Gravesend; with things for a short
  visit; and wait for her at the station; and she went down by train
  to Gravesend。
  Hitherto she had walked on air; driven by one overpowering impulse。
  Now; as she sat in the train; she thought a little of herself。
  What was before her?  To break to Mrs。 Staines that her husband was
  dead。  To tell her all her misgivings were more than justified。  To
  encounter her cold civility; and let her know; inch by inch; it
  must be exchanged for curses and tearing of hair; her husband was
  dead。  To tell her this; and in the telling of it; perhaps reveal
  that it was HER great bereavement; as well as the wife's; for she
  had a deeper affection for him than she ought。
  Well; she trembled like an aspen leaf; trembled like one in an
  ague; even as she sat。  But she persevered。
  A noble woman has her courage; not exactly the same as that which
  leads forlorn hopes against bastions bristling with rifles and
  tongued with flames and thunderbolts; yet not inferior to it。
  Tadcaster; small and dull; but noble by birth and instinct; had
  seen the right thing for her to do; and she; of the same breed; and
  nobler far; had seen it too; and the great soul steadily drew the
  recoiling heart and quivering body to this fiery trial; this act of
  humanityto do which was terrible and hard; to shirk it; cowardly
  and cruel。
  She reached Gravesend; and drove in a fly to Kent Villa。
  The door was opened by a maid。
  〃Is Mrs。 Staines at home?〃
  〃Yes; ma'am; she is at HOME: but〃
  〃Can I see her?〃
  〃Why; no; ma'am; not at present。〃
  〃But I must see her。  I am an old friend。  Please take her my card。
  Lady Cicely Treherne。〃
  The maid hesitated; and looked confused。  〃Perhaps you don't know;
  ma'am。  Mrs。 Staines; she isthe doctor have been in the house all
  day。〃
  〃Ah; the doctor!  I believe Dr。 Philip Staines is here。〃
  〃Why; that IS the doctor; ma'am。  Yes; he is here。〃
  〃Then; pray let me see himor no; I had better see Mr。 Lusignan。〃
  〃Master have gone out for the day; ma'am; but if you'll step in the
  drawing…room; I'll tell the doctor。〃
  Lady Cicely waited in the drawing…room some time; heart…sick and
  trembling。
  At last Dr。 Philip came in; with her card in his hand; looking
  evidently a little cross at the interruption。  〃Now; madam; please
  tell me; as briefly as you can; what I can do for you。〃
  〃Are you Dr。 Philip Staines?〃
  〃I am; madam; at your servicefor five minutes。  Can't quit my
  patient long; just now。〃
  〃Oh; sir; thank God I have found you。  Be prepared for ill news
  sad newsa terrible calamityI can't speak。  Read that; sir。〃
  And she handed him Tadcaster's note。
  He took it; and read it。
  He buried his face in his hands。  〃Christopher! my poor; poor boy!〃
  he groaned。  But suddenly a terrible anxiety seized him。  〃Who
  knows of this?〃 he asked。
  〃Only myself; sir。  I came here to break it to her。〃
  〃You are a good; kind lady; for being so thoughtful。  Madam; if
  this gets to my niece's ears; it will kill her; as sure as we stand
  here。〃
  〃Then let us keep it from her。  Command me; sir。  I will do
  anything。  I will live heretake the letters inthe journals
  anything。〃
  〃No; no; you have done your part; and God bless you for it。  You
  must not stay here。  Your ladyship's very presence; and your
  agitation; would set the servants talking; and some idiot…fiend
  among them babblingthere is nothing so terrible as a fool。〃
  〃May I remain at the inn; sir; just one night?〃
  〃Oh yes; I wish you would; and I will run over; if all is well with
  herwell with her? poor unfortunate girl!〃
  Lady Cicely saw he wished her gone; and she went directly。
  At nine o'clock that same evening; as she lay on a sofa in the best
  room of the inn; attended by her maid; Dr。 Philip Staines came to
  her。  She dismissed her maid。
  Dr。 Philip was too old; in other words; had lost too many friends;
  to be really broken down by bereavement; but he was strangely
  subdued。  The loud