第 84 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9322
  sharer of his grief。
  VIII
  Presently he drew his shoulders together with a slight determined
  jerk; threw himself back upon the grass; and turning to me; with
  that tremulous; haggard smile upon his lips which I knew so well;
  but which had never before struck me with such infinite pathos;
  〃Luckily;〃 he said; 〃there are other things to do in life besides
  being happy。  Only perhaps you understand now what I meant last
  night when I spoke of things which flesh and blood cannot bear; and
  yet which must be borne。〃
  Suddenly and sharply his words roused again into activity the
  loathsome memory which my interest in his story had partially
  deadened。  He noticed the quick involuntary contraction of my
  muscles; and read it aright。  〃That reminds me;〃 he went on; 〃I
  must claim your promise。  I have told you my story。  Now; tell me
  yours。〃
  I told him; not as I have set it down here; though perhaps even in
  greater detail; but incoherently; bit by bit; while he helped me
  out with gentle questions; quickly comprehending gestures; and
  patient waiting during the pauses of exhaustion which perforce
  interposed themselves。  As my story approached its climax; his
  agitation grew almost equal to my own; and he listened to the
  close; his teeth clenched; his brows bent; as if passing again with
  me through that awful conflict。  When I had finished; it was some
  moments before either of us could speak; and then he burst forth
  into bitter self…reproach for having so far yielded to his
  brother's angry obstinacy as to allow me to sleep the third night
  in that fatal room。
  〃It was cowardice;〃 he said; 〃sheer cowardice!  After all that has
  happened; I dared not have a quarrel with one of my own blood。  And
  yet if I had not hardened my heart; I had reason to know what I was
  risking。〃
  〃How do you mean?〃 I asked。
  〃Those other two girls who slept there;〃 he said; breathlessly; 〃it
  was in each case after the third night there that they were found
  deaddead; Evie; so runs the story; with a mark upon their necks
  similar in shape and position to the death…wound which Margaret
  Mervyn inflicted upon herself。〃
  I could not speak; but I clutched his hand with an almost
  convulsive grip。
  〃And I knew the story;I knew it!〃 he cried。  〃As boys we were not
  allowed to hear much of our family traditions; but this one I knew。
  When my father redid the interior of the east room; he removed at
  the same time a board from above the doorway outside; on which had
  been writtenit is said by Dame Alice herselfa warning upon this
  very subject。  I happened to be present when our old housekeeper;
  who had been his nurse; remonstrated with him warmly upon this act;
  and I asked her afterwards what the board was; and why she cared
  about it so much。  In her excitement she told me the story of those
  unhappy girls; repeating again and again that; if the warning were
  taken away; evil would come of it。〃
  〃And she was right;〃 I said; dully。  〃Oh; if only your father had
  left it there!〃
  〃I suppose;〃 he answered; speaking more quietly; 〃that he was
  impatient of traditions which; as I told you; he at that time more
  than half despised。  Indeed he altered the shape of the doorway;
  raising it; and making it flat and square; so that the old
  inscription could not have been replaced; even had it been wished。
  I remember it was fitted round the low Tudor arch which was
  previously there。〃
  My mind; too worn with many emotions for deliberate thought;
  wandered on languidly; and as it were mechanically; upon these last
  trivial words。  The doorway presented itself to my view as it had
  originally stood; with the discarded warning above it; and then; by
  a spontaneous comparison of mental vision; I recalled the painted
  board which I had noticed three days before in Dame Alice's tower。
  I suggested to Alan that it might have been the identical oneits
  shape was as he described。  〃Very likely;〃 he answered; absently。
  〃Do you remember what the words were?〃
  〃Yes; I think so;〃 I replied。  〃Let me see。〃  And I repeated them
  slowly; dragging them out as it were one by one from my memory:
  〃Where the woman sinned the maid shall win;
  But God help the maid that sleeps within。〃
  〃You see;〃 I said; turning towards him slowly; 〃the last line is a
  warning such as you spoke of。〃
  But to my surprise Alan had sprung to his feet; and was looking
  down at me; his whole body quivering with excitement。  〃Yes; Evie;〃
  he cried; 〃and the first line is a prophecy;where the woman
  sinned the maid HAS won。〃  He seized the hand which I instinctively
  reached out to him。  〃We have not seen the end of this yet;〃 he
  went on; speaking rapidly; and as if articulation had become
  difficult to him。  〃Come; Evie; we must go back to the house and
  look at the cabinetnow; at once。〃
  I had risen to my feet by this time; but I shrank away at those
  words。  〃To that room?  Oh; Alanno; I cannot。〃
  He had hold of my hand still; and he tightened his grasp upon it。
  〃I shall be with you; you will not be afraid with me;〃 he said。
  〃Come。〃  His eyes were burning; his face flushed and paled in rapid
  alternation; and his hand held mine like a vice of iron。
  I turned with him; and we walked back to the Grange; Alan
  quickening his pace as he went; till I almost had to run by his
  side。  As we approached the dreaded room my sense of repulsion
  became almost unbearable; but I was now infected by his excitement;
  though I but dimly comprehended its cause。  We met no one on our
  way; and in a moment he had hurried me into the house; up the
  stairs; and along the narrow passage; and I was once more in the
  east room; and in the presence of all the memories of that accursed
  night。  For an instant I stood strengthless; helpless; on the
  threshold; my gaze fixed panic…stricken on the spot where I had
  taken such awful part in that phantom tragedy of evil; then Alan
  threw his arm round me; and drew me hastily on in front of the
  cabinet。  Without a pause; giving himself time neither to speak nor
  think; he stretched out his left hand and moved the buttons one
  after another。  How or in what direction he moved them I know not;
  but as the last turned with a click; the doors; which no mortal
  hand had unclosed for three hundred years; flew back; and the
  cabinet stood open。  I gave a little gasp of fear。  Alan pressed
  his lips closely together; and turned to me with eager questioning
  in his eyes。  I pointed in answer tremblingly at the drawer which I
  had seen open the night before。  He drew it out; and there on its
  satin bed lay the dagger in its silver sheath。  Still without a
  word he took it up; and reaching his right hand round me; for I
  could not now have stood had he withdrawn his support; with a swift
  strong jerk he unsheathed the blade。  There in the clear autumn
  sunshine I could see the same dull stains I had marked in the
  flickering candle…light; and over them; still ruddy and moist; were
  the drops of my own half…dried blood。  I grasped the lapel of his
  coat with both my hands; and clung to him like a child in terror;
  while the eyes of both of us remained fixed as if fascinated upon
  the knife…blade。  Then; with a sudden start of memory; Alan raised
  his to the cornice of the cabinet; and mine followed。  No change
  that I could detect had taken place in that twisted goldwork; but
  there; clear in the sight of us both; stood forth the words of the
  magic motto:
  〃Pure blood shed by the blood…stained knife
  Ends Mervyn shame; heals Mervyn strife。〃
  In low steady tones Alan read out the lines; and then there was
  silenceon my part of stunned bewilderment; the bewilderment of a
  spirit overwhelmed beyond the power of comprehension by rushing;
  conflicting emotions。  Alan pressed me closer to him; while the
  silence seemed to throb with the beating of his heart and the
  panting of his breath。  But except for that he remained motionless;
  gazing at the golden message before him。  At length I felt a
  movement; and looking up saw his face turned down towards mine; the
  lips quivering; the cheeks flushed; the eyes soft with passionate
  feeling。  〃We are saved; my darling;〃 he whispered; 〃saved; and
  through you。〃  Then he bent his head lower; and there in that room
  of horror; I received the first long lover's kiss from my own dear
  husband's lips。
  。        。        。        。        。        。
  My husband; yes; but not till some time after that。  Alan's first
  act; when he had once fully realized that the curse was indeed
  removed; wasthrowing his budding practice to the windsto set
  sail for America。  There he sought out Jack; and labored hard to
  impart to him some of his own newfound hope。  It was slow work; but
  he succeeded at last; and only left him when; two years later; he
  had handed him over to the charge of a bright…eyed Western girl; to
  whom the whole story had been told;