第 71 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9322
  only claim to respect; indeed; was that it contained the famous
  Mervyn cabinet; a fascinating puzzle of which I will speak later;
  but which certainly had nothing haunting or horrible about its
  appearance。
  My uncle's family consisted of three sons。  The eldest; George; the
  present baronet; was now in his thirties; married; and with
  children of his own。  The second; Jack; was the black…sheep of the
  family。  He had been in the Guards; but; about five years back; had
  got into some very disgraceful scrape; and had been obliged to
  leave the country。  The sorrow and the shame of this had killed his
  unhappy mother; and her husband had not long afterwards followed
  her to the grave。  Alan; the youngest son; probably because he was
  the nearest to us in age; had been our special favorite in earlier
  years。  George was grown up before I had well left the nursery; and
  his hot; quick temper had always kept us youngsters somewhat in awe
  of him。  Jack was four years older than Alan; and; besides; his
  profession had; in a way; cut his boyhood short。  When my uncle and
  aunt were abroad; as they frequently were for months together on
  account of her health; it was Alan; chiefly; who had to spend his
  holidays with us; both as school…boy and as undergraduate。  And a
  brighter; sweeter…tempered comrade; or one possessed of more
  diversified talents for the invention of games or the telling of
  stories; it would have been difficult to find。
  For five years together now our ancient custom of an annual visit
  to Mervyn had been broken。  First there had been the seclusion of
  mourning for my aunt; and a year later for my uncle; then George
  and his wife; Lucy;she was a connection of our own on our
  mother's side; and very intimate with us all;had been away for
  nearly two years on a voyage round the world; and since then
  sickness in our own family had kept us in our turn a good deal
  abroad。  So that I had not seen my cousins since all the calamities
  which had befallen them in the interval; and as I steamed
  northwards I wondered a good deal as to the changes I should find。
  I was to have come out that year in London; but ill…health had
  prevented me; and as a sort of consolation Lucy had kindly asked me
  to spend a fortnight at Mervyn; and be present at a shooting…party;
  which was to assemble there in the first week of October。
  I had started early; and there was still an hour of the short
  autumn day left when I descended at the little wayside station;
  from which a six…mile drive brought me to the Grange。  A dreary
  drive I found itthe round; gray; treeless outline of the fells
  stretching around me on every side beneath the leaden; changeless
  sky。  The night had nearly fallen as we drove along the narrow
  valley in which the Grange stood: it was too dark to see the autumn
  tints of the woods which clothed and brightened its sides; almost
  too dark to distinguish the old tower;Dame Alice's tower as it
  was called;which stood some half a mile farther on at its head。
  But the light shone brightly from the Grange windows; and all
  feeling of dreariness departed as I drove up to the door。  Leaving
  maid and boxes to their fate; I ran up the steps into the old;
  well…remembered hall; and was informed by the dignified man…servant
  that her ladyship and the tea were awaiting me in the morning…room。
  I found that there was nobody staying in the house except Alan; who
  was finishing the long vacation there: he had been called to the
  Bar a couple of years before。  The guests were not to arrive for
  another week; so that I had plenty of opportunity in the interval
  to make up for lost time with my cousins。  I began my observations
  that evening as we sat down to dinner; a cozy party of four。  Lucy
  was quite unchangedpretty; foolish; and gentle as ever。  George
  showed the full five years' increase of age; and seemed to have
  acquired a somewhat painful control of his temper。  Instead of the
  old petulant outbursts; there was at times an air of nervous;
  irritable self…restraint; which I found the less pleasant of the
  two。  But it was in Alan that the most striking alteration
  appeared。  I felt it the moment I shook hands with him; and the
  impression deepened that evening with every hour。  I told myself
  that it was only the natural difference between boy and man;
  between twenty and twenty…five; but I don't think that I believed
  it。  Superficially the change was not great。  The slight…built;
  graceful figure; the deep gray eyes; too small for beauty; the
  clear…cut features; the delicate; sensitive lips; close shaven now;
  as they had been hairless then;all were as I remembered them。
  But the face was paler and thinner than it had been; and there were
  lines round the eyes and at the corners of the mouth which were no
  more natural to twenty…five than they would have been to twenty。
  The old charm indeedthe sweet friendliness of manner; which was
  his own peculiar possessionwas still there。  He talked and
  laughed almost as much as formerly; but the talk was manufactured
  for our entertainment; and the laughter came from his head and not
  from his heart。  And it was when he was taking no part in the
  conversation that the change showed most。  Then the face; on which
  in the old time every passing emotion had expressed itself in a
  constant; living current; became cold and impassivewithout
  interest; and without desire。  It was at such times that I knew
  most certainly that here was something which had been living and
  was dead。  Was it only his boyhood?  This question I was unable to
  answer。
  Still; in spite of all; that week was one of the happiest in my
  life。  The brothers were both men of enough ability and cultivation
  to be pleasant talkers; and Lucy could perform adequately the part
  of conversational accompanist; which; socially speaking; is all
  that is required of a woman。  The meals and evenings passed quickly
  and agreeably; the mornings I spent in unending gossips with Lucy;
  or in games with the children; two bright boys of five and six
  years old。  But the afternoons were the best part of the day。
  George was a thorough squire in all his tastes and habits; and
  every afternoon his wife dutifully accompanied him round farms and
  coverts; inspecting new buildings; trudging along half…made roads;
  or marking unoffending trees for destruction。  Then Alan and I
  would ride by the hour together over moor and meadowland; often
  picking our way homewards down the glen…side long after the autumn
  evenings had closed in。  During these rides I had glimpses many a
  time into depths in Alan's nature of which I doubt whether in the
  old days he had himself been aware。  To me certainly they were as a
  revelation。  A prevailing sadness; occasionally a painful tone of
  bitterness; characterized these more serious moods of his; but I do
  not think that; at the end of that week; I would; if I could; have
  changed the man; whom I was learning to revere and to pity; for the
  light…hearted playmate whom I felt was lost to me for ever。
  II
  The only feature of the family life which jarred on me was the
  attitude of the two brothers towards the children。  I did not
  notice this much at first; and at all times it was a thing to be
  felt rather than to be seen。  George himself never seemed quite at
  ease with them。  The boys were strong and well grown; healthy in
  mind and body; and one would have thought that the existence of two
  such representatives to carry on his name and inherit his fortune
  would have been the very crown of pride and happiness to their
  father。  But it was not so。  Lucy indeed was devoted to them; and
  in all practical matters no one could have been kinder to them than
  was George。  They were free of the whole house; and every
  indulgence that money could buy for them they had。  I never heard
  him give them a harsh word。  But there was something wrong。  A
  constraint in their presence; a relief in their absence; an evident
  dislike of discussing them and their affairs; a total want of that
  enjoyment of love and possession which in such a case one might
  have expected to find。  Alan's state of mind was even more marked。
  Never did I hear him willingly address his nephews; or in any way
  allude to their existence。  I should have said that he simply
  ignored it; but for the heavy gloom which always overspread his
  spirits in their company; and for the glances which he would now
  and again cast in their directionglances full of some hidden
  painful emotion; though of what nature it would have been hard to
  define。  Indeed; Alan's attitude towards her children I soon found
  to be the only source of friction between Lucy and this otherwise
  much…loved member of her husband's family。  I asked her one day why
  the boys never appeared at luncheon。
  〃Oh; they come when Alan is away;〃 she answered; 〃but they seem to
  annoy him so much that George thinks it is better to keep them out
  of sight when he is here。  It is very tiresome