第 67 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9321
  trammels of modern civilization; that while the possibilities of
  wrong are infinite; the openings for vengeance are few and
  contemptible。  Only when a man is thrown upon the necessities of
  this 'wild justice' does he discover how difficult vengeance really
  is。  Had Agalma been my wife; I could have wreaked my wrath upon
  her; with assurance that some of the torture she inflicted on me
  was to fall on her。  Not having this power what was I to do?  Kill
  her?  That would have afforded one moment of exquisite
  satisfactionbut to her it would have been simply deathand I
  wanted to kill the heart。〃
  He seemed working with an insane passion; so that I regarded him
  with disgust; mingled with some doubts as to what horrors he was
  about to relate。
  〃My plan was chosen。  The only way to reach her heart was to strike
  through her husband。  For several hours daily I practised with the
  pistol; untilin spite of only having a left handI acquired
  fatal skill。  But this was not enough。  Firing at a mark is simple
  work。  Firing at a manespecially one holding a pistol pointed at
  youis altogether different。  I had too often heard of 'crack
  shots' missing their men; to rely confidently on my skill in the
  shooting gallery。  It was necessary that my eye and hand should be
  educated to familiarity with the real object。  Part of the cause
  why duelists miss their man is from the trepidation of fear。  I was
  without fear。  At no moment in my life have I been afraid; and the
  chance of being shot by Korinski I counted as nothing。  The other
  cause is unfamiliarity with the mark。  This I secured myself
  against by getting a lay figure of Korinski's height; dressing it
  to resemble him; placing a pistol in its hand; and then practising
  at this mark in the woods。  After a short time I could send a
  bullet through the thorax without taking more than a hasty glance
  at the figure。
  〃Thus prepared; I started for Paris。  But you will feel for me when
  you learn that my hungry heart was baffled of its vengeance; and
  baffled for ever。  Agalma had been carried off by scarlet fever。
  Korinski had left Paris; and I felt no strong promptings to follow
  him; and wreak on him a futile vengeance。  It was on HER my wrath
  had been concentrated; and I gnashed my teeth at the thought that
  she had escaped me。
  〃My story is ended。  The months of gloomy depression which
  succeeded; now that I was no longer sustained by the hope of
  vengeance; I need not speak of。  My existence was desolate; and
  even now the desolation continues over the whole region of the
  emotions。  I carry a dead heart within me。〃
  VIII
  A SECOND VICTIM
  Bourgonef's story has been narrated with some fullness; though in
  less detail than he told it; in order that the reader may
  understand its real bearings on MY story。  Without it; the motives
  which impelled the strange pertinacity of my pursuit would have
  been unintelligible。  I have said that a very disagreeable
  impression remained on my mind respecting certain aspects of his
  character; and I felt somewhat ashamed of my imperfect sagacity in
  having up to this period been entirely blind to those aspects。  The
  truth is; every human being is a mystery; and remains so to the
  last。  We fancy we know a character; we form a distinct conception
  of it; for years that conception remains unmodified; and suddenly
  the strain of some emergency; of the incidental stimulus of new
  circumstances; reveals qualities not simply unexpected; but flatly
  contradictory of our previous conception。  We judge of a man by the
  angle he subtends to our eyeonly thus CAN we judge of him; and
  this angle depends on the relation his qualities and circumstances
  bear to our interests and sympathies。  Bourgonef had charmed me
  intellectually; morally I had never come closer to him than in the
  sympathies of public questions and abstract theories。  His story
  had disclosed hidden depths。
  My old suspicions reappeared; and a conversation we had two days
  afterwards helped to strengthen them。
  We had gone on a visit to Schwanthaler; the sculptor; at his tiny
  little castle of Schwaneck; a few miles from Munich。  The artist
  was out for a walk; but we were invited to come in and await his
  return; which would be shortly; and meanwhile Bourgonef undertook
  to show me over the castle; interesting as a bit of modern Gothic;
  realizing on a diminutive scale a youthful dream of the sculptor's。
  When our survey was completedand it did not take longwe sat at
  one of the windows and enjoyed a magnificent prospect。  〃It is
  curious;〃 said Bourgonef; 〃to be shut up here in this imitation of
  medieval masonry; where every detail speaks of the dead past; and
  to think of the events now going on in Paris which must find
  imitators all over Europe; and which open to the mind such vistas
  of the future。  What a grotesque anachronism is this Gothic castle;
  built in the same age as that which sees a reforming pope!〃
  〃Yes; but is not the reforming pope himself an anachronism?〃
  〃As a Catholic;〃 here he smiled; intimating that his orthodoxy was
  not very stringent; 〃I cannot admit that; as a Protestant; you must
  admit that if there must be a pope; he must in these days be a
  reformer; orgive up his temporal power。  Not that I look on Pio
  Nono as more than a precursor; he may break ground; and point the
  way; but he is not the man to lead Europe out of its present slough
  of despond; and under the headship of the Church found a new and
  lasting republic。  We want a Hildebrand; one who will be to the
  nineteenth century as Gregory was to the eleventh。〃
  〃Do you believe in such a possibility?  Do you think the Roman
  pontiff can ever again sway the destinies of Europe?〃
  〃I can hardly say I believe it; yet I see the possibility of such
  an opening if the right man were to arise。  But I fear he will not
  arise; or if he should; the Conclave will stifle him。  Yet there is
  but one alternative: either Europe must once more join in a crusade
  with a pope at the head; or it must hoist the red flag。  There is
  no other issue。〃
  〃Heaven preserve us from both!  And I think we shall be preserved
  from the Pope by the rottenness of the Church; from the drapeau
  rouge by the indignation and horror of all honest men。  You see how
  the Provisional Government has resisted the insane attempt of the
  fanatics to make the red flag accepted as the national banner?〃
  〃Yes; and it is the one thing which dashes my pleasure in the new
  revolution。  It is the one act of weakness which the Government has
  exhibited; a concession which will be fatal unless it be happily
  set aside by the energetic party of action。〃
  〃An act of weakness? say rather an act of strength。  A concession?
  say rather the repudiation of anarchy; the assertion of law and
  justice。〃
  〃Not a bit。  It was concession to the fears of the timid; and to
  the vanity of the French people。  The tricolor is a French flag
  not the banner of humanity。  It is because the tricolor has been
  identified with the victories of France that it appeals to the
  vanity of the vainest of people。  They forget that it is the flag
  of a revolution which failed; and of an empire which was one
  perpetual outrage to humanity。  Whereas the red is new; it is the
  symbol of an energetic; thorough…going creed。  If it carries terror
  with it; so much the better。  The tyrants and the timid should be
  made to tremble。〃
  〃I had no idea you were so bloodthirsty;〃 said I; laughing at his
  vehemence。
  〃I am not bloodthirsty at all; I am only logical and consistent。
  There is a mass of sophistry current in the world which sickens me。
  People talk of Robespierre and St。 Just; two of the most virtuous
  men that ever livedand of Dominic and Torquemada; two of the most
  single…mindedas if they were cruel and bloodthirsty; whereas they
  were only convinced。〃
  〃Is it from love of paradox that you defend these tigers?〃
  〃Tigers; againhow those beasts are calumniated!〃
  He said this with a seriousness which was irresistibly comic。  I
  shouted with laughter; but he continued gravely:
  〃You think I am joking。  But let me ask you why you consider the
  tiger more bloodthirsty than yourself?  He springs upon his food
  you buy yours from the butcher。  He cannot live without animal
  food: it is a primal necessity; and he obeys the ordained instinct。
  You can live on vegetables; yet you slaughter beasts of the field
  and birds of the air (or buy them when slaughtered); and consider
  yourself a model of virtue。  The tiger only kills his food or his
  enemies; you not only kill both; but you kill one animal to make
  gravy for another!  The tiger is less bloodthirsty than the
  Christian!〃
  〃I don't know how much of that tirade is meant to be serious; but
  to waive the question of the tiger's morality; do you reallyI
  will not say sympathize;but justify Robespierre; Dominic; St。
  Just; and the rest of the fanatics who