第 25 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9322
  it certainly did no harm to the subject of expectation that I had
  been warned to look for so much。  The warning; at any rate; put me
  on the lookout for whatever eminence there might be of grandeur in
  his personal appearance; while; on the other hand; this existed in
  such excess; so far transcending anything I had ever met with in my
  experience; that no expectation which it is in words to raise could
  have been disappointed。
  These thoughts traveled with the rapidity of light through my
  brain; as at one glance my eye took in the supremacy of beauty and
  power which seemed to have alighted from the clouds before me。
  Power; and the contemplation of power; in any absolute incarnation
  of grandeur or excess; necessarily have the instantaneous effect of
  quelling all perturbation。  My composure was restored in a moment。
  I looked steadily at him。  We both bowed。  And; at the moment when
  he raised his head from that inclination; I caught the glance of
  his eye; an eye such as might have been looked for in a face of
  such noble lineaments
  〃Blending the nature of the star
  With that of summer skies;〃
  and; therefore; meant by nature for the residence and organ of
  serene and gentle emotions; but it surprised; and at the same time
  filled me more almost with consternation than with pity; to observe
  that in those eyes a light of sadness had settled more profound
  than seemed possible for youth; or almost commensurate to a human
  sorrow; a sadness that might have become a Jewish prophet; when
  laden with inspirations of woe。
  Two months had now passed away since the arrival of Mr。 Wyndham。
  He had been universally introduced to the superior society of the
  place; and; as I need hardly say; universally received with favor
  and distinction。  In reality; his wealth and importance; his
  military honors; and the dignity of his character; as expressed in
  his manners and deportment; were too eminent to allow of his being
  treated with less than the highest attention in any society
  whatever。  But the effect of these various advantages; enforced and
  recommended as they were by a personal beauty so rare; was somewhat
  too potent for the comfort and self…possession of ordinary people;
  and really exceeded in a painful degree the standard of pretensions
  under which such people could feel themselves at their ease。  He
  was not naturally of a reserved turn; far from it。  His disposition
  had been open; frank; and confiding; originally; and his roving;
  adventurous life; of which considerably more than one half had been
  passed in camps; had communicated to his manners a more than
  military frankness。  But the profound melancholy which possessed
  him; from whatever cause it arose; necessarily chilled the native
  freedom of his demeanor; unless when it was revived by strength of
  friendship or of love。  The effect was awkward and embarrassing to
  all parties。  Every voice paused or faltered when he entered a
  roomdead silence ensuednot an eye but was directed upon him; or
  else; sunk in timidity; settled upon the floor; and young ladies
  seriously lost the power; for a time; of doing more than murmuring
  a few confused; half…inarticulate syllables; or half…inarticulate
  sounds。  The solemnity; in fact; of a first presentation; and the
  utter impossibility of soon recovering a free; unembarrassed
  movement of conversation; made such scenes really distressing to
  all who participated in them; either as actors or spectators。
  Certainly this result was not a pure effect of manly beauty;
  however heroic; and in whatever excess; it arose in part from the
  many and extraordinary endowments which had centered in his person;
  not less from fortune than from nature; in part also; as I have
  said; from the profound sadness and freezing gravity of Mr。
  Wyndham's manner; but still more from the perplexing mystery which
  surrounded that sadness。
  Were there; then; no exceptions to this condition of awestruck
  admiration?  Yes; one at least there was in whose bosom the spell
  of all…conquering passion soon thawed every trace of icy reserve。
  While the rest of the world retained a dim sentiment of awe toward
  Mr。 Wyndham; Margaret Liebenheim only heard of such a feeling to
  wonder that it could exist toward HIM。  Never was there so
  victorious a conquest interchanged between two youthful hearts
  never before such a rapture of instantaneous sympathy。  I did not
  witness the first meeting of this mysterious Maximilian and this
  magnificent Margaret; and do not know whether Margaret manifested
  that trepidation and embarrassment which distressed so many of her
  youthful co…rivals; but; if she did; it must have fled before the
  first glance of the young man's eye; which would interpret; past
  all misunderstanding; the homage of his soul and the surrender of
  his heart。  Their third meeting I DID see; and there all shadow of
  embarrassment had vanished; except; indeed; of that delicate
  embarrassment which clings to impassioned admiration。  On the part
  of Margaret; it seemed as if a new world had dawned upon her that
  she had not so much as suspected among the capacities of human
  experience。  Like some bird she seemed; with powers unexercised for
  soaring and flying; not understood even as yet; and that never
  until now had found an element of air capable of sustaining her
  wings; or tempting her to put forth her buoyant instincts。  He; on
  the other hand; now first found the realization of his dreams; and
  for a mere possibility which he had long too deeply contemplated;
  fearing; however; that in his own case it might prove a chimera; or
  that he might never meet a woman answering the demands of his
  heart; he now found a corresponding reality that left nothing to
  seek。
  Here; then; and thus far; nothing but happiness had resulted from
  the new arrangement。  But; if this had been little anticipated by
  many; far less had I; for my part; anticipated the unhappy
  revolution which was wrought in the whole nature of Ferdinand von
  Harrelstein。  He was the son of a German baron; a man of good
  family; but of small estate who had been pretty nearly a soldier of
  fortune in the Prussian service; and had; late in life; won
  sufficient favor with the king and other military superiors; to
  have an early prospect of obtaining a commission; under flattering
  auspices; for this only sona son endeared to him as the companion
  of unprosperous years; and as a dutifully affectionate child。
  Ferdinand had yet another hold upon his father's affections: his
  features preserved to the baron's unclouded remembrance a most
  faithful and living memorial of that angelic wife who had died in
  giving birth to this third childthe only one who had long
  survived her。  Anxious that his son should go through a regular
  course of mathematical instruction; now becoming annually more
  important in all the artillery services throughout Europe; and that
  he should receive a tincture of other liberal studies which he had
  painfully missed in his own military career; the baron chose to
  keep his son for the last seven years at our college; until he was
  now entering upon his twenty…third year。  For the four last he had
  lived with me as the sole pupil whom I had; or meant to have; had
  not the brilliant proposals of the young Russian guardsman
  persuaded me to break my resolution。  Ferdinand von Harrelstein had
  good talents; not dazzling but respectable; and so amiable were his
  temper and manners that I had introduced him everywhere; and
  everywhere he was a favorite; and everywhere; indeed; except
  exactly there where only in this world he cared for favor。
  Margaret Liebenheim; she it was whom he loved; and had loved for
  years; with the whole ardor of his ardent soul; she it was for
  whom; or at whose command; he would willingly have died。  Early he
  had felt that in her hands lay his destiny; that she it was who
  must be his good or his evil genius。
  At first; and perhaps to the last; I pitied him exceedingly。  But
  my pity soon ceased to be mingled with respect。  Before the arrival
  of Mr。 Wyndham he had shown himself generous; indeed magnanimous。
  But never was there so painful an overthrow of a noble nature as
  manifested itself in him。  I believe that he had not himself
  suspected the strength of his passion; and the sole resource for
  him; as I said often; was to quit the cityto engage in active
  pursuits of enterprise; of ambition; or of science。  But he heard
  me as a somnambulist might have heard medreaming with his eyes
  open。  Sometimes he had fits of reverie; starting; fearful;
  agitated; sometimes he broke out into maniacal movements of wrath;
  invoking some absent person; praying; beseeching; menacing some
  air…wove phantom; sometimes he slunk into solitary corners;
  muttering to himself; and with gestures sorrowfully significant; or
  with tones and fragments of expostulation that moved the most
  callous to compassion。  Still he turned a deaf ear to the only
  pra