第 22 节
作者:风雅颂      更新:2021-10-16 18:44      字数:9321
  that pleasant water flowing between the trees。  I have a sense that
  for an interminable period I have lived in a wagon and travelled on;
  ever on; with this present company。
  But strongest of all upon me is what is strong upon all the company;
  namely; a sense of drifting to doom。  Our way was like a funeral
  march。  Never did a laugh arise。  Never did I hear a happy tone of
  voice。  Neither peace nor ease marched with us。  The faces of the
  men and youths who outrode the train were grim; set; hopeless。  And
  as we toiled through the lurid dust of sunset often I scanned my
  father's face in vain quest of some message of cheer。  I will not
  say that my father's face; in all its dusty haggardness; was
  hopeless。  It was dogged; and oh! so grim and anxious; most anxious。
  A thrill seemed to run along the train。  My father's head went up。
  So did mine。  And our horses raised their weary heads; scented the
  air with long…drawn snorts; and for the nonce pulled willingly。  The
  horses of the outriders quickened their pace。  And as for the herd
  of scarecrow oxen; it broke into a forthright gallop。  It was almost
  ludicrous。  The poor brutes were so clumsy in their weakness and
  haste。  They were galloping skeletons draped in mangy hide; and they
  out…distanced the boys who herded them。  But this was only for a
  time。  Then they fell back to a walk; a quick; eager; shambling;
  sore…footed walk; and they no longer were lured aside by the dry
  bunch…grass。
  〃What is it?〃 my mother asked from within the wagon。
  〃Water;〃 was my father's reply。  〃It must be Nephi。〃
  And my mother:  〃Thank God!  And perhaps they will sell us food。〃
  And into Nephi; through blood…red dust; with grind and grate and
  jolt and jar; our great wagons rolled。  A dozen scattered dwellings
  or shanties composed the place。  The landscape was much the same as
  that through which we had passed。  There were no trees; only scrub
  growths and sandy bareness。  But here were signs of tilled fields;
  with here and there a fence。  Also there was water。  Down the stream
  ran no current。  The bed; however; was damp; with now and again a
  water…hole into which the loose oxen and the saddle…horses stamped
  and plunged their muzzles to the eyes。  Here; too; grew an
  occasional small willow。
  〃That must be Bill Black's mill they told us about;〃 my father said;
  pointing out a building to my mother; whose anxiousness had drawn
  her to peer out over our shoulders。
  An old man; with buckskin shirt and long; matted; sunburnt hair;
  rode back to our wagon and talked with father。  The signal was
  given; and the head wagons of the train began to deploy in a circle。
  The ground favoured the evolution; and; from long practice; it was
  accomplished without a hitch; so that when the forty wagons were
  finally halted they formed a circle。  All was bustle and orderly
  confusion。  Many women; all tired…faced and dusty like my mother;
  emerged from the wagons。  Also poured forth a very horde of
  children。  There must have been at least fifty children; and it
  seemed I knew them all of long time; and there were at least two
  score of women。  These went about the preparations for cooking
  supper。
  While some of the men chopped sage…brush and we children carried it
  to the fires that were kindling; other men unyoked the oxen and let
  them stampede for water。  Next the men; in big squads; moved the
  wagons snugly into place。  The tongue of each wagon was on the
  inside of the circle; and; front and rear; each wagon was in solid
  contact with the next wagon before and behind。  The great brakes
  were locked fast; but; not content with this; the wheels of all the
  wagons were connected with chains。  This was nothing new to us
  children。  It was the trouble sign of a camp in hostile country。
  One wagon only was left out of the circle; so as to form a gate to
  the corral。  Later on; as we knew; ere the camp slept; the animals
  would be driven inside; and the gate…wagon would be chained like the
  others in place。  In the meanwhile; and for hours; the animals would
  be herded by men and boys to what scant grass they could find。
  While the camp…making went on my father; with several others of the
  men; including the old man with the long; sunburnt hair; went away
  on foot in the direction of the mill。  I remember that all of us;
  men; women; and even the children; paused to watch them depart; and
  it seemed their errand was of grave import。
  While they were away other men; strangers; inhabitants of desert
  Nephi; came into camp and stalked about。  They were white men; like
  us; but they were hard…faced; stern…faced; sombre; and they seemed
  angry with all our company。  Bad feeling was in the air; and they
  said things calculated to rouse the tempers of our men。  But the
  warning went out from the women; and was passed on everywhere to our
  men and youths; that there must be no words。
  One of the strangers came to our fire; where my mother was alone;
  cooking。  I had just come up with an armful of sage…brush; and I
  stopped to listen and to stare at the intruder; whom I hated;
  because it was in the air to hate; because I knew that every last
  person in our company hated these strangers who were white…skinned
  like us and because of whom we had been compelled to make our camp
  in a circle。
  This stranger at our fire had blue eyes; hard and cold and piercing。
  His hair was sandy。  His face was shaven to the chin; and from under
  the chin; covering the neck and extending to the ears; sprouted a
  sandy fringe of whiskers well…streaked with gray。  Mother did not
  greet him; nor did he greet her。  He stood and glowered at her for
  some time; he cleared his throat and said with a sneer:
  〃Wisht you was back in Missouri right now I bet。〃
  I saw mother tighten her lips in self…control ere she answered:
  〃We are from Arkansas。〃
  〃I guess you got good reasons to deny where you come from;〃 he next
  said; 〃you that drove the Lord's people from Missouri。〃
  Mother made no reply。
  〃。 。 。 Seein';〃 he went on; after the pause accorded her; 〃as you're
  now comin' a…whinin' an' a…beggin' bread at our hands that you
  persecuted。〃
  Whereupon; and instantly; child that I was; I knew anger; the old;
  red; intolerant wrath; ever unrestrainable and unsubduable。
  〃You lie!〃 I piped up。  〃We ain't Missourians。  We ain't whinin'。
  An' we ain't beggars。  We got the money to buy。〃
  〃Shut up; Jesse!〃 my mother cried; landing the back of her hand
  stingingly on my mouth。  And then; to the stranger; 〃Go away and let
  the boy alone。〃
  〃I'll shoot you full of lead; you damned Mormon!〃 I screamed and
  sobbed at him; too quick for my mother this time; and dancing away
  around the fire from the back…sweep of her hand。
  As for the man himself; my conduct had not disturbed him in the
  slightest。  I was prepared for I knew not what violent visitation
  from this terrible stranger; and I watched him warily while he
  considered me with the utmost gravity。
  At last he spoke; and he spoke solemnly; with solemn shaking of the
  head; as if delivering a judgment。
  〃Like fathers like sons;〃 he said。  〃The young generation is as bad
  as the elder。  The whole breed is unregenerate and damned。  There is
  no saving it; the young or the old。  There is no atonement。  Not
  even the blood of Christ can wipe out its iniquities。〃
  〃Damned Mormon!〃 was all I could sob at him。  〃Damned Mormon!
  Damned Mormon!  Damned Mormon!〃
  And I continued to damn him and to dance around the fire before my
  mother's avenging hand; until he strode away。
  When my father; and the men who had accompanied him; returned; camp…
  work ceased; while all crowded anxiously about him。  He shook his
  head。
  〃They will not sell?〃 some woman demanded。
  Again he shook his head。
  A man spoke up; a blue…eyed; blond…whiskered giant of thirty; who
  abruptly pressed his way into the centre of the crowd。
  〃They say they have flour and provisions for three years; Captain;〃
  he said。  〃They have always sold to the immigration before。  And now
  they won't sell。  And it ain't our quarrel。  Their quarrel's with
  the government; an' they're takin' it out on us。  It ain't right;
  Captain。  It ain't right; I say; us with our women an' children; an'
  California months away; winter comin' on; an' nothin' but desert in
  between。  We ain't got the grub to face the desert。〃
  He broke off for a moment to address the whole crowd。
  〃Why; you…all don't know what desert is。  This around here ain't
  desert。  I tell you it's paradise; and heavenly pasture; an' flowin'
  with milk an' honey alongside what we're goin' to face。〃
  〃I tell you; Captain; we got to get flour first。  If they won't sell
  it; then we must just up an' take it。〃
  Many of the men and women began crying out in approval; but my
  father hushed them by holding up his hand。
  〃I agree with everything you say; Hamilton;〃 he began。