第 32 节
作者:津鸿一瞥      更新:2021-10-16 18:44      字数:9322
  in consequence!  For we solicit so strongly that a few onlynor
  these the bestcan refuse us; and yet not to refuse is much the
  same as going into partnership with half…a…dozen different people
  about whom one can know absolutely nothing beforehandnot even
  whether one is going into partnership with men or women; nor with
  how many of either。  Delude not yourself with thinking that you
  will be wiser than your parents。  You may be an age in advance of
  those whom you have pestered; but unless you are one of the great
  ones you will still be an age behind those who will in their turn
  pester you。
  〃Imagine what it must be to have an unborn quartered upon you; who
  is of an entirely different temperament and disposition to your
  own; nay; half…a…dozen such; who will not love you though you have
  stinted yourself in a thousand ways to provide for their comfort
  and well…being;who will forget all your self…sacrifice; and of
  whom you may never be sure that they are not bearing a grudge
  against you for errors of judgement into which you may have fallen;
  though you had hoped that such had been long since atoned for。
  Ingratitude such as this is not uncommon; yet fancy what it must be
  to bear!  It is hard upon the duckling to have been hatched by a
  hen; but is it not also hard upon the hen to have hatched the
  duckling?
  〃Consider it again; we pray you; not for our sake but for your own。
  Your initial character you must draw by lot; but whatever it is; it
  can only come to a tolerably successful development after long
  training; remember that over that training you will have no
  control。  It is possible; and even probable; that whatever you may
  get in after life which is of real pleasure and service to you;
  will have to be won in spite of; rather than by the help of; those
  whom you are now about to pester; and that you will only win your
  freedom after years of a painful struggle in which it will be hard
  to say whether you have suffered most injury; or inflicted it。
  〃Remember also; that if you go into the world you will have free
  will; that you will be obliged to have it; that there is no
  escaping it; that you will be fettered to it during your whole
  life; and must on every occasion do that which on the whole seems
  best to you at any given time; no matter whether you are right or
  wrong in choosing it。  Your mind will be a balance for
  considerations; and your action will go with the heavier scale。
  How it shall fall will depend upon the kind of scales which you may
  have drawn at birth; the bias which they will have obtained by use;
  and the weight of the immediate considerations。  If the scales were
  good to start with; and if they have not been outrageously tampered
  with in childhood; and if the combinations into which you enter are
  average ones; you may come off well; but there are too many 'ifs'
  in this; and with the failure of any one of them your misery is
  assured。  Reflect on this; and remember that should the ill come
  upon you; you will have yourself to thank; for it is your own
  choice to be born; and there is no compulsion in the matter。
  〃Not that we deny the existence of pleasures among mankind; there
  is a certain show of sundry phases of contentment which may even
  amount to very considerable happiness; but mark how they are
  distributed over a man's life; belonging; all the keenest of them;
  to the fore part; and few indeed to the after。  Can there be any
  pleasure worth purchasing with the miseries of a decrepit age?  If
  you are good; strong; and handsome; you have a fine fortune indeed
  at twenty; but how much of it will be left at sixty?  For you must
  live on your capital; there is no investing your powers so that you
  may get a small annuity of life for ever:  you must eat up your
  principal bit by bit; and be tortured by seeing it grow continually
  smaller and smaller; even though you happen to escape being rudely
  robbed of it by crime or casualty。
  〃Remember; too; that there never yet was a man of forty who would
  not come back into the world of the unborn if he could do so with
  decency and honour。  Being in the world he will as a general rule
  stay till he is forced to go; but do you think that he would
  consent to be born again; and re…live his life; if he had the offer
  of doing so?  Do not think it。  If he could so alter the past as
  that he should never have come into being at all; do you not think
  that he would do it very gladly?
  〃What was it that one of their own poets meant; if it was not this;
  when he cried out upon the day in which he was born; and the night
  in which it was said there is a man child conceived?  'For now;' he
  says; 'I should have lain still and been quiet; I should have
  slept; then had I been at rest with kings and counsellors of the
  earth; which built desolate places for themselves; or with princes
  that had gold; who filled their houses with silver; or as an hidden
  untimely birth; I had not been; as infants which never saw light。
  There the wicked cease from troubling; and the weary are at rest。'
  Be very sure that the guilt of being born carries this punishment
  at times to all men; but how can they ask for pity; or complain of
  any mischief that may befall them; having entered open…eyed into
  the snare?
  〃One word more and we have done。  If any faint remembrance; as of a
  dream; flit in some puzzled moment across your brain; and you shall
  feel that the potion which is to be given you shall not have done
  its work; and the memory of this existence which you are leaving
  endeavours vainly to return; we say in such a moment; when you
  clutch at the dream but it eludes your grasp; and you watch it; as
  Orpheus watched Eurydice; gliding back again into the twilight
  kingdom; flyflyif you can remember the adviceto the haven of
  your present and immediate duty; taking shelter incessantly in the
  work which you have in hand。  This much you may perhaps recall; and
  this; if you will imprint it deeply upon your every faculty; will
  be most likely to bring you safely and honourably home through the
  trials that are before you。〃 {3}
  This is the fashion in which they reason with those who would be
  for leaving them; but it is seldom that they do much good; for none
  but the unquiet and unreasonable ever think of being born; and
  those who are foolish enough to think of it are generally foolish
  enough to do it。  Finding; therefore; that they can do no more; the
  friends follow weeping to the courthouse of the chief magistrate;
  where the one who wishes to be born declares solemnly and openly
  that he accepts the conditions attached to his decision。  On this
  he is presented with a potion; which immediately destroys his
  memory and sense of identity; and dissipates the thin gaseous
  tenement which he has inhabited:  he becomes a bare vital
  principle; not to be perceived by human senses; nor to be by any
  chemical test appreciated。  He has but one instinct; which is that
  he is to go to such and such a place; where he will find two
  persons whom he is to importune till they consent to undertake him;
  but whether he is to find these persons among the race of Chowbok
  or the Erewhonians themselves is not for him to choose。
  CHAPTER XX:  WHAT THEY MEAN BY IT
  I have given the above mythology at some length; but it is only a
  small part of what they have upon the subject。  My first feeling on
  reading it was that any amount of folly on the part of the unborn
  in coming here was justified by a desire to escape from such
  intolerable prosing。  The mythology is obviously an unfair and
  exaggerated representation of life and things; and had its authors
  been so minded they could have easily drawn a picture which would
  err as much on the bright side as this does on the dark。  No
  Erewhonian believes that the world is as black as it has been here
  painted; but it is one of their peculiarities that they very often
  do not believe or mean things which they profess to regard as
  indisputable。
  In the present instance their professed views concerning the unborn
  have arisen from their desire to prove that people have been
  presented with the gloomiest possible picture of their own
  prospects before they came here; otherwise; they could hardly say
  to one whom they are going to punish for an affection of the heart
  or brain that it is all his own doing。  In practice they modify
  their theory to a considerable extent; and seldom refer to the
  birth formula except in extreme cases; for the force of habit; or
  what not; gives many of them a kindly interest even in creatures
  who have so much wronged them as the unborn have done; and though a
  man generally hates the unwelcome little stranger for the first
  twelve months; he is apt to mollify (according to his lights) as
  time goes on; and sometimes he will become inordinately attached to
  the beings whom he is pleased to call his children。
  Of course; according to Erewhonian premises; it would serve people
  right to be punished and scouted for moral and intellectual
  diseases as much as for physical; and I cannot to this day
  understand why they should have stopped short half way。  Neither;
  again; can I understand why their having done so should have been;
  as it certainly was; a matter of so much concern to my