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  ‘Oh! and that’s a reason why you want relief and change—
  excitement and all that?’ said she。 ‘Ah! very true! But isn’t it a
  little—Eh?—for him; I don’t mean you?’
  A quick glance of her eye towards the spot where Steerforth
  was walking; with his mother leaning on his arm; showed me
  whom she meant; but beyond that; I was quite lost。 And I looked
  so; I have no doubt。
  ‘Don’t it—I don’t say that it does; mind I want to know—don’t it
  rather engross him? Don’t it make him; perhaps; a little more
  remiss than usual in his visits to his blindly…doting—eh?’ With
  another quick glance at them; and such a glance at me as seemed
  to look into my innermost thoughts。
  ‘Miss Dartle;’ I returned; ‘pray do not think—’
  ‘I don’t!’ she said。 ‘Oh dear me; don’t suppose that I think
  anything! I am not suspicious。 I only ask a question。 I don’t state
  any opinion。 I want to found an opinion on what you tell me。 Then;
  it’s not so? Well! I am very glad to know it。’
  ‘It certainly is not the fact;’ said I; perplexed; ‘that I am
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  accountable for Steerforth’s having been away from home longer
  than usual—if he has been: which I really don’t know at this
  moment; unless I understand it from you。 I have not seen him this
  long while; until last night。’
  ‘No?’
  ‘Indeed; Miss Dartle; no!’
  As she looked full at me; I saw her face grow sharper and paler;
  and the marks of the old wound lengthen out until it cut through
  the disfigured lip; and deep into the nether lip; and slanted down
  the face。 There was something positively awful to me in this; and
  in the brightness of her eyes; as she said; looking fixedly at me:
  ‘What is he doing?’
  I repeated the words; more to myself than her; being so
  amazed。
  ‘What is he doing?’ she said; with an eagerness that seemed
  enough to consume her like a fire。 ‘In what is that man assisting
  him; who never looks at me without an inscrutable falsehood in his
  eyes? If you are honourable and faithful; I don’t ask you to betray
  your friend。 I ask you only to tell me; is it anger; is it hatred; is it
  pride; is it restlessness; is it some wild fancy; is it love; what is it;
  that is leading him?’
  ‘Miss Dartle;’ I returned; ‘how shall I tell you; so that you will
  believe me; that I know of nothing in Steerforth different from
  what there was when I first came here? I can think of nothing。 I
  firmly believe there is nothing。 I hardly understand even what you
  mean。’
  As she still stood looking fixedly at me; a twitching or
  throbbing; from which I could not dissociate the idea of pain; came
  into that cruel mark; and lifted up the corner of her lip as if with
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  scorn; or with a pity that despised its object。 She put her hand
  upon it hurriedly—a hand so thin and delicate; that when I had
  seen her hold it up before the fire to shade her face; I had
  compared it in my thoughts to fine porcelain—and saying; in a
  quick; fierce; passionate way; ‘I swear you to secrecy about this!’
  said not a word more。
  Mrs。 Steerforth was particularly happy in her son’s society; and
  Steerforth was; on this occasion; particularly attentive and
  respectful to her。 It was very interesting to me to see them
  together; not only on account of their mutual affection; but
  because of the strong personal resemblance between them; and
  the manner in which what was haughty or impetuous in him was
  softened by age and sex; in her; to a gracious dignity。 I thought;
  more than once; that it was well no serious cause of division had
  ever come between them; or two such natures—I ought rather to
  express it; two such shades of the same nature—might have been
  harder to reconcile than the two extremest opposites in creation。
  The idea did not originate in my own discernment; I am bound to
  confess; but in a speech of Rosa Dartle’s。
  She said at dinner:
  ‘Oh; but do tell me; though; somebody; because I have been
  thinking about it all day; and I want to know。’
  ‘You want to know what; Rosa?’ returned Mrs。 Steerforth。
  ‘Pray; pray; Rosa; do not be mysterious。’
  ‘Mysterious!’ she cried。 ‘Oh! really? Do you consider me so?’
  ‘Do I constantly entreat you;’ said Mrs。 Steerforth; ‘to speak
  plainly; in your own natural manner?’
  ‘Oh! then this is not my natural manner?’ she rejoined。 ‘Now
  you must really bear with me; because I ask for information。 We
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  never know ourselves。’
  ‘It has become a second nature;’ said Mrs。 Steerforth; without
  any displeasure; ‘but I remember;—and so must you; I think;—
  when your manner was different; Rosa; when it was not so
  guarded; and was more trustful。’
  ‘I am sure you are right;’ she returned; ‘and so it is that bad
  habits grow upon one! Really? Less guarded and more trustful?
  How can I; imperceptibly; have changed; I wonder! Well; that’s
  very odd! I must study to regain my former self。’
  ‘I wish you would;’ said Mrs。 Steerforth; with a smile。
  ‘Oh! I really will; you know!’ she answered。 ‘I will learn
  frankness from—let me see—from James。’
  ‘You cannot learn frankness; Rosa;’ said Mrs。 Steerforth
  quickly—for there was always some effect of sarcasm in what Rosa
  Dartle said; though it was said; as this was; in the most
  unconscious manner in the world—‘in a better school。’
  ‘That I am sure of;’ she answered; with uncommon fervour。 ‘If I
  am sure of anything; of course; you know; I am sure of that。’
  Mrs。 Steerforth appeared to me to regret having been a little
  nettled; for she presently said; in a kind tone:
  ‘Well; my dear Rosa; we have not heard what it is that you want
  to be satisfied about?’
  ‘That I want to be satisfied about?’ she replied; with provoking
  coldness。 ‘Oh! It was only whether people; who are like each other
  in their moral constitution—is that the phrase?’
  ‘It’s as good a phrase as another;’ said Steerforth。
  ‘Thank you:—whether people; who are like each other in their
  moral constitution; are in greater danger than people not so
  circumstanced; supposing any serious cause of variance to arise
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  between them; of being divided angrily and deeply?’
  ‘I should say yes;’ said Steerforth。
  ‘Should you?’ she retorted。 ‘Dear me! Supposing then; for
  instance—any unlikely thing will do for a supposition—that you
  and your mother were to have a serious quarrel。’
  ‘My dear Rosa;’ interposed Mrs。 Steerforth; laughing goodnaturedly; ‘suggest some other supposition! James and I know our
  duty to each other better; I pray Heaven!’
  ‘Oh!’ said Miss Dartle; nodding her head thoughtfully。 ‘To be
  sure。 That would prevent it? Why; of course it would。 Exactly。
  Now; I am glad I have been so foolish as to put the case; for it is so
  very good to know that your duty to each other would prevent it!
  Thank you very much。’
  One other little circumstance connected with Miss Dartle I
  must not omit; for I had reason to remember it thereafter; when all
  the irremediable past was rendered plain。 During the whole of this
  day; but especially from this period of it; Steerforth exerted
  himself with his utmost skill; and that was with his utmost ease; to
  charm this singular creature into a pleasant and pleased
  companion。 That he should succeed; was no matter of surprise to
  me。 That she should struggle against the fascinating influence of
  his delightful art—delightful nature I thought it then—did not
  surprise me either; for I knew that she was sometimes jaundiced
  and perverse。 I saw her features and her manner slowly change; I
  saw her look at him with growing admiration; I saw her try; more
  and more faintly; but always angrily; as if she condemned a
  weakness in herself; to resist the captivating power that he
  possessed; and finally; I saw her sharp glance soften; and her smile
  become quite gentle; and I ceased to be afraid of her as I had really
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  been all day; and we all sat about the fire; talking and laughing
  together; with as little reserve as if we had been children。
  Whether it was because we had sat there so long; or because
  Steerforth was resolved not to lose the advantage he had gained; I
  do not know; but we did not remain in the dining…room more than
  five minutes after her departure。 ‘She is playing her harp;’ said
  Steerforth; softly; at the drawing…room door; ‘and nobody but my
  mother has heard her do that; I believe; these three years。’ He said
  it with a curious smile; which was gone directly; and we went into
  the room and found her alone。
  ‘Don’t get up;’ said Steerforth (which she had already done)’ my
  dear Rosa; don’t! Be kind for once; and sing us an Irish song。’
  ‘What do you care for an Irish song?’ she returned。
  ‘Much!’ said Steerforth。 ‘Much more than for any other。 Here is
  Daisy; too; loves music f