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  open; and her brown hair fell in two rich clusters on her shoulders;
  and on her white dress; disordered by the want of the lost ribbon。
  Distinctly as I recollect her look; I cannot say of what it was
  expressive; I cannot even say of what it is expressive to me now;
  rising again before my older judgement。 Penitence; humiliation;
  shame; pride; love; and trustfulness—I see them all; and in them
  all; I see that horror of I don’t know what。
  My entrance; and my saying what I wanted; roused her。 It
  disturbed the Doctor too; for when I went back to replace the
  candle I had taken from the table; he was patting her head; in his
  fatherly way; and saying he was a merciless drone to let her tempt
  him into reading on; and he would have her go to bed。
  But she asked him; in a rapid; urgent manner; to let her stay—
  to let her feel assured (I heard her murmur some broken words to
  this effect) that she was in his confidence that night。 And; as she
  turned again towards him; after glancing at me as I left the room
  and went out at the door; I saw her cross her hands upon his knee;
  and look up at him with the same face; something quieted; as he
  resumed his reading。
  It made a great impression on me; and I remembered it a long
  time afterwards; as I shall have occasion to narrate when the time
  comes。
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  Chapter 17
  SOMEBODY TURNS UP
  It has not occurred to me to mention Peggotty since I ran
  away; but; of course; I wrote her a letter almost as soon as I
  was housed at Dover; and another; and a longer letter;
  containing all particulars fully related; when my aunt took me
  formally under her protection。 On my being settled at Doctor
  Strong’s I wrote to her again; detailing my happy condition and
  prospects。 I never could have derived anything like the pleasure
  from spending the money Mr。 Dick had given me; that I felt in
  sending a gold half…guinea to Peggotty; per post; enclosed in this
  last letter; to discharge the sum I had borrowed of her: in which
  epistle; not before; I mentioned about the young man with the
  donkey…cart。
  To these communications Peggotty replied as promptly; if not
  as concisely; as a merchant’s clerk。 Her utmost powers of
  expression (which were certainly not great in ink) were exhausted
  in the attempt to write what she felt on the subject of my journey。
  Four sides of incoherent and interjectional beginnings of
  sentences; that had no end; except blots; were inadequate to afford
  her any relief。 But the blots were more expressive to me than the
  best composition; for they showed me that Peggotty had been
  crying all over the paper; and what could I have desired more?
  I made out; without much difficulty; that she could not take
  quite kindly to my aunt yet。 The notice was too short after so long
  a prepossession the other way。 We never knew a person; she
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  wrote; but to think that Miss Betsey should seem to be so different
  from what she had been thought to be; was a Moral!—that was her
  word。 She was evidently still afraid of Miss Betsey; for she sent her
  grateful duty to her but timidly; and she was evidently afraid of
  me; too; and entertained the probability of my running away again
  soon: if I might judge from the repeated hints she threw out; that
  the coach…fare to Yarmouth was always to be had of her for the
  asking。
  She gave me one piece of intelligence which affected me very
  much; namely; that there had been a sale of the furniture at our
  old home; and that Mr。 and Miss Murdstone were gone away; and
  the house was shut up; to be let or sold。 God knows I had no part
  in it while they remained there; but it pained me to think of the
  dear old place as altogether abandoned; of the weeds growing tall
  in the garden; and the fallen leaves lying thick and wet upon the
  paths。 I imagined how the winds of winter would howl round it;
  how the cold rain would beat upon the window…glass; how the
  moon would make ghosts on the walls of the empty rooms;
  watching their solitude all night。 I thought afresh of the grave in
  the churchyard; underneath the tree: and it seemed as if the house
  were dead too; now; and all connected with my father and mother
  were faded away。
  There was no other news in Peggotty’s letters。 Mr。 Barkis was
  an excellent husband; she said; though still a little near; but we all
  had our faults; and she had plenty (though I am sure I don’t know
  what they were); and he sent his duty; and my little bedroom was
  always ready for me。 Mr。 Peggotty was well; and Ham was well;
  and Mrs。。 Gummidge was but poorly; and little Em’ly wouldn’t
  send her love; but said that Peggotty might send it; if she liked。
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  All this intelligence I dutifully imparted to my aunt; only
  reserving to myself the mention of little Em’ly; to whom I
  instinctively felt that she would not very tenderly incline。 While I
  was yet new at Doctor Strong’s; she made several excursions over
  to Canterbury to see me; and always at unseasonable hours: with
  the view; I suppose; of taking me by surprise。 But; finding me well
  employed; and bearing a good character; and hearing on all hands
  that I rose fast in the school; she soon discontinued these visits。 I
  saw her on a Saturday; every third or fourth week; when I went
  over to Dover for a treat; and I saw Mr。 Dick every alternate
  Wednesday; when he arrived by stage…coach at noon; to stay until
  next morning。
  On these occasions Mr。 Dick never travelled without a leathern
  writing…desk; containing a supply of stationery and the Memorial;
  in relation to which document he had a notion that time was
  beginning to press now; and that it really must be got out of hand。
  Mr。 Dick was very partial to gingerbread。 To render his visits
  the more agreeable; my aunt had instructed me to open a credit
  for him at a cake shop; which was hampered with the stipulation
  that he should not be served with more than one shilling’s…worth
  in the course of any one day。 This; and the reference of all his little
  bills at the county inn where he slept; to my aunt; before they were
  paid; induced me to suspect that he was only allowed to rattle his
  money; and not to spend it。 I found on further investigation that
  this was so; or at least there was an agreement between him and
  my aunt that he should account to her for all his disbursements。
  As he had no idea of deceiving her; and always desired to please
  her; he was thus made chary of launching into expense。 On this
  point; as well as on all other possible points; Mr。 Dick was
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  convinced that my aunt was the wisest and most wonderful of
  women; as he repeatedly told me with infinite secrecy; and always
  in a whisper。
  ‘Trotwood;’ said Mr。 Dick; with an air of mystery; after
  imparting this confidence to me; one Wednesday; ‘who’s the man
  that hides near our house and frightens her?’
  ‘Frightens my aunt; sir?’
  Mr。 Dick nodded。 ‘I thought nothing would have frightened
  her;’ he said; ‘for she’s—’ here he whispered softly; ‘don’t mention
  it—the wisest and most wonderful of women。’ Having said which;
  he drew back; to observe the effect which this description of her
  made upon me。
  ‘The first time he came;’ said Mr。 Dick; ‘was—let me see—
  sixteen hundred and forty…nine was the date of King Charles’s
  execution。 I think you said sixteen hundred and forty…nine?’
  ‘Yes; sir。’
  ‘I don’t know how it can be;’ said Mr。 Dick; sorely puzzled and
  shaking his head。 ‘I don’t think I am as old as that。’
  ‘Was it in that year that the man appeared; sir?’ I asked。
  ‘Why; really’ said Mr。 Dick; ‘I don’t see how it can have been in
  that year; Trotwood。 Did you get that date out of history?’
  ‘Yes; sir。’
  ‘I suppose history never lies; does it?’ said Mr。 Dick; with a
  gleam of hope。
  ‘Oh dear; no; sir!’ I replied; most decisively。 I was ingenuous
  and young; and I thought so。
  ‘I can’t make it out;’ said Mr。 Dick; shaking his head。 ‘There’s
  something wrong; somewhere。 However; it was very soon after the
  mistake was made of putting some of the trouble out of King
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  Charles’s head into my head; that the man first came。 I was
  walking out with Miss Trotwood after tea; just at dark; and there
  he was; close to our house。’
  ‘Walking about?’ I inquired。
  ‘Walking about?’ repeated Mr。 Dick。 ‘Let me see; I must
  recollect a bit。 N…no; no; he was not walking about。’
  I asked; as the shortest way to get at it; what he WAS doing。
  ‘Well; he wasn’t there at all;’ said Mr。 Dick; ‘until he came up
  behind her; and whispered。 Then she turned round and fainted;
  and I stood still and looked at him; and he walked away; but that
  he should have been hiding ever since (in the ground or
  somewhere); is the most extraordinary thing!’
  ‘Has he been hiding ever since?’ I asked。
  ‘To be sure h