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  mutual consent; as he had every reason to think; for I said nothing;
  though my resolution was now taken。
  I passed my evenings with Mr。 and Mrs。 Micawber; during the
  remaining term of our residence under the same roof; and I think
  we became fonder of one another as the time went on。 On the last
  Sunday; they invited me to dinner; and we had a loin of pork and
  apple sauce; and a pudding。 I had bought a spotted wooden horse
  over…night as a parting gift to little Wilkins Micawber—that was
  the boy—and a doll for little Emma。 I had also bestowed a shilling
  on the Orfling; who was about to be disbanded。
  We had a very pleasant day; though we were all in a tender
  state about our approaching separation。
  ‘I shall never; Master Copperfield;’ said Mrs。 Micawber; ‘revert
  to the period when Mr。 Micawber was in difficulties; without
  thinking of you。 Your conduct has always been of the most delicate
  and obliging description。 You have never been a lodger。 You have
  been a friend。’
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  ‘My dear;’ said Mr。 Micawber; ‘Copperfield;’ for so he had been
  accustomed to call me; of late; ‘has a heart to feel for the distresses
  of his fellow…creatures when they are behind a cloud; and a head
  to plan; and a hand to—in short; a general ability to dispose of
  such available property as could be made away with。’
  I expressed my sense of this commendation; and said I was very
  sorry we were going to lose one another。
  ‘My dear young friend;’ said Mr。 Micawber; ‘I am older than
  you; a man of some experience in life; and—and of some
  experience; in short; in difficulties; generally speaking。 At present;
  and until something turns up (which I am; I may say; hourly
  expecting); I have nothing to bestow but advice。 Still my advice is
  so far worth taking; that—in short; that I have never taken it
  myself; and am the’—here Mr。 Micawber; who had been beaming
  and smiling; all over his head and face; up to the present moment;
  checked himself and frowned—‘the miserable wretch you behold。’
  ‘My dear Micawber!’ urged his wife。
  ‘I say;’ returned Mr。 Micawber; quite forgetting himself; and
  smiling again; ‘the miserable wretch you behold。 My advice is;
  never do tomorrow what you can do today。 Procrastination is the
  thief of time。 Collar him!’
  ‘My poor papa’s maxim;’ Mrs。 Micawber observed。
  ‘My dear;’ said Mr。 Micawber; ‘your papa was very well in his
  way; and Heaven forbid that I should disparage him。 Take him for
  all in all; we ne’er shall—in short; make the acquaintance;
  probably; of anybody else possessing; at his time of life; the same
  legs for gaiters; and able to read the same description of print;
  without spectacles。 But he applied that maxim to our marriage; my
  dear; and that was so far prematurely entered into; in
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  consequence; that I never recovered the expense。’ Mr。 Micawber
  looked aside at Mrs。 Micawber; and added: ‘Not that I am sorry for
  it。 Quite the contrary; my love。’ After which; he was grave for a
  minute or so。
  ‘My other piece of advice; Copperfield;’ said Mr。 Micawber; ‘you
  know。 Annual income twenty pounds; annual expenditure
  nineteen nineteen and six; result happiness。 Annual income
  twenty pounds; annual expenditure twenty pounds ought and six;
  result misery。 The blossom is blighted; the leaf is withered; the god
  of day goes down upon the dreary scene; and—and in short you
  are for ever floored。 As I am!’
  To make his example the more impressive; Mr。 Micawber drank
  a glass of punch with an air of great enjoyment and satisfaction;
  and whistled the College Hornpipe。
  I did not fail to assure him that I would store these precepts in
  my mind; though indeed I had no need to do so; for; at the time;
  they affected me visibly。 Next morning I met the whole family at
  the coach office; and saw them; with a desolate heart; take their
  places outside; at the back。
  ‘Master Copperfield;’ said Mrs。 Micawber; ‘God bless you! I
  never can forget all that; you know; and I never would if I could。’
  ‘Copperfield;’ said Mr。 Micawber; ‘farewell! Every happiness
  and prosperity! If; in the progress of revolving years; I could
  persuade myself that my blighted destiny had been a warning to
  you; I should feel that I had not occupied another man’s place in
  existence altogether in vain。 In case of anything turning up (of
  which I am rather confident); I shall be extremely happy if it
  should be in my power to improve your prospects。’
  I think; as Mrs。 Micawber sat at the back of the coach; with the
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  children; and I stood in the road looking wistfully at them; a mist
  cleared from her eyes; and she saw what a little creature I really
  was。 I think so; because she beckoned to me to climb up; with
  quite a new and motherly expression in her face; and put her arm
  round my neck; and gave me just such a kiss as she might have
  given to her own boy。 I had barely time to get down again before
  the coach started; and I could hardly see the family for the
  handkerchiefs they waved。 It was gone in a minute。 The Orfling
  and I stood looking vacantly at each other in the middle of the
  road; and then shook hands and said good…bye; she going back; I
  suppose; to St。 Luke’s workhouse; as I went to begin my weary day
  at Murdstone and Grinby’s。
  But with no intention of passing many more weary days there。
  No。 I had resolved to run away。—To go; by some means or other;
  down into the country; to the only relation I had in the world; and
  tell my story to my aunt; Miss Betsey。 I have already observed that
  I don’t know how this desperate idea came into my brain。 But;
  once there; it remained there; and hardened into a purpose than
  which I have never entertained a more determined purpose in my
  life。 I am far from sure that I believed there was anything hopeful
  in it; but my mind was thoroughly made up that it must be carried
  into execution。
  Again; and again; and a hundred times again; since the night
  when the thought had first occurred to me and banished sleep; I
  had gone over that old story of my poor mother’s about my birth;
  which it had been one of my great delights in the old time to hear
  her tell; and which I knew by heart。 My aunt walked into that
  story; and walked out of it; a dread and awful personage; but there
  was one little trait in her behaviour which I liked to dwell on; and
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  which gave me some faint shadow of encouragement。 I could not
  forget how my mother had thought that she felt her touch her
  pretty hair with no ungentle hand; and though it might have been
  altogether my mother’s fancy; and might have had no foundation
  whatever in fact; I made a little picture; out of it; of my terrible
  aunt relenting towards the girlish beauty that I recollected so well
  and loved so much; which softened the whole narrative。 It is very
  possible that it had been in my mind a long time; and had
  gradually engendered my determination。
  As I did not even know where Miss Betsey lived; I wrote a long
  letter to Peggotty; and asked her; incidentally; if she remembered;
  pretending that I had heard of such a lady living at a certain place
  I named at random; and had a curiosity to know if it were the
  same。 In the course of that letter; I told Peggotty that I had a
  particular occasion for half a guinea; and that if she could lend me
  that sum until I could repay it; I should be very much obliged to
  her; and would tell her afterwards what I had wanted it for。
  Peggotty’s answer soon arrived; and was; as usual; full of
  affectionate devotion。 She enclosed the half guinea (I was afraid
  she must have had a world of trouble to get it out of Mr。 Barkis’s
  box); and told me that Miss Betsey lived near Dover; but whether
  at Dover itself; at Hythe; Sandgate; or Folkestone; she could not
  say。 One of our men; however; informing me on my asking him
  about these places; that they were all close together; I deemed this
  enough for my object; and resolved to set out at the end of that
  week。
  Being a very honest little creature; and unwilling to disgrace
  the memory I was going to leave behind me at Murdstone and
  Grinby’s; I considered myself bound to remain until Saturday
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  night; and; as I had been paid a week’s wages in advance when I
  first came there; not to present myself in the counting…house at the
  usual hour; to receive my stipend。 For this express reason; I had
  borrowed the half…guinea; that I might not be without a fund for
  my travelling…expenses。 Accordingly; when the Saturday night
  came; and we were all waiting in the warehouse to be paid; and
  Tipp the carman; who always took precedence; went in first to
  draw his money; I shook Mick Walker by the hand; asked him;
  when it came to his turn to be paid; to say to Mr。 Quinion that I
  had gone to move my box to Tipp’s; and; bidding a last g