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  ‘How absurd you are; Peggotty!’ returned my mother。 ‘One
  would suppose you wanted a second visit from her。’
  ‘Lord forbid!’ cried Peggotty。
  ‘Well then; don’t talk about such uncomfortable things; there’s a
  good soul;’ said my mother。 ‘Miss Betsey is shut up in her cottage
  by the sea; no doubt; and will remain there。 At all events; she is not
  likely ever to trouble us again。’
  ‘No!’ mused Peggotty。 ‘No; that ain’t likely at all。—I wonder; if
  she was to die; whether she’d leave Davy anything?’
  ‘Good gracious me; Peggotty;’ returned my mother; ‘what a
  nonsensical woman you are! when you know that she took offence
  at the poor dear boy’s ever being born at all。’
  ‘I suppose she wouldn’t be inclined to forgive him now;’ hinted
  Peggotty。
  ‘Why should she be inclined to forgive him now?’ said my
  mother; rather sharply。
  ‘Now that he’s got a brother; I mean;’ said Peggotty。
  My mother immediately began to cry; and wondered how
  Peggotty dared to say such a thing。
  ‘As if this poor little innocent in its cradle had ever done any
  harm to you or anybody else; you jealous thing!’ said she。 ‘You had
  much better go and marry Mr。 Barkis; the carrier。 Why don’t you?’
  ‘I should make Miss Murdstone happy; if I was to;’ said
  Peggotty。
  ‘What a bad disposition you have; Peggotty!’ returned my
  mother。 ‘You are as jealous of Miss Murdstone as it is possible for
  a ridiculous creature to be。 You want to keep the keys yourself;
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  and give out all the things; I suppose? I shouldn’t be surprised if
  you did。 When you know that she only does it out of kindness and
  the best intentions! You know she does; Peggotty—you know it
  well。’
  Peggotty muttered something to the effect of ‘Bother the best
  intentions!’ and something else to the effect that there was a little
  too much of the best intentions going on。
  ‘I know what you mean; you cross thing;’ said my mother。 ‘I
  understand you; Peggotty; perfectly。 You know I do; and I wonder
  you don’t colour up like fire。 But one point at a time。 Miss
  Murdstone is the point now; Peggotty; and you sha’n’t escape from
  it。 Haven’t you heard her say; over and over again; that she thinks
  I am too thoughtless and too—a—a—’
  ‘Pretty;’ suggested Peggotty。
  ‘Well;’ returned my mother; half laughing; ‘and if she is so silly
  as to say so; can I be blamed for it?’
  ‘No one says you can;’ said Peggotty。
  ‘No; I should hope not; indeed!’ returned my mother。 ‘Haven’t
  you heard her say; over and over again; that on this account she
  wished to spare me a great deal of trouble; which she thinks I am
  not suited for; and which I really don’t know myself that I am
  suited for; and isn’t she up early and late; and going to and fro
  continually—and doesn’t she do all sorts of things; and grope into
  all sorts of places; coal…holes and pantries and I don’t know where;
  that can’t be very agreeable—and do you mean to insinuate that
  there is not a sort of devotion in that?’
  ‘I don’t insinuate at all;’ said Peggotty。
  ‘You do; Peggotty;’ returned my mother。 ‘You never do
  anything else; except your work。 You are always insinuating。 You
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  revel in it。 And when you talk of Mr。 Murdstone’s good
  intentions—’
  ‘I never talked of ’em;’ said Peggotty。
  ‘No; Peggotty;’ returned my mother; ‘but you insinuated。 That’s
  what I told you just now。 That’s the worst of you。 You will
  insinuate。 I said; at the moment; that I understood you; and you
  see I did。 When you talk of Mr。 Murdstone’s good intentions; and
  pretend to slight them (for I don’t believe you really do; in your
  heart; Peggotty); you must be as well convinced as I am how good
  they are; and how they actuate him in everything。 If he seems to
  have been at all stern with a certain person; Peggotty—you
  understand; and so I am sure does Davy; that I am not alluding to
  anybody present—it is solely because he is satisfied that it is for a
  certain person’s benefit。 He naturally loves a certain person; on
  my account; and acts solely for a certain person’s good。 He is
  better able to judge of it than I am; for I very well know that I am a
  weak; light; girlish creature; and that he is a firm; grave; serious
  man。 And he takes;’ said my mother; with the tears which were
  engendered in her affectionate nature; stealing down her face; ‘he
  takes great pains with me; and I ought to be very thankful to him;
  and very submissive to him even in my thoughts; and when I am
  not; Peggotty; I worry and condemn myself; and feel doubtful of
  my own heart; and don’t know what to do。’
  Peggotty sat with her chin on the foot of the stocking; looking
  silently at the fire。
  ‘There; Peggotty;’ said my mother; changing her tone; ‘don’t let
  us fall out with one another; for I couldn’t bear it。 You are my true
  friend; I know; if I have any in the world。 When I call you a
  ridiculous creature; or a vexatious thing; or anything of that sort;
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  Peggotty; I only mean that you are my true friend; and always
  have been; ever since the night when Mr。 Copperfield first brought
  me home here; and you came out to the gate to meet me。’
  Peggotty was not slow to respond; and ratify the treaty of
  friendship by giving me one of her best hugs。 I think I had some
  glimpses of the real character of this conversation at the time; but
  I am sure; now; that the good creature originated it; and took her
  part in it; merely that my mother might comfort herself with the
  little contradictory summary in which she had indulged。 The
  design was efficacious; for I remember that my mother seemed
  more at ease during the rest of the evening; and that Peggotty
  observed her less。
  When we had had our tea; and the ashes were thrown up; and
  the candles snuffed; I read Peggotty a chapter out of the Crocodile
  Book; in remembrance of old times—she took it out of her pocket:
  I don’t know whether she had kept it there ever since—and then
  we talked about Salem House; which brought me round again to
  Steerforth; who was my great subject。 We were very happy; and
  that evening; as the last of its race; and destined evermore to close
  that volume of my life; will never pass out of my memory。
  It was almost ten o’clock before we heard the sound of wheels。
  We all got up then; and my mother said hurriedly that; as it was so
  late; and Mr。 and Miss Murdstone approved of early hours for
  young people; perhaps I had better go to bed。 I kissed her; and
  went upstairs with my candle directly; before they came in。 It
  appeared to my childish fancy; as I ascended to the bedroom
  where I had been imprisoned; that they brought a cold blast of air
  into the house which blew away the old familiar feeling like a
  feather。
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  I felt uncomfortable about going down to breakfast in the
  morning; as I had never set eyes on Mr。 Murdstone since the day
  when I committed my memorable offence。 However; as it must be
  done; I went down; after two or three false starts half…way; and as
  many runs back on tiptoe to my own room; and presented myself
  in the parlour。
  He was standing before the fire with his back to it; while Miss
  Murdstone made the tea。 He looked at me steadily as I entered;
  but made no sign of recognition whatever。 I went up to him; after a
  moment of confusion; and said: ‘I beg your pardon; sir。 I am very
  sorry for what I did; and I hope you will forgive me。’
  ‘I am glad to hear you are sorry; David;’ he replied。
  The hand he gave me was the hand I had bitten。 I could not
  restrain my eye from resting for an instant on a red spot upon it;
  but it was not so red as I turned; when I met that sinister
  expression in his face。
  ‘How do you do; ma’am?’ I said to Miss Murdstone。
  ‘Ah; dear me!’ sighed Miss Murdstone; giving me the tea…caddy
  scoop instead of her fingers。 ‘How long are the holidays?’
  ‘A month; ma’am。’
  ‘Counting from when?’
  ‘From today; ma’am。’
  ‘Oh!’ said Miss Murdstone。 ‘Then here’s one day off。’
  She kept a calendar of the holidays in this way; and every
  morning checked a day off in exactly the same manner。 She did it
  gloomily until she came to ten; but when she got into two figures
  she became more hopeful; and; as the time advanced; even jocular。
  It was on this very first day that I had the misfortune to throw
  her; though she was not subject to such weakness in general; into
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  a state of violent consternation。 I came into the room where she
  and my mother were sitting; and the baby (who was only a few
  weeks old) being on my mother’s lap; I took it very carefully in my
  arms。 Suddenly Miss Murdstone gave such a scream that I all but
  dropped it。
  ‘My dear Jane!’ cried my mother。
  ‘Good heavens; Clara; do you see?’ exclaimed Miss Murdstone