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作者:津夏      更新:2021-04-30 15:57      字数:9321
  armful of bones in a mouldy box。             But his deeds they were living and
  rotting the blood in the veins of an innocent man。
  〃I see that you have heard of him;〃 said the young baronet。               〃He died
  horribly; I have been told; but not more horribly than he had lived。                  My
  father   was   his   only   son。  He   was   a   studious   man;   fond   of   books   and
  canaries and the country; but his innocent life did not save him。〃
  〃His symptoms were cutaneous; I understand。〃
  〃He    wore    gloves    in  the  house。    That     was   the   first  thing  I  can
  remember。       And then it was his throat。        And then his legs。        He used to
  ask me so often about my own health; and I thought him so fussy; for how
  could I tell what the meaning of it was。             He was always watching me
  always with a sidelong eye fixed upon me。              Now; at last; I know what he
  was watching for。〃
  〃Had you brothers or sisters?〃
  〃None; thank God。〃
  〃Well; well; it is a sad case; and very typical of many which come in
  my    way。    You     are  no   lonely   sufferer;  Sir  Francis。    There     are  many
  thousands who bear the same cross as you do。〃
  〃But where is the justice of it; doctor?〃 cried the young man; springing
  from his chair and pacing up and down the consulting…room。                    〃If I were
  heir to my grandfather's sins as well as to their results; I could understand
  it; but I am of my father's type。         I love all that is gentle and beautiful
  music   and   poetry   and   art。   The   coarse   and   animal   is   abhorrent   to   me。
  Ask any of my friends and they would tell you that。                 And now that this
  vile;   loathsome     thingach;    I  am   polluted    to  the   marrow;    soaked    in
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  abomination!        And   why?      Haven't   I   a   right   to   ask   why? Did   I   do   it?
  Was     it  my   fault?   Could     I  help   being   born?     And     look   at  me   now;
  blighted and blasted; just as life was at its sweetest。              Talk about the sins
  of   the   fatherhow   about   the   sins   of   the   Creator?〃   He   shook   his   two
  clinched   hands   in   the   airthe   poor   impotent   atom   with   his   pin…point   of
  brain caught in the whirl of the infinite。
  The doctor rose and placing his hands upon his shoulders he pressed
  him back into his chair once more。             〃There; there; my dear lad;〃 said he;
  〃you must not excite yourself。           You are trembling all over。          Your nerves
  cannot stand it。       We must take these great questions upon trust。                 What
  are   we;   after   all?  Half…evolved   creatures   in   a   transition   stage;   nearer
  perhaps to the Medusa on the one side than to perfected humanity on the
  other。    With   half    a   complete    brain   we   can't  expect   to   understand     the
  whole of a complete fact; can we; now?                It is all very dim and dark; no
  doubt; but I think that Pope's famous couplet sums up the whole matter;
  and from my heart; after fifty years of varied experience; I can say〃
  But the young baronet gave a cry of impatience and disgust。                   〃Words;
  words; words!        You can sit comfortably there in your chair and say them…
  …and think them too; no doubt。            You've had your life; but I've never had
  mine。     You've healthy blood in your veins; mine is putrid。               And yet I am
  as   innocent   as   you。   What   would   words   do   for   you   if   you   were   in   this
  chair and I in that?       Ah; it's such a mockery and a make…believe!                Don't
  think me rude; though; doctor。           I don't mean to be that。       I only say that it
  is impossible for you or any other man to realise it。             But I've a question to
  ask   you;   doctor。    It's   one   on   which   my   whole   life   must   depend。〃    He
  writhed his fingers together in an agony of apprehension。
  〃Speak out; my dear sir。         I have every sympathy with you。〃
  〃Do you thinkdo you think the poison has spent itself on me?                      Do
  you think that if I had children they would suffer?〃
  〃I   can    only   give    one    answer     to  that。    ‘The     third   and   fourth
  generation;'   says   the   trite   old   text。 You   may   in   time   eliminate   it   from
  your system; but many years must pass before you can think of marriage。〃
  〃I am to be married on Tuesday;〃 whispered the patient。
  It   was   the   doctor's   turn   to   be   thrilled   with   horror。 There   were   not
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  many situations which would yield such a sensation to his seasoned nerves。
  He  sat in silence   while  the babble   of  the  card…table  broke in   upon   them
  again。     〃We   had   a   double   ruff   if   you   had   returned  a   heart。〃  〃I   was
  bound to clear the trumps。〃         They were hot and angry about it。
  〃How could you?〃 cried the doctor severely。              〃It was criminal。〃
  〃You forget that I have only learned how I stand to…day。〃                 He put his
  two hands to his temples and pressed them convulsively。                 〃You are a man
  of the world; Dr。 Selby。         You have seen or heard of such things before。
  Give   me   some   advice。      I'm   in   your   hands。   It   is   all   very   sudden   and
  horrible; and I don't think I am strong enough to bear it。〃
  The doctor's heavy brows thickened into two straight lines; and he bit
  his nails in perplexity。
  〃The marriage must not take place。〃
  〃Then what am I to do?〃
  〃At all costs it must not take place。〃
  〃And I must give her up?〃
  〃There can be no question about that。〃
  The   young   man   took      out   a   pocketbook   and   drew   from   it   a   small
  photograph; holding it out towards the doctor。              The firm face softened as
  he looked at it。
  〃It is very hard on you; no doubt。          I can appreciate it more now that I
  have seen that。       But there is no alternative at all。        You must give up all
  thought of it。〃
  〃But this is madness; doctormadness; I tell you。               No; I won't raise
  my voice。      I forgot myself。       But realise it; man。      I am to be married on
  Tuesday。      This    coming     Tuesday;    you   understand。      And    all  the  world
  knows it。      How   can   I   put such   a   public   affront   upon   her。 It   would   be
  monstrous。〃
  〃None the less it must be done。           My dear lad; there is no way out of
  it。〃
  〃You would have me simply write brutally and break the engagement
  at the last moment without a reason。           I tell you I couldn't do it。〃
  〃I   had   a  patient   once   who    found    himself    in  a  somewhat      similar
  situation some years ago;〃 said the doctor thoughtfully。                〃His device was
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  a   singular    one。   He     deliberately    committed      a  penal   offence;    and   so
  compelled       the  young    lady's   people    to  withdraw     their   consent    to  the
  marriage。〃
  The   young   baronet   shook   his   head。     〃My   personal   honour   is   as   yet
  unstained;〃     said   he。   〃I   have   little  else  left;  but  that;  at  least;  I  will
  preserve。〃
  〃Well; well; it is a nice dilemma; and the choice lies with you。〃
  〃Have you no other suggestion?〃
  〃You don't happen to have property in Australia?〃
  〃None。〃
  〃But you have capital?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃Then     you   could    buy   some。     To…morrow       morning     would     do。   A
  thousand mining shares would be enough。                 Then you might write to say
  that urgent business affairs have compelled you to start at an hour's notice
  to inspect your property。        That would give you six months; at any rate。〃
  〃Well;  that   would   be   possible。     Yes;  certainly;   it   would   be   possible。
  But   think   of   her   position。  The   house   full   of   wedding   presentsguests
  coming   from   a     distance。    It   is   awful。  And     you   say   that  there   is  no
  alternative。〃
  The doctor shrugged his shoulders。
  〃Well; then; I might write it now; and start to… morroweh?                 Perhaps
  you would let me use your desk。            Thank you。       I am so sorry to keep you
  from your guests so long。         But I won't be a moment now。〃
  He wrote an abrupt note