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作者:赖赖      更新:2021-02-27 02:48      字数:9320
  but white glass in it); the ruddy glow; which had but so little a while quite
  died out in the west; was now beginning to gather in the eastthe new day
  was beginning。       I looked at the poppy that I still carried in my hand; and
  it seemed to me to have withered and dwindled。               I felt anxious to speak to
  my companion and tell him much; and withal I felt that I must hasten; or
  for some reason or other I should be too late; so I spoke at last loud and
  hurriedly:
  〃John Ball; be of good cheer; for once more thou knowest; as I know;
  that the Fellowship of Men shall endure; however many tribulations it may
  have to wear through。         Look you; a while ago was the light bright about
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  us;    but    it  was     because     of   the    moon;      and    the   night    was     deep
  notwithstanding; and when the moonlight waned and died; and there was
  but   a   little   glimmer   in   place   of   the   bright   light;   yet   was   the   world   glad
  because all things knew that the glimmer was of day and not of night。                       Lo
  you; an image of the times to betide the hope of the Fellowship of Men。
  Yet forsooth; it may well be that this bright day of summer which is now
  dawning upon us is no image of the beginning of the day that shall be; but
  rather shall that day…dawn be cold and grey and surly; and yet by its light
  shall   men   see   things   as   they  verily  are;   and   no   longer   enchanted   by  the
  gleam   of   the   moon   and   the   glamour   of   the   dream…tide。        By   such   grey
  light shall wise men and valiant souls see the remedy; and deal with it; a
  real thing that may be touched and handled; and no glory of the heavens to
  be worshipped from afar off。             And what shall it be; as I told thee before;
  save   that   men   shall   be   determined   to   be   free;   yea;   free   as   thou   wouldst
  have them; when thine hope rises the highest; and thou art thinking not of
  the king's uncles; and poll…groat bailiffs; and the villeinage of Essex; but of
  the end of all; when men shall have the fruits of the earth and the fruits of
  their toil thereon; without money and without price。                 The time shall come;
  John Ball; when that dream of thine that this shall one day be; shall be a
  thing that men shall talk of soberly; and as a thing soon to come about; as
  even with thee they talk of the villeins becoming tenants paying their lord
  quit…rent; therefore; hast thou done well to hope it; and; if thou heedest this
  also; as I suppose thou heedest it little; thy name shall abide by thy hope in
  those days to come; and thou shalt not be forgotten。〃
  I heard his voice come out of the twilight; scarcely seeing him; though
  now the light was growing fast; as he said:
  〃Brother;   thou   givest   me   heart   again;   yet   since   now   I   wot   well   that
  thou art a sending from far…off times and far…off things: tell thou; if thou
  mayest; to a man who is going to his death how this shall come about。〃
  〃Only   this   may   I   tell   thee   〃   said   I;   〃to   thee;   when   thou   didst   try   to
  conceive of them; the ways of the days to come seemed follies scarce to be
  thought   of;   yet   shall   they   come   to   be   familiar   things;   and   an   order   by
  which every man liveth; ill as he liveth; so that men shall deem of them;
  that   thus   it   hath   been   since   the   beginning   of   the   world;   and   that   thus   it
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  shall be while the world endureth; and in this wise so shall they be thought
  of   a   long   while;   and   the   complaint of   the poor   the   rich   man   shall   heed;
  even as much and no more as he who lieth in pleasure under the lime…trees
  in the summer heedeth the murmur of his toiling bees。                    Yet in time shall
  this also grow old; and doubt shall creep in; because men shall scarce be
  able to live by that order; and the complaint of the poor shall be hearkened;
  no longer as a tale not utterly grievous; but as a threat of ruin; and a fear。
  Then     shall   these   things;   which    to  thee   seem    follies;   and   to  the   men
  between thee and me mere wisdom and the bond of stability; seem follies
  once again; yet; whereas men have so long lived by them; they shall cling
  to them yet from blindness and from fear; and those that see; and that have
  thus much conquered fear that they are furthering the real time that cometh
  and   not the   dream  that   faileth;   these   men   shall   the   blind   and the   fearful
  mock and missay; and torment and murder: and great and grievous shall
  be the strife in those days; and many the failures of the wise; and too oft
  sore shall be the despair of the valiant; and back…sliding; and doubt; and
  contest     between     friends    and   fellows    lacking     time   in  the   hubbub     to
  understand each other; shall grieve many hearts and hinder the Host of the
  Fellowship: yet shall all bring about the end; till thy deeming of folly and
  ours shall be one; and thy hope and our hope; and thenthe Day will have
  come。〃
  Once   more   I   heard   the   voice   of   John   Ball:     〃Now;   brother;   I   say
  farewell; for now verily hath the Day of the Earth come; and thou and I are
  lonely of each other again; thou hast been a dream to me as I to thee; and
  sorry   and   glad   have   we   made   each   other;   as   tales   of   old   time   and   the
  longing of times to come shall ever make men to be。                    I go to life and to
  death;  and leave thee;   and scarce   do   I know  whether   to   wish thee   some
  dream of the days beyond thine to tell what shall be; as thou hast told me;
  for I  know  not if   that   shall help or  hinder thee; but since  we  have   been
  kind and very friends; I will not leave thee without a wish of good…will; so
  at   least   I   wish   thee   what   thou   thyself   wishest   for   thyself;   and   that   is
  hopeful   strife   and   blameless   peace;   which   is   to   say   in   one   word;   life。
  Farewell; friend。〃
  For   some   little   time;   although     I   had  known   that    the   daylight   was
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  growing   and   what   was   around   me;   I   had   scarce   seen   the   things   I   had
  before noted so keenly; but now in a flash I saw allthe east crimson with
  sunrise   through   the   white   window   on   my   right   hand;   the   richly…carved
  stalls and gilded screen work; the pictures on the walls; the loveliness of
  the faultless colour of the mosaic window lights; the altar and the red light
  over it looking strange in the daylight; and the biers with the hidden dead
  men upon them that lay before the high altar。            A great pain filled my heart
  at the sight of all that beauty; and withal I heard quick steps coming up the
  paved church…path to the porch; and the loud whistle of a sweet old tune
  therewith; then the footsteps stopped at the door; I heard the latch rattle;
  and knew that Will Green's hand was on the ring of it。
  Then I strove to rise up; but fell back again; a white light; empty of all
  sights; broke upon me for a moment; and lo I behold; I was lying in my
  familiar    bed;   the  south…westerly      gale   rattling  the  Venetian     blinds   and
  making their hold…fasts squeak。
  I got up presently; and going to the window looked out on the winter
  morning; the river was before me broad between outer bank and bank; but
  it was nearly dead ebb; and there was a wide space of mud on each side of
  the hurrying stream; driven on the faster as it seemed by the push of the
  south…west wind。        On the other side of the water the few willow…trees left
  us by the Thames Conservancy looked doubtfully alive against the bleak
  sky and the row of wretched…looking blue…slated houses; although; by the
  way; the latter were the backs of a sort of street of 〃villas〃 and not a slum;
  the road in front of the house was sooty and muddy at once; and in the air
  was that sense of dirty discomfort which one is never quit of in London。
  The morning was harsh; too; and though the wind was from the south…west
  it was as cold as a north wind; and yet amidst it all; I thought of the corner
  of the next bight of the river which I could not quite see from where I was;
  but   over   which   one   can   see   clear   of   houses   and   into   Richmond   Park;
  looking like the open country; and dirty as the river was; and harsh as was
  the January wind; they seemed to woo me toward the country…side; where