第 34 节
作者:浮游云中      更新:2021-02-24 23:06      字数:9321
  gentleman was based on evidence purely circumstantial; Janet was inclined
  to believe him of a type wholly different from his predecessors; and the
  fact that his attentions were curiously intermittent and irregular
  inclined her to the theory that he was not a resident of Hampton。  What
  was he like?  It revolted her to reflect that he might in some ways
  possibly resemble Ditmar。  Thus he became the object of a morbid
  speculation; especially at such times as this; when Lise attired herself
  in her new winter finery and went forth to meet him。  Janet; also; had
  recently been self…convicted of sharing with Lise the same questionable
  tendency toward self…adornment to please the eye of man。  The very next
  Saturday night after she had indulged in that mad extravagance of the
  blue suit; Lise had brought home from the window of The Paris in Faber
  Street a hat that had excited the cupidity and admiration of Miss Schuler
  and herself; and in front of which they had stood languishing on three
  successive evenings。  In its acquisition Lise had expended almost the
  whole of a week's salary。  Its colour was purple; on three sides were
  massed drooping lilac feathers; but over the left ear the wide brim was
  caught up and held by a crescent of brilliant paste stones。  Shortly
  after this purchasethe next week; in fact;The Paris had alluringly
  and craftily displayed; for the tempting sum of 6。29; the very cloak
  ordained by providence to 〃go〃 with the hat。  Miss Schuler declared it
  would be a crime to fail to take advantage of such an opportunity but the
  trouble was that Lise had had to wait for two more pay…days and endure
  the suspense arising from the possibility that some young lady of taste
  and means might meanwhile become its happy proprietor。  Had not the
  saleslady been obdurate; Lise would have had it on credit; but she did
  succeed; by an initial payment the ensuing Saturday; in having it
  withdrawn from public gaze。  The second Saturday Lise triumphantly
  brought the cloak home; a velvet cloak;if the eyes could be believed;
  velvet bordering on plush; with a dark purple ground delicately and
  artistically spotted with a lilac to match the hat feathers; and edged
  with a material whichif not too impudently examined and no questions
  askedmight be mistaken; by the uninitiated male; for the fur of a white
  fox。  Both investments had been made; needless to say; on the strength of
  Janet's increased salary; and Lise; when Janet had surprised her before
  the bureau rapturously surveying the combination; justified herself with
  a defiant apology。
  〃I just had to have somethingwhat with winter coming on;〃 she declared;
  seizing the hand mirror in order to view the back。  〃You might as well
  get your clothes chick; while you're about itand I didn't have to dig
  up twenty bones; neithernor anything like it〃 a reflection on Janet's
  moest blue suit and her abnormal extravagance。  For it was Lise's habit
  to carry the war into the enemy's country。  〃Sadie's dippy about itsays
  it puts her in mind of one of the swells snapshotted in last Sunday's
  supplement。  Well; dearie; how does the effect get you?〃 and she wheeled
  around for her sister's inspection。
  〃If you take my advice; you'll be careful not to be caught out in the
  rain。〃
  〃What's chewin' you now?〃 demanded Lise。  She was not lacking in
  imagination of a certain sort; and Janet's remark did not fail in its
  purpose of summoning up a somwhat abject image of herself in wet velvet
  and bedraggled feathersan image suggestive of a certain hunted type of
  woman Lise and her kind held in peculiar horror。  And she was the more
  resentful because she felt; instinctively; that the memory of this
  suggestion would never be completely eradicated: it would persist; like a
  canker; to mar the completeness of her enjoyment of these clothes。  She
  swung on Janet furiously。
  〃I get you; all right!〃  she cried。  〃I guess I know what's eatin' you!
  You've got money to burn and you're sore because I spend mine to buy what
  I need。  You don't know how to dress yourself any more than one of them
  Polak girls in the mills; and you don't want anybody else to look nice。〃
  And Janet was impelled to make a retort of almost equal crudity:
  〃If I were a man and saw you in those clothes I wouldn't wait for an
  introduction。  You asked me what I thought。  I don't care about the
  money!〃 she exclaimed passionately。  〃I've often told you you were pretty
  enough without having to wear that kind of thingto make men stare at
  you。〃
  〃I want to know if I don't always look like a lady!  And there's no man
  living would try to pick me up more than once。〃  The nasal note in Lise's
  voice had grown higher and shriller; she was almost weeping with anger。
  〃You want me to go 'round lookin' like a floorwasher。〃
  〃I'd rather look like a floorwasher thanthan another kind of woman;〃
  Janet declared。
  〃Well; you've got your wish; sweetheart;〃 said Lise。  〃You needn't be
  scared anybody will pick you up。〃
  〃I'm not;〃 said Janet。。。。
  This quarrel had taken place a week or so before Janet's purchase of the
  stove。  Hannah; too; was outraged by Lise's costume; and had also been
  moved to protest; futile protest。  Its only effect on Lise was to
  convince her of the existence of a prearranged plan of persecution; to
  make her more secretive and sullen than ever before。
  〃Sometimes I just can't believe she's my daughter;〃 Hannah said
  dejectedly to Janet when they were alone together in the kitchen after
  Lise had gone out。  〃I'm fond of her because she's my own flesh and
  bloodI'm ashamed of it; but I can't help it。  I guess it's what the
  minister in Dolton used to call a visitation。  I suppose I deserve it;
  but sometimes I think maybe if your father had been different he might
  have been able to put a stop to the way she's going on。  She ain't like
  any of the Wenches; nor any of the Bumpuses; so far's I'm able to find
  out。  She just don't seem to have any notion about right and wrong。
  Well; the world has got all jumbled upit beats me。〃
  Hannah wrung out the mop viciously and hung it over the sink。
  〃I used to hope some respectable man would come along; but I've quit
  hopin'。  I don't know as any respectable man would want Lise; or that I
  could honestly wish him to have her。〃
  〃Mother!〃 protested Janet。  Sometimes; in those conversations; she was
  somewhat paradoxically impelled to defend her sister。
  〃Well; I don't;〃 insisted Hannah; 〃that's a fact。  I'll tell you what she
  looks like in that hat and cloaka bad woman。  I don't say she isI
  don't know what I'd do if I thought she was; but I never expected my
  daughter to look like one。〃
  〃Oh; Lise can take care of herself;〃 Janet said; in spite of certain
  recent misgivings。
  〃This town's Sodom and Gomorrah rolled into one;〃 declared Hannah who;
  from early habit; was occasionally prone to use scriptural parallels。
  And after a moment's silence she inquired: 〃Who's this man that's payin'
  her attention now?〃
  〃I don't know;〃 replied Janet; 〃I don't know that there's anybody。〃
  〃I guess there is;〃 said Hannah。  〃I used to think that that Wiley was
  low enough; but I could see him。  It was some satisfaction。  I could know
  the worst; anyhow。。。。  I guess it's about time for another flood。〃
  This talk had left Janet in one of these introspective states so frequent
  in her recent experience。  Her mother had used the words 〃right〃 and
  〃wrong。〃  But what was 〃right;〃 or 〃wrong?〃  There was no use asking
  Hannah; whoshe perceivedwas as confused and bewildered as herself。
  Did she refuse to encourage Mr。 Ditmar because it was wrong?  because; if
  she acceded to his desires; and what were often her own; she would be
  punished in an after life?  She was not at all sure whether she believed
  in an after life;a lack of faith that had; of late; sorely troubled her
  friend Eda Rawle; who had 〃got religion〃 from an itinerant evangelist and
  was now working off; in a 〃live〃 church; some of the emotional idealism
  which is the result of a balked sex instinct in young unmarried women of
  a certain mentality and unendowed with good looks。  This was not; of
  course; Janet's explanation of the change in her friend; of whom she now
  saw less and less。  They had had arguments; in which neither gained any
  ground。  For the first time in their intercourse; ideas had come between
  them; Eda having developed a surprising self…assertion when her new
  convictions were attacked; a dogged loyalty to a scheme of salvation that
  Janet found neither inspiring nor convincing。  She resented being prayed
  for; and an Eda fervent in good works bored her more than ever。  Eda was
  deeply pained by Janet's increasing avoidance of her company; yet her
  heroine…worship persisted。  Her continued regard for her friend might
  possibly be compared to the attitude of an orthodox Baptist who has
  developed a hobby; let us say; for Napoleon Bonaparte。
  Janet was not wholly without remorse。  She valued Eda's devotion; she
  sincerely regretted the fact; on Eda's account as well as her own; that
  it was a devotion of no use to her in the present crisis nor indeed in
  any crisis likely to confront her in life: she had felt instinctively
  from the first that the friendship was not founde