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作者:敏儿不觉      更新:2021-02-24 22:58      字数:9320
  moen 'interest' at Court would have saved me!
  Well; we know what the Laird of Dunipace did about it。
  ‘‘As   to   these   women   who   was   challenged   with   me;''   the   confession
  goes on;
  I will also tell my mind concerning them。            God forgive the nurse; for
  she helped   me   too   well in   mine   evil purpose;   for  when   I told   her  I  was
  minded to do so she consented to the doing of it; and upon Tuesday; when
  the turn was done; when I sent her to seek the man who would do it; she
  said; ‘‘ I shall go and seek him; and if I get him not I shall seek another!
  And if I get none I shall do it myself!''
  Here   the   writer of   the   Memorial   interpolates the   remark;   ‘‘This   the
  nurse     also  confessed;     being    asked    of  it  before    her  death。''    It  is  a
  misfortune;      equalling     that  of   the   lack   of  information      regarding     the
  character of Jean's husband; that there is so little about the character of the
  nurse。     She was; it is to be presumed; an older woman than her mistress;
  probably nurse to Jean in her infancy。             One can imagine her (the stupid
  creature!)   up   in   arms   against   Kincaid   for   his   treatment   of   her   ‘‘bonny
  lamb;'' without the sense to see whither she was urging her young mistress;
  blind     to  the    consequences;       but   ‘‘nursing     her   wrath''   and    striding
  purposefully from Warriston to Holyroodhouse on her strong plebeian legs;
  not once but several times; in search of Weir!             What is known in Scotland
  as a ‘limmer;' obviously。
  ‘‘As for the two other women;'' Jean continues;
  I request that you neither put them to death nor any torture; because I
  testify they are both innocent; and knew nothing of this deed before it was
  done; and the mean time of doing it; and that they knew they durst not tell;
  for   fear;   for   I   compelled   them   to   dissemble。   As   for   mine   own   part;   I
  thank my God a thousand times that I am so touched with the sense of that
  sin now: for I confess this also to you; that when that horrible murder was
  committed first; that I might seem to be innocent; I laboured to counterfeit
  weeping; but; do what I could; I could not find a tear。
  Of the whole confession that last is the most revealing touch。                   It is
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  hardly  just   to   fall   into   pity  for   Jean   simply   because   she   was   young   and
  lovely。     Her crime was a bad one; much more deliberate than many that;
  in the same age; took women of lower rank in life than Jean to the crueller
  end of the stake。        In the several days during which she was sending for
  Weir;   but   failing   to   have   speech   with   him;   she   had   time   to   review   her
  intention   of   having   her   husband   murdered。         If   the   nurse   was   the   prime
  mover in the plot Jean was an unrelenting abettor。                   It may have been in
  her calculations before; as well as after; the deed itself that the interest of
  her father and family at Court would save her; should the deed have come
  to   light   as   murder。   Even   in   these   days;   when   justice   is   so   much   more
  seasoned with mercy to women murderers; a woman in Jean's case; with
  such   strong   evidence   of  premeditation   against   her;   would   only   narrowly
  escape   the   hangman;   if   she   escaped   him   at   all。    But   that   confession   of
  trying to pretend weeping and being unable to find tears is a revelation。                      I
  can think of nothing more indicative of terror and misery in a woman than
  that she should want to cry and be unable to。               Your genuinely hypocritical
  murderer; male as well as female; can always work up self…pity easily and
  induce the streaming eye。
  It   is   from  internal   evidences   such   as   this   that   one   may  conclude   the
  repentance of Jean Livingstone; as shown in her confession; to have been
  sincere。      There      was;   we    are   informed      by   the   memorialist;      nothing
  maudlin in her conduct after condemnation。                   Once she got over her first
  obduracy;       induced;    one    would     imagine;     by   the   shock    of   seeing    the
  realization of what she had planned but never pictured; the murder itself;
  and    probably     by   the   desertion    of   her  by   her   father   and    kindred;    her
  repentance   was   ‘‘cheerful''   and   ‘‘unfeigned。''         They   were   tough…minded
  men;   those   Scots   divines   who   ministered   to   her   at   the   last;   too   stern   in
  their   theology   to   be   misled   by   any   pretence   at   finding   grace。     And   no
  pretty    ways    of   Jean's   would     have   deceived     them。     The     constancy     of
  behaviour which is vouched for; not only by the memorialist but by other
  writers; stayed with her until the axe fell。
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  ‘‘She   was   but   a   woman   and   a   bairn;   being   the   age   of   twenty…one
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  years;'' says the Memorial。          But; ‘‘in the whole way; as she went to the
  place of execution;  she behaved herself so cheerfully as   if she had been
  going   to   her   wedding;   and   not   to   her   death。   When   she   came   to   the
  scaffold; and was carried up upon it; she looked up to ‘‘the Maiden'' with
  two longsome looks; for she had never seen it before。''
  The minister…memorialist; who attended her on the scaffold; says that
  all   who   saw   Jean   would   bear   record   with   himself   that   her   countenance
  alone would have aroused emotion; even if she had never spoken a word。
  ‘‘For there appeared such majesty in her countenance and visage; and such
  a   heavenly     courage    in   her  gesture;    that  many    said;   ‘That   woman      is
  ravished by a higher spirit than a man or woman's!' ''
  As   for   the   Declaration   and   Confession   which;   according   to   custom;
  Jean made from the four corners of the scaffold; the memorialist does not
  pretend to give it verbatim。         It was; he says; almost in a form of words;
  and he gives the sum of it thus:
  The occasion of my coming here is to show that I am; and have been;
  a   great   sinner;   and   hath   offended   the   Lord's   Majesty;   especially;   of   the
  cruel murdering of mine own husband; which; albeit I did not with mine
  own hands; for I never laid mine hands upon him all the time that he was
  murdering; yet I was the deviser of it; and so the committer。                But my God
  hath been   always   merciful   to   me;   and   hath   given   me   repentance   for   my
  sins; and I hope for mercy and grace at his Majesty's hands; for his dear
  son Jesus Christ's sake。         And the Lord hath brought me hither to be an
  example   to   you;   that   you   may   not   fall   into   the   like   sin   as   I   have   done。
  And I pray God; for his mercy; to keep all his faithful people from falling
  into the like inconvenient as I have done!             And therefore I desire you all
  to pray to God for me; that he would be merciful to me!
  One    wonders     just  how    much    of   Jean's  own    words    the   minister…
  memorialist got into this; his sum of her confession。                Her speech would
  be coloured inevitably by the phrasing she had caught from her spiritual
  advisers; and the sum of it would almost unavoidably have something of
  the   memorialist's own   fashion   of thought。         I   would give   a   good   deal   to
  know if Jean did actually refer to the Almighty as ‘‘the Lord's Majesty;''
  and hope for ‘‘grace at his Majesty's hands。''              I do not think I am being
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  oversubtle when I fancy that; if Jean did use those words; I see an element
  of    confusion       in   her    scaffold     confessionthe       trembling      confusion
  remaining   from   a   lost   hope。      As   a   Scot;   I   have   no   recollection   of   ever
  hearing     the   Almighty   referred      to  as   ‘‘the  Lord's    Majesty''    or  as   ‘‘his
  Majesty。''     It does not ring naturally to my ear。            Nor; at the long distance
  from which I recollect reading works of early Scottish divines; can I think
  of these forms being used in such a context。                  I may beI very probably
  amall   wrong;   but   I   have   a   feeling   that   up   to   the   last   Jean   Livingstone
  believed     royal    clemency      would