第 153 节
作者:空白协议书      更新:2021-02-21 16:30      字数:9322
  URSULA。
  Alas! that I should live to see
  Thy death; beloved; and to stand
  Above thy grave!  Ah; woe the day!
  ELSIE。
  Thou wilt not see it。  I shall lie
  Beneath the flowers of another land;
  For at Salerno; far away
  Over the mountains; over the sea;
  It is appointed me to die!
  And it will seem no more to thee
  Than if at the village on market…day
  I should a little longer stay
  Than I am wont。
  URSULA。
  Even as thou sayest!
  And how my heart beats; when thou stayest!
  I cannot rest until my sight
  Is satisfied with seeing thee;
  What; then; if thou wert dead?
  GOTTLIEB。
  Ah me!
  Of our old eyes thou art the light!
  The joy of our old hearts art thou!
  And wilt thou die?
  URSULA。
  Not now! not now!
  ELSIE。
  Christ died for me; and shall not!
  Be willing for my Prince to die?
  You both are silent; you cannot speak
  This said I at our Saviour's feast
  After confession; to the priest;
  And even he made no reply。
  Does he not warn us all to seek
  The happier; better land on high;
  Where flowers immortal never wither;
  And could he forbid me to go thither?
  GOTTLIEB。
  In God's own time; my heart's delight!
  When He shall call thee; not before!
  ELSIE。
  I heard Him call。  When Christ ascended
  Triumphantly; from star to star;
  He left the gates of heaven ajar。
  I had a vision in the night;
  And saw Him standing at the door
  Of his Father's mansion; vast and splendid;
  And beckoning to me from afar。
  I cannot stay!
  GOTTLIEB。
  She speaks almost
  As if it were the Holy Ghost
  Spake through her lips; and in her stead:
  What if this were of God?
  URSULA。
  Ah; then
  Gainsay it dare we not。
  GOTTLIEB。
  Amen!
  Elsie! the words that thou hast said
  Are strange and new for us to hear;
  And fill our hears with doubt and fear。
  Whether it be a dark temptation
  Of the Evil One; or God's inspiration;
  We in our blindness cannot say。
  We must think upon it; and pray;
  For evil and good it both resembles。
  If it be of God; his will be done!
  May He guard us from the Evil One!
  How hot thy hand is! how it trembles!
  Go to thy bed; and try to sleep。
  URSULA。
  Kiss me。  Good night; and do not weep!
  ELSIE goes out。
  Ah; what an awful thing is this!
  I almost shuddered at her kiss;
  As if a ghost had touched my cheek;
  I am so childish and so weak!
  As soon as I see the earliest gray
  Of morning glimmer in the east;
  I will go over to the priest;
  And hear what the good man has to say。
  A VILLAGE CHURCH
  A woman kneeling at the confessional。
  THE PARISH PRIEST; from within。
  Go; sin no more!  Thy penance o'er;
  A new and better life begin!
  God maketh thee forever free
  From the dominion of thy sin!
  Go; sin no more!  He will restore
  The peace that filled thy heart before;
  And pardon thine iniquity!
  The woman goes out。  The Priest comes forth; and walks slowly up
  and down the church。
  O blessed Lord! how much I need
  Thy light to guide me on my way!
  So many hands; that; without heed;
  Still touch thy wounds and make them bleed!
  So many feet; that; day by day;
  Still wander from thy fold astray!
  Unless thou fill me with thy light;
  I cannot lead thy flock aright;
  Nor without thy support can bear
  The burden of so great a care;
  But am myself a castaway!
  A pause。
  The day is drawing to its close;
  And what good deeds; since first it rose;
  Have I presented; Lord; to thee;
  As offsprings of my ministry?
  What wrong repressed; what right maintained;
  What struggle passed; what victory gained;
  What good attempted and attained?
  Feeble; at best; is my endeavor!
  I see; but cannot reach; the height
  That lies forever in the light;
  And yet forever and forever;
  When seeming just within my grasp;
  I feel my feeble hands unclasp;
  And sink discouraged into night!
  For thine own purpose; thou hast sent
  The strife and the discouragement!
  A pause。
  Why stayest thou; Prince of Hoheneck?
  Why keep me pacing to and fro
  Amid these aisles of sacred gloom;
  Counting my footsteps as I go;
  And marking with each step a tomb?
  Why should the world for thee make room;
  And wait thy leisure and thy beck?
  Thou comest in the hope to hear
  Some word of comfort and of cheer。
  What can I say?  I cannot give
  The counsel to do this and live;
  But rather; firmly to deny
  The tempter; though his power be strong;
  And; inaccessible to wrong;
  Still like a martyr live and die!
  A pause。
  The evening air grows dusk and brown;
  I must go forth into the town;
  To visit beds of pain and death;
  Of restless limbs; and quivering breath;
  And sorrowing hearts; and patient eyes
  That see; through tears; the sun go down;
  But never more shall see it rise。
  The poor in body and estate;
  The sick and the disconsolate;
  Must not on man's convenience wait。
  Goes out。
  Enter LUCIFER; as a Priest。
  LUCIFER; with a genuflexion; mocking。
  This is the Black Pater…noster。
  God was my foster;
  He fostered me
  Under the book of the Palm…tree!
  St。 Michael was my dame。
  He was born at Bethlehem;
  He was made of flesh and blood。
  God send me my right food;
  My right food; and shelter too;
  That I may to yon kirk go;
  To read upon yon sweet book
  Which the mighty God of heaven shook
  Open; open; hell's gates!
  Shut; shut; heaven's gates!
  All the devils in the air
  The stronger be; that hear the Black Prayer!
  Looking round the church。
  What a darksome and dismal place!
  I wonder that any man has the face
  To call such a hole the House of the Lord;
  And the gate of Heaven;yet such is the word。
  Ceiling; and walls; and windows old;
  Covered with cobwebs; blackened with mould;
  Dust on the pulpit; dust on the stairs;
  Dust on the benches; and stalls; and chairs!
  The pulpit; from which such ponderous sermons
  Have fallen down on the brains of the Germans;
  With about as much real edification
  As if a great Bible; bound in lead;
  Had fallen; and struck them on the head;
  And I ought to remember that sensation!
  Here stands the holy…water stoup!
  Holy…water it may be to many;
  But to me; the veriest Liquor Gehennae!
  It smells like a filthy fast…day soup!
  Near it stands the box for the poor;
  With its iron padlock; safe and sure。
  I and the priest of the parish know
  Whither all these charities go;
  Therefore; to keep up the institution;
  I will add my little contribution!
  He puts in money。
  Underneath this mouldering tomb;
  With statue of stone; and scutcheon of brass;
  Slumbers a great lord of the village。
  All his life was riot and pillage;
  But at length; to escape the threatened doom
  Of the everlasting penal fire;
  He died in the dress of a mendicant friar;
  And bartered his wealth for a daily mass。
  But all that afterwards came to pass;
  And whether he finds it dull or pleasant;
  Is kept a secret for the present;
  At his own particular desire。
  And here; in a corner of the wall;
  Shadowy; silent; apart from all;
  With its awful portal open wide;
  And its latticed windows on either side;
  And its step well worn by the beaded knees
  Of one or two pious centuries;
  Stands the village confessional!
  Within it; as an honored guest;
  I will sit down awhile and rest!
  Seats himself in the confessional。
  Here sits the priest; and faint and low;
  Like the sighing of an evening breeze;
  Comes through these painted lattices
  The ceaseless sound of human woe;
  Here; while her bosom aches and throbs
  With deep and agonizing sobs;
  That half are passion; half contrition;
  The luckless daughter of perdition
  Slowly confesses her secret shame!
  The time; the place; the lover's name!
  Here the grim murderer; with a groan;
  From his bruised conscience rolls the stone;
  Thinking that thus he can atone
  For ravages of sword and flame!
  Indeed; I marvel; and marvel greatly;
  How a priest can sit here so sedately;
  Reading; the whole year out and in;
  Naught but the catalogue of sin;
  And still keep any faith whatever
  In human virtue!  Never! never!
  I cannot repeat a thousandth part
  Of the horrors and crimes and sins and woes
  That arise; when with palpitating throes
  The graveyard in the human heart
  Gives up its dead; at the voice of the priest;
  As if he were an archangel; at least。
  It makes a peculiar atmosphere;
  This odor of earthly passions and crimes;
  Such as I like to breathe; at times;
  And such as often brings me here
  In the hottest and most pestilential season。
  To…day; I come for another reason;
  To foster and ripen an evil thought
  In a heart that is almost to madness wrought;
  And to make a murderer out of a prince;
  A sleight of hand I learned long since!
  He comes。  In the twilight he will not see
  The difference between hi