第 46 节
作者:散发弄舟      更新:2021-02-21 16:20      字数:9322
  trembling lips。
  Yes; certainly;〃 she replied with a smile; and a glance in his face
  as of wonder as to what could trouble him so much。  Then turning;
  and leading the way; she said:
  〃Come into my room。〃
  He followed her。  She turned and shut the door; which he had left
  open behind him。  He almost knelt to her; but something held him
  back from that。
  〃Euphra;〃 he said; 〃what have I done to offend you?〃
  〃Offend me!  Nothing。〃This was uttered in a perfect tone of
  surprise。
  〃How is it that you avoid me as you do; and will not allow me one
  moment's speech with you?  You are driving me to distraction。〃
  〃Why; you foolish man!〃 she answered; half playfully; pressing the
  palms of her little hands together; and looking up in his face; 〃how
  can I?  Don't you see how those two dear old ladies swallow me up in
  their faddles?  Oh; dear?  Oh; dear!  I wish they would go。  Then it
  would be all right againwouldn't it?〃
  But Hugh was not to be so easily satisfied。
  〃Before they came; ever since that night〃
  〃Hush…sh!〃 she interrupted; putting her finger on his lips; and
  looking hurriedly round her with an air of fright; of which he could
  hardly judge whether it was real or assumed〃hush!〃
  Comforted wondrously by the hushing finger; Hugh would yet
  understand more。
  〃I am no baby; dear Euphra;〃 he said; taking hold of the hand to
  which the finger belonged; and laying it on his mouth; 〃do not make
  one of me。  There is some mystery in all thisat least something I
  do not understand。〃
  〃I will tell you all about it one day。  But; seriously; you must be
  careful how you behave to me; for if my uncle should; but for one
  moment; entertain a suspiciongood…bye to youperhaps good…bye to
  Arnstead。  All my influence with him comes from his thinking that I
  like him better than anybody else。  So you must not make the poor
  old man jealous。  By the bye;〃 she went onrapidly; as if she would
  turn the current of the conversation aside〃what a favourite you
  have grown with him!  You should have heard him talk of you to the
  old ladies。  I might well be jealous of you。  There never was a
  tutor like his。〃
  Hugh's heart smote him that the praise of even this common man;
  proud of his own vanity; should be undeserved by him。  He was
  troubled; too; at the flippancy with which Euphra spoke; yet not the
  less did he feel that he loved her passionately。
  〃I daresay;〃 he replied; 〃he praised me as he would anything else
  that happened to be his。  Isn't that old bay horse of his the best
  hack in the county?〃
  〃You naughty man!  Are you going to be satirical?〃
  〃You claim that as your privilege; do you?〃
  〃Worse and worse!  I will not talk to you。  But; seriously; for I
  must gobring your Italian toto〃 She hesitated。
  〃To the librarywhy not?〃 suggested Hugh。
  〃No…o;〃 she answered; shaking her head; and looking quite solemn。
  〃Well; will you come to my study?  Will that please you better?〃
  〃Yes; I will;〃 she answered; with a definitive tone。 〃Good…bye;
  now。〃
  She opened the door; and having looked out to see that no one was
  passing; told him to go。  As he went; he felt as if the oaken floor
  were elastic beneath his tread。
  It was sometime after the household had retired; however; before
  Euphra made her appearance at the door of his study。  She seemed
  rather shy of entering; and hesitated; as if she felt she was doing
  something she ought not to do。  But as soon as she had entered; and
  the door was shut; she appeared to recover herself quite; and they
  sat down at the table with their books。  They could not get on very
  well with their reading; however。  Hugh often forgot what he was
  about; in looking at her; and she seemed nowise inclined to avert
  his gazes; or check the growth of his admiration。
  Rather abruptly; but apparently starting from some suggestion in the
  book; she said to him:
  〃By the bye; has Mr。 Arnold ever said anything to you about the
  family jewels?〃
  〃No;〃 said Hugh。 〃Are there many?〃
  〃Yes; a great many。  Mr。 Arnold is very proud of them; as well as of
  the portraits; so he treats them in the same waykeeps them locked
  up。  Indeed he seldom allows them to see daylight; except it be as a
  mark of especial favour to some one。〃
  〃I should like much to see them。  I have always been curious about
  stones。  They are wonderful; mysterious things to me。〃
  Euphra gave him a very peculiar; searching glance; as he spoke。
  〃Shall I;〃 he continued; 〃give him a hint that I should like to see
  them?〃
  〃By no means;〃 answered Euphra; emphatically; 〃except he should
  refer to them himself。  He is very jealous of his possessionshis
  family possessions; I mean。  Poor old man! he has not much else to
  plume himself upon; has he?〃
  〃He is kind to you; Euphra。〃
  She looked at him as if she did not understand him。
  〃Yes。 What then?〃
  〃You ought not to be unkind to him。〃
  〃You odd creature!  I am not unkind to him。  I like him。  But we are
  not getting on with our reading。  What could have led me to talk
  about family…jewels?  Oh!  I see。  What a strange thing the
  association of ideas is!  There is not a very obvious connexion
  here; is there?〃
  〃No。 One cannot account for such things。  The links in the chain of
  ideas are sometimes slender enough。  Yet the slenderest is
  sufficient to enable the electric flash of thought to pass along the
  line。〃
  She seemed pondering for a moment。
  〃That strikes me as a fine simile;〃 she said。 〃You ought to be a
  poet yourself。〃
  Hugh made no reply。
  〃I daresay you have hundreds of poems in that old desk; now?〃
  〃I think they might be counted by tens。〃
  〃Do let me see them。〃
  〃You would not care for them。〃
  〃Wouldn't I; Hugh?〃
  〃I will; on one conditiontwo conditions; I mean。〃
  〃What are they?〃
  〃One is; that you show me yours。〃
  〃Mine?〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃Who told you I wrote verses?  That silly boy?〃
  〃NoI saw your verses before I saw you。  You remember?〃
  〃It was very dishonourable in you to read them。〃
  〃I only saw they were verses。  I did not read a word。〃
  〃I forgive you; then。  You must show me yours first; till I see
  whether I could venture to let you see mine。  If yours were very bad
  indeed; then I might risk showing mine。〃
  And much more of this sort; with which I will not weary my readers。
  It ended in Hugh's taking from the old escritoire a bundle of
  papers; and handing them to Euphra。  But the reader need not fear
  that I am going to print any of these verses。  I have more respect
  for my honest prose page than to break it up so。  Indeed; the whole
  of this interview might have been omitted; but for two
  circumstances。  One of them was; that in getting these papers; Hugh
  had to open a concealed portion of the escritoire; which his
  mathematical knowledge had enabled him to discover。  It had
  evidently not been opened for many years before he found it。  He had
  made use of it to hold the only treasures he hadpoor enough
  treasures; certainly!  Not a loving note; not a lock of hair even
  had henothing but the few cobwebs spun from his own brain。  It is
  true; we are rich or poor according to what we are; not what we
  have。  But what a man has produced; is not what he is。  He may even
  impoverish his true self by production。
  When Euphra saw him open this place; she uttered a suppressed cry of
  astonishment。
  〃Ah!〃 said Hugh; 〃you did not know of this hidie…hole; did you?〃
  〃Indeed; I did not。  I had used the desk myself; for this was a
  favourite room of mine before you came; but I never found that。
  Dear me!  Let me look。〃
  She put her hand on his shoulder and leaned over him; as he pointed
  out the way of opening it。
  〃Did you find nothing in it?〃 she said; with a slight tremour in her
  voice。
  〃Nothing whatever。〃
  〃There may be more places。〃
  〃No。 I have accounted for the whole bulk; I believe。〃
  〃How strange!〃
  〃But now you must give me my guerdon;〃 said Hugh timidly。
  The fact was; the poor youth had bargained; in a playful manner; and
  yet with an earnest; covetous heart; for one; the first kiss; in
  return for the poems she begged to see。
  She turned her face towards him。
  The second circumstance which makes the interview worth recording
  is; that; at this moment; three distinct knocks were heard on the
  window。  They sprang asunder; and saw each other's face pale as
  death。  In Euphra's; the expression of fright was mingled with one
  of annoyance。  Hugh; though his heart trembled like a bird; leaped
  to the window。  Nothing was to be seen but the trees that 〃stretched
  their dark arms〃 within a few feet of the oriel。  Turning again
  towards Euphra; he found; to his mortification; that she had
  vanishedand had left the packet of poems behind her。
  He replaced them in their old quarters in the escritoire; and his
  vague dismay at the unaccountable noises; was drowned in the bitter
  waters of miserable humiliation。  He slept at last; from the
  exhaustion of disappointment。
  When he awoke; however; he tried to persuade himself that he had
  made far too much of the trifling circumstance of her leaving the
  verses behind。  For was she not terrified?Why; then; did she leave
  him and go alone to her own room?She must have felt that she ought
  not to be in his; at that hour