第 15 节
作者:津夏      更新:2021-02-21 14:26      字数:9322
  nay。〃 And he thought so still in his innocence; and one day; when the little
  Alois; finding him by chance alone among the corn…fields by the canal; ran
  to   him   and   held   him   close;   and   sobbed   piteously   because   the   morrow
  would be her saint's day; and for the first time in all her life her parents
  had failed to bid him to the little supper and romp in the great barns with
  which   her   feast…day   was   always       celebrated;   Nello   had     kissed    her  and
  murmured to her in firm faith; 〃It shall be different one day; Alois。 One
  day that little bit of pine wood that your father has of mine shall be worth
  its weight in silver; and he will not shut the door against me then。 Only
  love   me   always;   dear   little   Alois;   only   love   me   always;   and   I   will   be
  great。〃
  〃And   if   I   do   not   love   you?〃   the   pretty   child   asked;   pouting   a   little
  through her tears; and moved by the instinctive coquetries of her sex。
  Nello's eyes left her face and wandered to the distance; where; in the
  red and gold   of the Flemish   night; the   cathedral spire rose。 There was   a
  smile on his face so sweet and yet so sad that little Alois was awed by it。 〃I
  will be great still;〃 he said under his breath〃great still; or die; Alois。〃
  〃You do not love me;〃 said the little spoiled child; pushing him away;
  but the boy shook his head and smiled; and went on his way through the
  tall yellow corn; seeing as in a vision some day in a fair future when he
  should come into that old familiar land and ask Alois of her people; and be
  not refused or denied; but received in honour; while the village folk should
  throng to look upon him and say in one another's ears; 〃Dost see him? He
  is a king among men; for he is a great artist and the world speaks his name;
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  and yet he was only our poor little Nello; who was a beggar; as one may
  say; and only got his bread by the help of his dog。〃 And he thought how he
  would fold his grandsire in furs and purples; and portray him as the old
  man is portrayed in the Family in the chapel of St。 Jacques; and of how he
  would hang the throat of Patrasche with a collar of gold; and place him on
  his right hand; and say to the people; 〃This was once my only friend;〃 and
  of how he would build himself a great white marble palace; and make to
  himself   luxuriant   gardens   of   pleasure;   on   the   slope   looking   outward   to
  where the cathedral spire rose; and not dwell in it himself; but summon to
  it; as to a home; all men young and poor and friendless; but of the will to
  do mighty things; and of how he would say to them always; if they sought
  to   bless   his   name;   〃Nay;   do   not   thank   methank   Rubens。   Without   him;
  what     should    I  have   been?〃    And    these   dreamsbeautiful;      impossible;
  innocent; free of all selfishness; full of heroical worshipwere so closely
  about     him   as   he  went    that  he   was    happyhappy      even    on   this  sad
  anniversary  of Alois's saint's   day;  when   he   and   Patrasche   went home   by
  themselves to the little dark hut and the meal of black bread; while in the
  mill…house all the children of the village sang and laughed; and ate the big
  round cakes of Dijon and the almond gingerbread of Brabant; and danced
  in the great barn to the light of the stars and the music of flute and fiddle。
  〃Never mind; Patrasche;〃 he said; with his arms round the dog's neck;
  as they both sat in the door of the hut; where the sounds of the mirth at the
  mill   came   down   to   them   on   the   night   air;   〃never   mind。   It   shall   all   be
  changed by…and…by。〃
  He believed in the future; Patrasche; of more experience and of more
  philosophy; thought that the loss of the mill supper in the present was ill
  compensated by dreams of milk and honey in some vague hereafter。 And
  Patrasche growled whenever he passed by Baas Cogez。
  〃This is Alois's name…day; is it not?〃 said the old man Daas that night;
  from the corner where he was stretched upon his bed of sacking。
  The boy gave a gesture of assent; he wished that the old man's memory
  had erred a little; instead of keeping such sure account。
  〃And     why    not  there?〃    his  grandfather    pursued。    〃Thou     hast  never
  missed a year before; Nello。〃
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  〃Thou art too sick to leave;〃 murmured the lad; bending his handsome
  head over the bed。
  〃Tut!   tut!   Mother   Nulette   would have   come   and   sat   with   me;  as   she
  does   scores   of   times。   What   is   the   cause;   Nello?〃   the   old   man   persisted。
  〃Thou      surely    hast   not   had   ill  words    with    the   little  one?〃    〃Nay;
  grandfather; never;〃 said the boy quickly; with a hot colour in his bent face。
  〃Simply and   truly; Baas   Cogez did   not have   me asked   this year。  He   has
  taken some whim against me。〃
  〃But thou hast done nothing wrong?〃
  〃That I knownothing。 I took the portrait of Alois on a piece of pine;
  that is all。〃
  〃Ah!〃 The old man was silent; the truth suggested itself to him  with
  the   boy's   innocent   answer。   He   was   tied   to   a   bed   of   dried   leaves   in   the
  corner of a wattle hut; but he had not wholly forgotten what the ways of
  the world were like。
  He drew Nello's fair head fondly to his breast with a tenderer gesture。
  〃Thou art very poor; my child;〃 he said; with a quiver the more in his aged;
  trembling voice; 〃so poor! It is very hard for thee。〃
  〃Nay; I am rich;〃 murmured Nello; and in his innocence he thought so;
  rich with the imperishable powers that are mightier than the might of kings。
  And he went and stood by the door of the hut in the quiet autumn night;
  and watched the stars troop by and the tall poplars bend and shiver in the
  wind。 All the casements of the mill…house were lighted; and every now and
  then the notes of the flute came to him。 The tears fell down his cheeks; for
  he was but a child; yet he smiled; for he said to himself; 〃In the future!〃
  He   stayed   there until   all   was   quite   still   and   dark;   then   he   and   Patrasche
  went within and slept together; long and deeply; side by side。
  Now   he   had   a   secret   which   only   Patrasche   knew。   There   was   a   little
  outhouse to the hut which no one entered but himselfa dreary place; but
  with abundant clear light from the north。 Here he had fashioned himself
  rudely an easel in rough lumber; and here; on a great gray sea of stretched
  paper;    he   had   given   shape    to  one   of   the  innumerable      fancies    which
  possessed his brain。 No one had ever taught him anything; colours he had
  no means to buy; he had gone without bread many a time to procure even
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  the few rude vehicles that he had here; and it was only in black or white
  that   he   could   fashion   the   things   he   saw。 This   great   figure   which   he   had
  drawn here in chalk was only an old man sitting on a fallen treeonly that。
  He had seen old Michel; the woodman; sitting so at evening many a time。
  He had never had a soul to tell him of outline or perspective; of anatomy
  or of shadow; and yet he had given all the weary; worn…out age; all the sad;
  quiet patience; all the rugged; care…worn pathos of his original; and given
  them so that the old; lonely figure was a poem; sitting there meditative and
  alone; on the dead tree; with the darkness of the descending night behind
  him。
  It was rude; of course; in a way; and had many faults; no doubt; and
  yet   it   was   real;   true   in   nature;   true   in   art;   and   very   mournful;   and   in   a
  manner beautiful。
  Patrasche had lain quiet countless hours watching its gradual creation
  after the labor of each day was done; and he knew that Nello had a hope
  vain    and   wild    perhaps;    but   strongly   cherishedof      sending    this  great
  drawing to compete for a prize of two hundred francs a year which it was
  announced   in Antwerp   would   be   open   to   every   lad   of   talent;   scholar   or
  peasant; under eighteen; who would attempt to win it with some unaided
  work   of   chalk   or   pencil。   Three   of   the   foremost   artists   in   the   town   of
  Rubens were to be the judges and elect the victor according to his merits。
  All the spring and summer and autumn Nello had been at work upon
  this treasure;  which   if triumphant;  would   build   him  his   first   step   toward
  independence and the myster