第 15 节
作者:卡车      更新:2021-02-21 10:46      字数:9322
  Slinn; slowly; gazing at the fire。
  〃No;〃 said Mulrady; dubiously。  After a pause he began more
  vivaciously; and as if to shake off some disagreeable thought that
  was impressing him; 〃But I mustn't forget to give you YOUR
  Christmas; old man; and I've got it right here with me。〃  He took
  the folded envelope from his pocket; and; holding it in his hand
  with his elbow on the table; continued; 〃I don't mind telling you
  what idea I had in giving you what I'm goin' to give you now。  I've
  been thinking about it for a day or two。  A man like you don't want
  moneyyou wouldn't spend it。  A man like you don't want stocks or
  fancy investments; for you couldn't look after them。  A man like
  you don't want diamonds and jewellery; nor a gold…headed cane; when
  it's got to be used as a crutch。  No; sir。  What you want is
  suthin' that won't run away from you; that is always there before
  you and won't wear out; and will last after you're gone。  That's
  land!  And if it wasn't that I have sworn never to sell or give
  away this house and that garden; if it wasn't that I've held out
  agin the old woman and Mamie on that point; you should have THIS
  house and THAT garden。  But; mebbee; for the same reason that I've
  told you; I want that land to keep for myself。  But I've selected
  four acres of the hill this side of my shaft; and here's the deed
  of it。  As soon as you're ready; I'll put you up a house as big as
  thisthat shall be yours; with the land; as long as you live; old
  man; and after that your children's。〃
  〃No; not theirs!〃 broke in the old man; passionately。  〃Never!〃
  Mulrady recoiled for an instant in alarm at the sudden and
  unexpected vehemence of his manner; 〃Go slow; old man; go slow;〃 he
  said; soothingly。  〃Of course; you'll do with your own as you
  like。〃  Then; as if changing the subject; he went on cheerfully:
  〃Perhaps you'll wonder why I picked out that spot on the hillside。
  Well; first; because I reserved it after my strike in case the lead
  should run that way; but it didn't。  Next; because when you first
  came here you seemed to like the prospect。  You used to sit there
  looking at it; as if it reminded you of something。  You never said
  it did。  They say you was sitting on that boulder there when you
  had that last attack; you know; but;〃 he added; gently; 〃you've
  forgotten all about it。〃
  〃I have forgotten nothing;〃 said Slinn; rising; with a choking
  voice。  〃I wish to God I had; I wish to God I could!〃
  He was on his feet now; supporting himself by the table。  The
  subtle generous liquor he had drunk had evidently shaken his self…
  control; and burst those voluntary bonds he had put upon himself
  for the last six months; the insidious stimulant had also put a
  strange vigor into his blood and nerves。  His face was flushed; but
  not distorted; his eyes were brilliant; but not fixed; he looked as
  he might have looked to Masters in his strength three years before
  on that very hillside。
  〃Listen to me; Alvin Mulrady;〃 he said; leaning over him with
  burning eyes。  〃Listen; while I have brain to think and strength to
  utter; why I have learnt to distrust; fear; and hate them!  You
  think you know my story。  Well; hear the truth from ME to…night;
  Alvin Mulrady; and do not wonder if I have cause。〃
  He stopped; and; with pathetic inefficiency; passed the fingers and
  inward…turned thumb of his paralyzed hand across his mouth; as if
  to calm himself。  〃Three years ago I was a miner; but not a miner
  like you!  I had experience; I had scientific knowledge; I had a
  theory; and the patience and energy to carry it out。  I selected a
  spot that had all the indications; made a tunnel; and; without aid;
  counsel or assistance of any kind; worked it for six months;
  without rest or cessation; and with scarcely food enough to sustain
  my body。  Well; I made a strike; not like you; Mulrady; not a
  blunder of good luck; a fool's fortunethere; I don't blame you
  for itbut in perfect demonstration of my theory; the reward of my
  labor。  It was no pocket; but a vein; a lead; that I had regularly
  hunted down and founda fortune!
  〃I never knew how hard I had worked until that morning; I never
  knew what privations I had undergone until that moment of my
  success; when I found I could scarcely think or move!  I staggered
  out into the open air。  The only human soul near me was a
  disappointed prospector; a man named Masters; who had a tunnel not
  far away。  I managed to conceal from him my good fortune and my
  feeble state; for I was suspicious of himof any one; and as he
  was going away that day I thought I could keep my secret until he
  was gone。  I was dizzy and confused; but I remember that I managed
  to write a letter to my wife; telling her of my good fortune; and
  begging her to come to me; and I remember that I saw Masters go。  I
  don't remember anything else。  They picked me up on the road; near
  that boulder; as you know。〃
  〃I know;〃 said Mulrady; with a swift recollection of the stage…
  driver's account of his discovery。
  〃They say;〃 continued Slinn; tremblingly; 〃that I never recovered
  my senses or consciousness for nearly three years; they say I lost
  my memory completely during my illness; and that by God's mercy;
  while I lay in that hospital; I knew no more than a babe; they say;
  because I could not speak or move; and only had my food as nature
  required it; that I was an imbecile; and that I never really came
  to my senses until after my son found me in the hospital。  They SAY
  thatbut I tell you to…night; Alvin Mulrady;〃 he said; raising his
  voice to a hoarse outcry; 〃I tell you that it is a lie!  I came to
  my senses a week after I lay on that hospital cot; I kept my senses
  and memory ever after during the three years that I was there;
  until Harry brought his cold; hypocritical face to my bedside and
  recognized me。  Do you understand?  I; the possessor of millions;
  lay there a pauper。  Deserted by wife and childrena spectacle for
  the curious; a sport for the doctorsAND I KNEW IT!  I heard them
  speculate on the cause of my helplessness。  I heard them talk of
  excesses and indulgencesI; that never knew wine or woman!  I
  heard a preacher speak of the finger of God; and point to me。  May
  God curse him!〃
  〃Go slow; old man; go slow;〃 said Mulrady; gently。
  〃I heard them speak of me as a friendless man; an outcast; a
  criminala being whom no one would claim。  They were right; no one
  claimed me。  The friends of others visited them; relations came and
  took away their kindred; a few lucky ones got well; a few; equally
  lucky; died!  I alone lived on; uncared for; deserted。
  〃The first year;〃 he went on more rapidly; 〃I prayed for their
  coming。  I looked for them every day。  I never lost hope。  I said
  to myself; 'She has not got my letter; but when the time passes she
  will be alarmed by my silence; and then she will come or send some
  one to seek me。'  A young student got interested in my case; and;
  by studying my eyes; thought that I was not entirely imbecile and
  unconscious。  With the aid of an alphabet; he got me to spell my
  name and town in Illinois; and promised by signs to write to my
  family。  But in an evil moment I told him of my cursed fortune; and
  in that moment I saw that he thought me a fool and an idiot。  He
  went away; and I saw him no more。  Yet I still hoped。  I dreamed of
  their joy at finding me; and the reward that my wealth would give
  them。  Perhaps I was a little weak still; perhaps a little flighty;
  too; at times; but I was quite happy that year; even in my
  disappointment; for I had still hope!〃
  He paused; and again composed his face with his paralyzed hand; but
  his manner had become less excited; and his voice was stronger。
  〃A change must have come over me the second year; for I only
  dreaded their coming now and finding me so altered。  A horrible
  idea that they might; like the student; believe me crazy if I spoke
  of my fortune made me pray to God that they might not reach me
  until after I had regained my health and strengthand found my
  fortune。  When the third year found me still thereI no longer
  prayed for themI cursed them!  I swore to myself that they should
  never enjoy my wealth; but I wanted to live; and let them know I
  had it。  I found myself getting stronger; but as I had no money; no
  friends; and nowhere to go; I concealed my real condition from the
  doctors; except to give them my name; and to try to get some little
  work to do to enable me to leave the hospital and seek my lost
  treasure。  One day I found out by accident that it had been
  discovered!  You understandmy treasure!that had cost me years
  of labor and my reason; had left me a helpless; forgotten pauper。
  That gold I had never enjoyed had been found and taken possession
  of by another!〃
  He checked an exclamation from Mulrady with his hand。  〃They say
  they picked me up senseless from the floor; where I must have
  fallen when I heard the newsI don't rememberI recall nothing
  until I was confronted; nearly three weeks after; by my son; who
  had called at the hospital; as a reporter for a paper; and had
  accidentally discovered me through my name and appearance。  He
  thought me crazy; or a fool。  I didn't undeceive him。  I did not
  tell him the story of the mine to excit