第 4 节
作者:雨来不躲      更新:2021-02-20 18:26      字数:4837
  How do you know that?  Is this the nature of conversation in that
  house on Beretania Street which the cabman envied; driving past? …
  racy details of the misconduct of the poor peasant priest; toiling
  under the cliffs of Molokai?
  Many have visited the station before me; they seem not to have
  heard the rumour。  When I was there I heard many shocking tales;
  for my informants were men speaking with the plainness of the
  laity; and I heard plenty of complaints of Damien。  Why was this
  never mentioned? and how came it to you in the retirement of your
  clerical parlour?
  But I must not even seem to deceive you。  This scandal; when I read
  it in your letter; was not new to me。  I had heard it once before;
  and I must tell you how。  There came to Samoa a man from Honolulu;
  he; in a public…house on the beach; volunteered the statement that
  Damien had 〃contracted the disease from having connection with the
  female lepers〃; and I find a joy in telling you how the report was
  welcomed in a public…house。  A man sprang to his feet; I am not at
  liberty to give his name; but from what I heard I doubt if you
  would care to have him to dinner in Beretania Street。  〃You
  miserable little …〃 (here is a word I dare not print; it
  would so shock your ears)。  〃You miserable little ;〃 he
  cried; 〃if the story were a thousand times true; can't you see you
  are a million times a lower … for daring to repeat it?〃  I wish
  it could be told of you that when the report reached you in your
  house; perhaps after family worship; you had found in your soul
  enough holy anger to receive it with the same expressions; ay; even
  with that one which I dare not print; it would not need to have
  been blotted away; like Uncle Toby's oath; by the tears of the
  recording angel; it would have been counted to you for your
  brightest righteousness。  But you have deliberately chosen the part
  of the man from Honolulu; and you have played it with improvements
  of your own。  The man from Honolulu … miserable; leering creature …
  communicated the tale to a rude knot of beach…combing drinkers in a
  public…house; where (I will so far agree with your temperance
  opinions) man is not always at his noblest; and the man from
  Honolulu had himself been drinking … drinking; we may charitably
  fancy; to excess。  It was to your 〃Dear Brother; the Reverend H。 B。
  Gage;〃 that you chose to communicate the sickening story; and the
  blue ribbon which adorns your portly bosom forbids me to allow you
  the extenuating plea that you were drunk when it was done。  Your
  〃dear brother〃 … a brother indeed … made haste to deliver up your
  letter (as a means of grace; perhaps) to the religious papers;
  where; after many months; I found and read and wondered at it; and
  whence I have now reproduced it for the wonder of others。  And you
  and your dear brother have; by this cycle of operations; built up a
  contrast very edifying to examine in detail。  The man whom you
  would not care to have to dinner; on the one side; on the other;
  the Reverend Dr。 Hyde and the Reverend H。 B。 Gage: the Apia bar…
  room; the Honolulu manse。
  But I fear you scarce appreciate how you appear to your fellow…men;
  and to bring it home to you; I will suppose your story to be true。
  I will suppose … and God forgive me for supposing it … that Damien
  faltered and stumbled in his narrow path of duty; I will suppose
  that; in the horror of his isolation; perhaps in the fever of
  incipient disease; he; who was doing so much more than he had
  sworn; failed in the letter of his priestly oath … he; who was so
  much a better man than either you or me; who did what we have never
  dreamed of daring … he too tasted of our common frailty。  〃O; Iago;
  the pity of it!〃  The least tender should be moved to tears; the
  most incredulous to prayer。  And all that you could do was to pen
  your letter to the Reverend H。 B。 Gage!
  Is it growing at all clear to you what a picture you have drawn of
  your own heart?  I will try yet once again to make it clearer。  You
  had a father: suppose this tale were about him; and some informant
  brought it to you; proof in hand: I am not making too high an
  estimate of your emotional nature when I suppose you would regret
  the circumstance? that you would feel the tale of frailty the more
  keenly since it shamed the author of your days? and that the last
  thing you would do would be to publish it in the religious press?
  Well; the man who tried to do what Damien did; is my father; and
  the father of the man in the Apia bar; and the father of all who
  love goodness; and he was your father too; if God had given you
  grace to see it。
  End