第 2 节
作者:雨来不躲      更新:2021-02-20 18:26      字数:9322
  that high rivalry; and sat inglorious in the midst of your well…
  being; in your pleasant room … and Damien; crowned with glories and
  horrors; toiled and rotted in that pigsty of his under the cliffs
  of Kalawao … you; the elect who would not; were the last man on
  earth to collect and propagate gossip on the volunteer who would
  and did。
  I think I see you … for I try to see you in the flesh as I write
  these sentences … I think I see you leap at the word pigsty; a
  hyperbolical expression at the best。  〃He had no hand in the
  reforms;〃 he was 〃a coarse; dirty man〃; these were your own words;
  and you may think it possible that I am come to support you with
  fresh evidence。  In a sense; it is even so。  Damien has been too
  much depicted with a conventional halo and conventional features;
  so drawn by men who perhaps had not the eye to remark or the pen to
  express the individual; or who perhaps were only blinded and
  silenced by generous admiration; such as I partly envy for myself …
  such as you; if your soul were enlightened; would envy on your
  bended knees。  It is the least defect of such a method of
  portraiture that it makes the path easy for the devil's advocate;
  and leaves the misuse of the slanderer a considerable field of
  truth。  For the truth that is suppressed by friends is the readiest
  weapon of the enemy。  The world; in your despite; may perhaps owe
  you something; if your letter be the means of substituting once for
  all a credible likeness for a wax abstraction。  For; if that world
  at all remember you; on the day when Damien of Molokai shall be
  named a Saint; it will be in virtue of one work: your letter to the
  Reverend H。 B。 Gage。
  You may ask on what authority I speak。  It was my inclement destiny
  to become acquainted; not with Damien; but with Dr。 Hyde。  When I
  visited the lazaretto; Damien was already in his resting grave。
  But such information as I have; I gathered on the spot in
  conversation with those who knew him well and long: some indeed who
  revered his memory; but others who had sparred and wrangled with
  him; who beheld him with no halo; who perhaps regarded him with
  small respect; and through whose unprepared and scarcely partial
  communications the plain; human features of the man shone on me
  convincingly。  These gave me what knowledge I possess; and I learnt
  it in that scene where it could be most completely and sensitively
  understood … Kalawao; which you have never visited; about which you
  have never so much as endeavoured to inform yourself; for; brief as
  your letter is; you have found the means to stumble into that
  confession。  〃LESS THAN ONE…HALF of the island;〃 you say; 〃is
  devoted to the lepers。〃  Molokai … 〃MOLOKAI AHINA;〃 the 〃grey;〃
  lofty; and most desolate island … along all its northern side
  plunges a front of precipice into a sea of unusual profundity。
  This range of cliff is; from east to west; the true end and
  frontier of the island。  Only in one spot there projects into the
  ocean a certain triangular and rugged down; grassy; stony; windy;
  and rising in the midst into a hill with a dead crater: the whole
  bearing to the cliff that overhangs it somewhat the same relation
  as a bracket to a wall。  With this hint you will now be able to
  pick out the leper station on a map; you will be able to judge how
  much of Molokai is thus cut off between the surf and precipice;
  whether less than a half; or less than a quarter; or a fifth; or a
  tenth … or; say a twentieth; and the next time you burst into print
  you will be in a position to share with us the issue of your
  calculations。
  I imagine you to be one of those persons who talk with cheerfulness
  of that place which oxen and wain…ropes could not drag you to
  behold。  You; who do not even know its situation on the map;
  probably denounce sensational descriptions; stretching your limbs
  the while in your pleasant parlour on Beretania Street。  When I was
  pulled ashore there one early morning; there sat with me in the
  boat two sisters; bidding farewell (in humble imitation of Damien)
  to the lights and joys of human life。  One of these wept silently;
  I could not withhold myself from joining her。  Had you been there;
  it is my belief that nature would have triumphed even in you; and
  as the boat drew but a little nearer; and you beheld the stairs
  crowded with abominable deformations of our common manhood; and saw
  yourself landing in the midst of such a population as only now and
  then surrounds us in the horror of a nightmare … what a haggard eye
  you would have rolled over your reluctant shoulder towards the
  house on Beretania Street!  Had you gone on; had you found every
  fourth face a blot upon the landscape; had you visited the hospital
  and seen the butt…ends of human beings lying there almost
  unrecognisable; but still breathing; still thinking; still
  remembering; you would have understood that life in the lazaretto
  is an ordeal from which the nerves of a man's spirit shrink; even
  as his eye quails under the brightness of the sun; you would have
  felt it was (even today) a pitiful place to visit and a hell to
  dwell in。  It is not the fear of possible infection。  That seems a
  little thing when compared with the pain; the pity; and the disgust
  of the visitor's surroundings; and the atmosphere of affliction;
  disease; and physical disgrace in which he breathes。  I do not
  think I am a man more than usually timid; but I never recall the
  days and nights I spent upon that island promontory (eight days and
  seven nights); without heartfelt thankfulness that I am somewhere
  else。  I find in my diary that I speak of my stay as a 〃grinding
  experience〃: I have once jotted in the margin; 〃HARROWING is the
  word〃; and when the MOKOLII bore me at last towards the outer
  world; I kept repeating to myself; with a new conception of their
  pregnancy; those simple words of the song …
  〃 'Tis the most distressful country that ever yet was seen。〃
  And observe: that which I saw and suffered from was a settlement
  purged; bettered; beautified; the new village built; the hospital
  and the Bishop…Home excellently arranged; the sisters; the poctor;
  and the missionaries; all indefatigable in their noble tasks。  It
  was a different place when Damien came there and made this great
  renunciation; and slept that first night under a tree amidst his
  rotting brethren: alone with pestilence; and looking forward (with
  what courage; with what pitiful sinkings of dread; God only knows)
  to a lifetime of dressing sores and stumps。
  You will say; perhaps; I am too sensitive; that sights as painful
  abound in cancer hospitals and are confronted daily by doctors and
  nurses。  I have long learned to admire and envy the doctors and the
  nurses。  But there is no cancer hospital so large and populous as
  Kalawao and Kalaupapa; and in such a matter every fresh case; like
  every inch of length in the pipe of an organ; deepens the note of
  the impression; for what daunts the onlooker is that monstrous sum
  of human suffering by which he stands surrounded。  Lastly; no
  doctor or nurse is called upon to enter once for all the doors of
  that gehenna; they do not say farewell; they need not abandon hope;
  on its sad threshold; they but go for a time to their high calling;
  and can look forward as they go to relief; to recreation; and to
  rest。  But Damien shut…to with his own hand the doors of his own
  sepulchre。
  I shall now extract three passages from my diary at Kalawao。
  A。  〃Damien is dead and already somewhat ungratefully remembered in
  the field of his labours and sufferings。  'He was a good man; but
  very officious;' says one。  Another tells me he had fallen (as
  other priests so easily do) into something of the ways and habits
  of thought of a Kanaka; but he had the wit to recognise the fact;
  and the good sense to laugh at〃 'over' 〃it。  A plain man it seems
  he was; I cannot find he was a popular。〃
  B。  〃After Ragsdale's death〃 'Ragsdale was a famous Luna; or
  overseer; of the unruly settlement' 〃there followed a brief term of
  office by Father Damien which served only to publish the weakness
  of that noble man。  He was rough in his ways; and he had no
  control。  Authority was relaxed; Damien's life was threatened; and
  he was soon eager to resign。〃
  C。  〃Of Damien I begin to have an idea。  He seems to have been a
  man of the peasant class; certainly of the peasant type: shrewd;
  ignorant and bigoted; yet with an open mind; and capable of
  receiving and digesting a reproof if it were bluntly administered;
  superbly generous in the least thing as well as in the greatest;
  and as ready to give his last shirt (although not without human
  grumbling) as he had been to sacrifice his life; essentially
  indiscreet and officious; which made him a troublesome colleague;
  domineering in all his ways; which made him incurably unpopular
  with the Kanakas; but yet destitute of real authority; so that his
  boys laughed at him and he must carry out