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作者:点绛唇      更新:2021-02-20 16:44      字数:9322
  chewing      tobacco     with   unspeakable      valor;   tremendous      bodies    of  fierce
  soldiery     who    were    sweeping      along   like   the  Huns。     Others     spoke    of
  tattered     and   eternally     hungry     men    who     fired   despondent      powders。
  〃They'll charge through hell's fire an' brimstone t' git a holt on a haversack;
  an' sech stomachs ain't a…lastin' long;〃 he was told。               From the stories; the
  youth imagined the red; live bones sticking out through slits in the faded
  uniforms。
  Still;   he   could   not   put   a   whole   faith   in   veter…   ans'   tales;   for   recruits
  were   their   prey。    They   talked   much   of   smoke;   fire;   and   blood;   but   he
  could not tell how much might be lies。                They persistently yelled 〃Fresh
  fish!〃 at him; and were in no wise to be trusted。
  However; he perceived now that it did not greatly matter what kind of
  soldiers he was going to fight; so long as they fought; which fact no one
  disputed。      There     was    a  more    serious   problem。      He    lay   in  his   bunk
  pondering upon it。         He tried to mathematically prove to himself that he
  would not run from a battle。
  Previously he had never felt obliged to wrestle too seriously with this
  question。      In   his   life  he  had    taken   certain   things    for  granted;    never
  challeng…   ing   his   belief   in   ultimate   success;   and   bothering   little   about
  means and roads。         But here he was confronted with a thing of moment。
  It had sud… denly appeared to him that perhaps in a battle he might run。
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  He was forced to admit that as far as war was concerned he knew nothing
  of himself。
  A sufficient time before he would have allowed the problem to kick its
  heels at the outer portals of his mind; but now he felt compelled to give
  serious attention to it。
  A little panic…fear grew in his mind。            As his imagination went forward
  to   a   fight;   he   saw   hide…   ous   possibilities。 He   contemplated   the   lurking
  menaces   of   the   future;   and   failed   in   an   effort   to   see   himself   standing
  stoutly   in   the   midst   of   them。   He   recalled   his   visions   of   broken…bladed
  glory; but in the shadow of the impending tumult he suspected them to be
  impossible pictures。
  He   sprang   from   the   bunk   and   began   to   pace   nervously   to   and   fro。
  〃Good Lord; what's th' matter with me?〃 he said aloud。
  He felt that in this crisis his laws of life were useless。                Whatever he
  had    learned    of   himself    was    here   of   no  avail。    He    was    an   unknown
  quantity。 He saw that he would again be obliged to experi… ment as he had
  in   early    youth。    He     must    accumu…      late  information      of   himself;    and
  meanwhile he re… solved to remain close upon his guard lest those qualities
  of   which   he   knew   nothing   should   ever…   lastingly   disgrace   him。        〃Good
  Lord!〃 he re… peated in dismay。
  After  a   time   the   tall   soldier  slid   dexterously  through the   hole。       The
  loud private followed。 They were wrangling。
  〃That's   all   right;〃   said   the   tall   soldier   as   he   entered。 He   waved   his
  hand expressively。         〃You can believe me or not; jest as you like。              All you
  got to do is to sit down and wait as quiet as you can。                    Then pretty soon
  you'll find out I was right。〃
  His   comrade   grunted   stubbornly。         For   a   mo…   ment   he   seemed   to   be
  searching for a formidable reply。             Finally he said: 〃Well; you don't know
  everything in the world; do you?〃
  〃Didn't say I knew everything in the world;〃 retorted the other sharply。
  He began to stow various articles snugly into his knapsack。
  The   youth;   pausing   in   his   nervous   walk;   looked   down   at   the   busy
  figure。     〃Going to be a battle; sure; is there; Jim?〃 he asked。
  〃Of course there is;〃 replied the tall soldier。 〃Of course there is。                  You
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  jest wait 'til to…morrow; and you'll see one of the biggest battles ever was。
  You jest wait。〃
  〃Thunder!der!〃 said the youth。
  〃Oh; you'll see fighting this time; my boy; what'll be regular out…and…
  out fighting;〃 added the tall soldier; with the air of a man who is about to
  exhibit a battle for the benefit of his friends。
  〃Huh!〃 said the loud one from a corner。
  〃Well;〃 remarked the youth; 〃like as not this story'll turn out jest like
  them others did。〃
  〃Not much it won't;〃 replied the tall soldier; exasperated。                   〃Not much
  it won't。     Didn't the cavalry all start this morning?〃              He glared about him。
  No   one   denied   his   statement。       〃The   cav…   alry   started   this   morning;〃   he
  continued。       〃They say there ain't hardly any cavalry left in camp。 They're
  going to Richmond; or some place; while we fight all the Johnnies。                            It's
  some dodge like that。          The regiment's got orders; too。            A feller what seen
  'em   go   to   headquarters   told   me   a   little   while   ago。    And   they're   raising
  blazes all over campanybody can see that。〃
  〃Shucks!〃 said the loud one。
  The   youth   remained   silent   for   a   time。      At   last   he   spoke   to   the   tall
  soldier。     〃Jim!〃
  〃What?〃
  〃How do you think the reg'ment 'll do?〃
  〃Oh; they'll fight all right; I guess; after they once get into it;〃 said the
  other   with   cold   judg…   ment。       He   made   a   fine   use   of   the   third   person。
  〃There's been heaps of fun poked at 'em because they're new; of course;
  and all that; but they'll fight all right; I guess。〃
  〃Think any of the boys 'll run?〃 persisted the youth。
  〃Oh;   there   may   be   a   few   of   'em   run;   but   there's   them   kind   in   every
  regiment;   'specially  when   they  first   goes   under   fire;〃   said   the   other   in   a
  tolerant   way。      〃Of   course   it   might   happen   that   the   hull   kit…and…boodle
  might   start   and   run;   if   some   big   fighting   came   first…off;   and   then   again
  they   might   stay   and   fight   like   fun。    But   you   can't   bet   on   nothing。    Of
  course they ain't never been under fire yet; and it ain't likely they'll lick the
  hull   rebel   army  all…to…oncet   the   first   time;   but   I think   they'll   fight   better
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  than some; if worse than others。             That's the way I figger。          They call the
  reg'ment 'Fresh fish' and everything; but the boys come of good stock; and
  most of 'em 'll fight like sin after they oncet git shootin';〃 he added; with a
  mighty emphasis on the last four words。
  〃Oh; you think you know〃 began the loud soldier with scorn。
  The other turned savagely upon him。                They had a rapid altercation; in
  which they fastened upon each other various strange epithets。
  The   youth   at   last   interrupted   them。     〃Did   you   ever   think   you   might
  run yourself; Jim?〃 he asked。            On concluding the sentence he laughed as
  if he had meant to aim a joke。           The loud sol… dier also giggled。
  The   tall   private   waved   his   hand。     〃Well;〃   said   he   profoundly;   〃I've
  thought it might get too hot for Jim Conklin in some of them scrimmages;
  and if a whole lot of boys started and run; why; I s'pose I'd start and run。
  And if I once started to run; I'd run like the devil; and no mistake。                   But if
  everybody   was   a…standing   and   a…fighting;   why;   I'd   stand   and   fight。        Be
  jiminey; I would。        I'll bet on it。〃
  〃Huh!〃 said the loud one。
  The   youth   of   this   tale   felt   gratitude   for   these   words   of   his   comrade。
  He   had   feared   that   all   of   the   untried   men   possessed   a   great   and   correct
  confidence。       He now was in a measure reassured。
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  CHAPTER II。
  THE   next   morning   the   youth   discovered   that   his   tall   comrade   had
  been the fast…flying messen… ger of a mistake。              There was much scoffing
  at the latter by those who had yesterday been