第 15 节
作者:浮游云中      更新:2021-02-20 16:27      字数:9322
  other folks。〃
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  She felt it her duty to be open and confiding with him in return; and in
  order not to seem ungenerous; or rather to put them on an equal footing by
  giving him also a peep into her heart; she told him about her daily work;
  about the merry parties at her father's house; and about the lusty lads who
  gathered   in   their   halls   to   dance   the   Halling   and   the   spring…dance。   He
  listened   attentively   while   she   spoke;   gazing   earnestly   into   her   face;   but
  never     interrupting    her。   In   his   turn  he   described    to   her  in  his   slow
  deliberate way; how his father constantly scolded him because he was not
  bright; and did not care for politics and newspapers; and how his mother
  wounded him with her sharp tongue by making merry with him; even in
  the presence of the servants and strangers。              He did not seem to imagine
  that there was anything wrong in what he said; or that he placed himself in
  a ludicrous light; nor did he seem to speak from any unmanly craving for
  sympathy。       His manner was so simple and straightforward that what Brita
  probably would have found strange in another; she found perfectly natural
  in him。
  It was nearly midnight when they parted{。} She hardly slept at all that
  night; and she was half vexed with herself for the interest she took in this
  simple youth。       The next morning her father came up to pay her a visit and
  to   see   how   the   flocks   were   thriving。   She   understood   that   it   would   be
  dangerous to say anything to him about Halvard; for she knew his temper
  and   feared   the   result;   if   he   should   ever   discover   her   secret。 Therefore;
  she shunned an opportunity to talk with him; and only busied herself the
  more with the cattle and the cooking。            Bjarne soon noticed her distraction;
  but;   of   course;   never   suspected   the   cause。   Before   he   left   her;   he   asked
  her if she did not find it too lonely on the saeter; and if it would not be
  well if he sent her one of the   maids for a   companion。               She hastened to
  assure him that that was quite unnecessary; the cattle…boy who was there
  to   help   her   was   all   the   company   she   wanted。   Toward   evening;   Bjarne
  Blakstad loaded his horses with buckets; filled with cheese and butter; and
  started for the valley。      Brita stood long looking after him as he descended
  the   rocky  slope;   and   she   could   hardly  conceal   from  herself   that   she   felt
  relieved; when; at last; the forest hid him from her sight。              All day she had
  been   walking   about   with   a   heavy   heart;   there   seemed   to   be   something
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  weighing   on   her   breast;   and   she   could   not   throw   it   off。 Who   was   this
  who had come between her and her father?                  Had she ever been afraid of
  him     before;   had    she   been   glad   to   have   him    leave    her?    A   sudden
  bitterness took possession of her; for in her distress; she gave Halvard the
  blame   for   all   that   had   happened。   She   threw   herself   down   on   the   grass
  and   burst   into   a   passionate   fit   of   weeping;   she   was   guilty;   wretchedly
  miserable; and all for the sake of one whom she had hardly known for two
  days。     If he should come in this moment; she would tell him what he had
  done toward her; and her wish must have been heard; for as she raised her
  eyes; he stood there at her side; the sad feature about his mouth and his
  great honest eyes gazing wonderingly at her。                 She felt her purpose melt
  within   her;   he   looked   so   good   and   so   unhappy。     Then   again   came   the
  thought   of   her   father   and   of   her   own   wrong;   and   the   bitterness   again
  revived。
  〃Go away;〃 cried she; in a voice half reluctantly tender and half defiant。
  〃Go away; I say; I don't want to see you any more。〃
  〃I will go to the end of the world if you wish it;〃 he answered; with a
  strange firmness。
  He   picked   up   his   jacket   which   he   had   dropped   on   the   ground;   then
  turned slowly; gave her mother long look; an infinitely sad and hopeless
  one;   and   went。     Her   bosom   heaved   violently   remorse;   affection   and
  filial duty wrestled desperately in her heart。
  〃No; no;〃 she cried; 〃why do you go?               I did not mean it so。         I only
  wanted〃
  He paused and returned as deliberately as he had gone。
  Why should I dwell upon the days that followed how her heart grew
  ever   more   restless;   how   she   would   suddenly   wake   up   at   nights   and   see
  those    large   blue   eyes    sadly   gazing    at  her;   how    by   turns   she  would
  condemn herself and him; and how she felt with bitter pain that she was
  growing away from those who had hitherto been nearest and dearest to her。
  And strange to say; this very isolation from her father made her cling only
  the    more    desperately     to   him。    It   seemed      to  her   as   if  Bjarne    had
  deliberately thrown her off; that she herself had been the one who took the
  first step had hardly occurred to her。            Alas; her grief was as irrational as
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  her love。     By what strange devious process of reasoning these convictions
  became settled in her mind; it is difficult to tell。           It is sufficient to know
  that she was a woman and that she loved。              She even knew herself that she
  was irrational; and this very sense drew her more hopelessly into the maze
  of the labyrinth from which she saw no escape。
  His   visits   were as   regular   as   those   of the   sun。 She   knew   that   there
  was only a word of hers needed to banish him from her presence forever。
  And   how   many   times   did   she   not   resolve   to   speak   that   word?  But   the
  word was never spoken。           At times a company of the lads from the valley
  would come to spend a merry evening at the saeter; but she heeded them
  not;   and   they   soon   disappeared。     Thus   the   summer   went   amid   passing
  moods   of   joy   and   sorrow。    She   had   long   known   that   he   loved   her;   and
  when at last his slow confession came; it added nothing to her happiness;
  it only increased her fears for the future。           They laid many plans together
  in   those   days;   but   winter   came   as   a   surprise   to   both;   the   cattle   were
  removed from the mountains; and they were again separated。
  Bjarne Blakstad looked long and wistfully at his daughter that morning;
  when he came to bring her home。             She wore no more rings and brooches;
  and it was this which excited Bjarne's suspicion that everything was not
  right with her。      Formerly he was displeased because she wore too many;
  now he grumbled because she wore none。
  II。
  The winter was half gone; and in all this time Brita had hardly once
  seen   Halvard。      Yes;   once;it   was   Christmas…day;she   had   ventured   to
  peep over to his pew in the church; and had seen him; sitting at his father's
  side; and gazing vacantly out into the empty space; but as he had caught
  her   glance;   he   had   blushed;   and   began   eagerly   to   turn   the   leaves   of   his
  hymn… book。        It troubled her that he made no effort to see her; many an
  evening she had walked alone down at the river…side; hoping that he might
  come;   but   it   was   all   in   vain。 She   could   not   but   believe   that   his   father
  must have made some discovery; and that he was watched。                     In the mean
  time the black cloud thickened over her head; for a secret gnawed at the
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  very roots of her heart。         It was a time of terrible suspense and suffering
  such as a man never knows; such as only a woman can endure。                              It was
  almost     a   relief  when     the   cloud    burst;   and   the   storm    broke    loose;   as
  presently it did。
  One   Sunday;   early   in April;   Bjarne   did   not   return   at   the   usual   hour
  from church。        His daughters waited in vain for him with the dinner; and
  at last began to grow uneasy。            It was not his habit to keep irregular hours。
  There   was   a   great   excitement   i