第 7 节
作者:浮游云中      更新:2021-02-20 16:27      字数:9318
  effort to escape is apt to frustrate itself and again reveal the imminent peril。
  Thus he too 〃kicked against the pricks;〃 hoped; feared; rebelled against his
  destiny; and again; from sheer weariness; relapsed into a dull; benumbed
  apathy。     In   spite   of   her   friendly   sympathy;   he   never   felt   so   keenly   his
  alienism   as   in   her   presence。    She   accepted   the   spontaneous   homage   he
  paid her; sometimes with impatience; as something that was really beneath
  her notice; at other times she frankly recognized it; bantered him with his
  〃Old     World     chivalry;〃    which    would     soon    evaporate     in  the   practical
  American   atmosphere;   and   called   him   her   Viking;   her   knight   and   her
  faithful squire。      But it never occurred to her to regard his devotion in a
  serious light; and to look upon him as a possible lover had evidently never
  entered     her   head。    As    their   intercourse    grew    more     intimate;   he   had
  volunteered       to  read    his  favorite    poets    with   her;   and   had    gradually
  succeeded in imparting to her something of his own passionate liking for
  Heine   and   Bjrnson。         She   had   in   return   called   his   attention   to   the
  works of American authors who had hitherto been little more than names
  to him; and they had thus managed to be of mutual benefit to each other;
  and to   spend many  a pleasant hour during the long   winter afternoons in
  each other's   company。         But   Edith   had   a   very  keen   sense   of   humor;   and
  could hardly  restrain   her secret   amusement   when she   heard him  reading
  Longfellow's 〃Psalm of Life〃 and Poe's 〃Raven〃 (which had been familiar
  to her from her babyhood); often with false accent; but always with intense
  enthusiasm。       The reflection that he had had no part of his life in common
  with her;that he did not love the things which she loved;could not share
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  her prejudices (and women have a feeling akin to contempt for a man who
  does     not   respond    to   their  prejudices)removed         him    at  times    almost
  beyond the reach of her sympathy。              It was interesting enough as long as
  the   experience   was   novel;   to   be   thus   unconsciously   exploring         another
  person's mind and finding so many strange objects there; but after a while
  the thing began to assume an uncomfortably serious aspect; and then there
  seemed   to   be   something   almost   terrible   about   it。     At   such   times   a   call
  from   a   gentleman   of   her   own   nation;   even   though   he   were   one   of   the
  placidly stupid type; would be a positive relief; she could abandon herself
  to the secure sense of being at home; she need fear no surprises; and in the
  smooth shallows of their talk there were no unsuspected depths to excite
  and    to  baffle   her   ingenuity。     And;    again;    reverting    in  her  thought    to
  Halfdan;      his   conversational       brilliancy    would      almost    repel    her;   as
  something   odious   and   un…American;   the   cheap   result   of   outlandish   birth
  and unrepublican education。            Not that she had ever valued republicanism
  very   highly;   she   was   one   of   those   who   associated   politics   with   noisy
  vulgarity in speech and dress; and therefore thanked fortune that women
  were permitted to keep aloof from it。            But in the presence of this alien she
  found   herself   growing   patriotic;   that   much…discussed   abstraction;   which
  we call our country (and which is nothing but the aggregate of all the slow
  and   invisible   influences   which   go   toward   making   up   our   own   being);
  became by degrees a very palpable and intelligible fact to her。
  Frequently   while   her American   self   was   thus   loudly   asserting   itself;
  Edith inflicted many a cruel wound upon her foreign adorer。                       Once; it
  was the Fourth of July; more than a year after Halfdan's arrival; a number
  of young ladies and gentlemen; after having listened to a patriotic oration;
  were invited in to an   informal luncheon。              While waiting; they  naturally
  enough   spent   their   time   in   singing   national   songs;   and   Halfdan's   clear
  tenor did good service in keeping the straggling voices together。                     When
  they   had   finished;   Edith   went   up   to   him   and   was   quite   effusive   in   her
  expressions of gratitude。
  〃I am sure we ought all to be very grateful to you; Mr。 Birch;〃 she said;
  〃and I; for my part; can assure you that I am。〃
  〃Grateful?      Why?〃 demanded Halfdan; looking quite unhappy。
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  〃For   singing   OUR   national   songs;   of   course。      Now;   won't   you   sing
  one of your own; please?            We should all be so delighted to hear how a
  Swedishor Norwegian; is it?national song sounds。〃
  〃Yes; Mr。 Birch; DO sing a Swedish song;〃 echoed several voices。
  They; of course; did not even remotely suspect their own cruelty。                    He
  had; in his enthusiasm for the day allowed himself to forget that he was
  not made of the same clay as they were; that he was an exile and a stranger;
  and   must   ever   remain   so;   that   he   had   no   right   to   share   their   joy   in   the
  blessing   of   liberty。   Edith   had   taken   pains   to   dispel   the   happy   illusion;
  and had sent him once more whirling toward his cold native   Pole。                       His
  passion came near choking him; and; to conceal his impetuous emotion; he
  flung    himself    down     on   the  piano…stool;     and   struck   some    introductory
  chords   with   perhaps   a   little   superfluous   emphasis。       Suddenly   his   voice
  burst   out   into   the   Swedish   national   anthem;   〃Our   Land;   our   Land;   our
  Fatherland;〃 and the air shook and palpitated with strong martial melody。
  His   indignation;  his   love   and   his   misery;   imparted   strength   to  his   voice;
  and   its   occasional   tremble   in   the   PIANO   passages   was   something   more
  than an artistic intention。        He was loudly applauded as he arose; and the
  young ladies thronged about him to   ask if he 〃wouldn't please write   out
  the music for them。〃
  Thus   month   after   month   passed   by;   and   every   day   brought   its   own
  misery。     Mrs。 Van Kirk's patronizing manners; and ostentatious kindness;
  often tested his patience to the utmost。             If he was guilty of an innocent
  witticism or a little quaintness of expression; she always assumed it to be a
  mistake of terms and corrected him with an air of benign superiority。                     At
  times; of course; her corrections were legitimate; as for instance; when he
  spoke of WEARING a cane; instead of CARRYING one; but in nine cases
  out   of   ten   the   fault   lay   in   her   own   lack   of   imagination   and   not   in   his
  ignorance of English。          On such occasions Edith often took pity on him;
  defended him against her mother's criticism; and insisted that if this or that
  expression was not in common vogue; that was no reason why it should
  not   be   used;   as   it   was   perfectly  grammatical;   and;   moreover;   in   keeping
  with the spirit of the language。           And he; listening passively in admiring
  silence to her argument; thanked her even for the momentary pain because
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  it   was   followed    by   so   great   a   happiness。   For   it   was   so   sweet   to   be
  defended by Edith; to feel that he and she were standing together side by
  side against the outer world。           Could he only show her in the old heroic
  manner how much he loved her!               Would only some one that was dear to
  her die; so that he; in that breaking down of social barriers which follows a
  great calamity; might comfort her in her sorrow。               Would she then; perhaps;
  weeping; lean her wonderful head upon his breast; feeling but that he was
  a fellow…mortal; who had a heart that was loyal and true; and forgetting;
  for one brief instant; that he was a foreigner。            Then; to touch that delicate
  Elizabethan frill which wound itself so daintily about Edith's neck what
  inconceivable rapture!         But it was quite impossible。           It could never be。
  These were selfish thoughts; no doubt; but they were a lover's selfishness;
  and; as such; bore a close kinship to all that is purest