第 71 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2021-02-20 15:58      字数:9322
  dresses and hideous masks; their orgy seemed scarcely human。  I
  placed myself amongst them; and in that fearful excitement of the
  spirits which the happy never know; I was soon the most riotous
  of all。  The conversation fell on the Revolution of France; which
  had always possessed for me an absorbing fascination。  The masks
  spoke of the millennium it was to bring on earth; not as
  philosophers rejoicing in the advent of light; but as ruffians
  exulting in the annihilation of law。  I know not why it was; but
  their licentious language infected myself; and; always desirous
  to be foremost in every circle; I soon exceeded even these
  rioters in declamations on the nature of the liberty which was
  about to embrace all the families of the globe;a liberty that
  should pervade not only public legislation; but domestic life; an
  emancipation from every fetter that men had forged for
  themselves。  In the midst of this tirade one of the masks
  whispered me;
  〃'Take care。  One listens to you who seems to be a spy!'
  〃My eyes followed those of the mask; and I observed a man who
  took no part in the conversation; but whose gaze was bent upon
  me。  He was disguised like the rest; yet I found by a general
  whisper that none had observed him enter。  His silence; his
  attention; had alarmed the fears of the other revellers;they
  only excited me the more。  Rapt in my subject; I pursued it;
  insensible to the signs of those about me; and; addressing myself
  only to the silent mask who sat alone; apart from the group; I
  did not even observe that; one by one; the revellers slunk off;
  and that I and the silent listener were left alone; until;
  pausing from my heated and impetuous declamations; I said;
  〃'And you; signor;what is your view of this mighty era?
  Opinion without persecution; brotherhood without jealousy; love
  without bondage'
  〃'And life without God;' added the mask as I hesitated for new
  images。
  〃The sound of that well…known voice changed the current of my
  thought。  I sprang forward; and cried;
  〃'Imposter or Fiend; we meet at last!'
  〃The figure rose as I advanced; and; unmasking; showed the
  features of Mejnour。  His fixed eye; his majestic aspect; awed
  and repelled me。  I stood rooted to the ground。
  〃'Yes;' he said solemnly; 'we meet; and it is this meeting that I
  have sought。  How hast thou followed my admonitions!  Are these
  the scenes in which the Aspirant for the Serene Science thinks to
  escape the Ghastly Enemy?  Do the thoughts thou hast uttered
  thoughts that would strike all order from the universeexpress
  the hopes of the sage who would rise to the Harmony of the
  Eternal Spheres?'
  〃'It is thy fault;it is thine!' I exclaimed。  'Exorcise the
  phantom!  Take the haunting terror from my soul!'
  Mejnour looked at me a moment with a cold and cynical disdain
  which provoked at once my fear and rage; and replied;
  〃'No; fool of thine own senses!  No; thou must have full and
  entire experience of the illusions to which the Knowledge that is
  without Faith climbs its Titan way。  Thou pantest for this
  Millennium;thou shalt behold it!  Thou shalt be one of the
  agents of the era of Light and Reason。  I see; while I speak; the
  Phantom thou fliest; by thy side; it marshals thy path; it has
  power over thee as yet;a power that defies my own。  In the last
  days of that Revolution which thou hailest; amidst the wrecks of
  the Order thou cursest as Oppression; seek the fulfilment of thy
  destiny; and await thy cure。'
  〃At that instant a troop of masks; clamorous; intoxicated;
  reeling; and rushing; as they reeled; poured into the room; and
  separated me from the mystic。  I broke through them; and sought
  him everywhere; but in vain。  All my researches the next day were
  equally fruitless。  Weeks were consumed in the same pursuit;not
  a trace of Mejnour could be discovered。  Wearied with false
  pleasures; roused by reproaches I had deserved; recoiling from
  Mejnour's prophecy of the scene in which I was to seek
  deliverance; it occurred to me; at last; that in the sober air of
  my native country; and amidst its orderly and vigorous pursuits;
  I might work out my own emancipation from the spectre。  I left
  all whom I had before courted and clung to;I came hither。
  Amidst mercenary schemes and selfish speculations; I found the
  same relief as in debauch and excess。  The Phantom was invisible;
  but these pursuits soon became to me distasteful as the rest。
  Ever and ever I felt that I was born for something nobler than
  the greed of gain;that life may be made equally worthless; and
  the soul equally degraded by the icy lust of avarice; as by the
  noisier passions。  A higher ambition never ceased to torment me。
  But; but;〃 continued Glyndon; with a whitening lip and a visible
  shudder; 〃at every attempt to rise into loftier existence; came
  that hideous form。  It gloomed beside me at the easel。  Before
  the volumes of poet and sage it stood with its burning eyes in
  the stillness of night; and I thought I heard its horrible
  whispers uttering temptations never to be divulged。〃  He paused;
  and the drops stood upon his brow。
  〃But I;〃 said Adela; mastering her fears and throwing her arms
  around him;〃but I henceforth will have no life but in thine。
  And in this love so pure; so holy; thy terror shall fade away。〃
  〃No; no!〃 exclaimed Glyndon; starting from her。  〃The worst
  revelation is to come。  Since thou hast been here; since I have
  sternly and resolutely refrained from every haunt; every scene in
  which this preternatural enemy troubled me not; IIhave  Oh;
  Heaven!  Mercymercy!  There it stands;there; by thy side;
  there; there!〃  And he fell to the ground insensible。
  CHAPTER 5。V。
  Doch wunderbar ergriff mich's diese Nacht;
  Die Glieder schienen schon in Todes Macht。
  Uhland。
  (This night it fearfully seized on me; my limbs appeared already
  in the power of death。)
  A fever; attended with delirium; for several days deprived
  Glyndon of consciousness; and when; by Adela's care more than the
  skill of the physicians; he was restored to life and reason; he
  was unutterably shocked by the change in his sister's appearance;
  at first; he fondly imagined that her health; affected by her
  vigils; would recover with his own。  But he soon saw; with an
  anguish which partook of remorse; that the malady was deep…
  seated;deep; deep; beyond the reach of Aesculapius and his
  drugs。  Her imagination; little less lively than his own; was
  awfully impressed by the strange confessions she had heard;by
  the ravings of his delirium。  Again and again had he shrieked
  forth; 〃It is there;there; by thy side; my sister!〃  He had
  transferred to her fancy the spectre; and the horror that cursed
  himself。  He perceived this; not by her words; but her silence;
  by the eyes that strained into space; by the shiver that came
  over her frame; by the start of terror; by the look that did not
  dare to turn behind。  Bitterly he repented his confession;
  bitterly he felt that between his sufferings and human sympathy
  there could be no gentle and holy commune; vainly he sought to
  retract;to undo what he had done; to declare all was but the
  chimera of an overheated brain!
  And brave and generous was this denial of himself; for; often and
  often; as he thus spoke; he saw the Thing of Dread gliding to her
  side; and glaring at him as he disowned its being。  But what
  chilled him; if possible; yet more than her wasting form and
  trembling nerves; was the change in her love for him; a natural
  terror had replaced it。  She turned paler if he approached;she
  shuddered if he took her hand。  Divided from the rest of earth;
  the gulf of the foul remembrance yawned now between his sister
  and himself。  He could endure no more the presence of the one
  whose life HIS life had embittered。  He made some excuses for
  departure; and writhed to see that they were greeted eagerly。
  The first gleam of joy he had detected since that fatal night; on
  Adela's face; he beheld when he murmured 〃Farewell。〃  He
  travelled for some weeks through the wildest parts of Scotland;
  scenery which MAKES the artist; was loveless to his haggard eyes。
  A letter recalled him to London on the wings of new agony and
  fear; he arrived to find his sister in a condition both of mind
  and health which exceeded his worst apprehensions。
  Her vacant look; her lifeless posture; appalled him; it was as
  one who gazed on the Medusa's head; and felt; without a struggle;
  the human being gradually harden to the statue。  It was not
  frenzy; it was not idiocy;it was an abstraction; an apathy; a
  sleep in waking。  Only as the night advanced towards the eleventh
  hourthe hour in which Glyndon had concluded his taleshe grew
  visibly uneasy; anxious; and perturbed。  Then her lips muttered;
  her hands writhed; she looked round with a look of unspeakable
  appeal for succour; for protection; and suddenly; as the clock
  struck; fell with a shriek to th