第 70 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2021-02-20 15:58      字数:9322
  delicate health; and too fine an organisation of the nerves
  rendered her susceptible to every impression that could influence
  the health of the frame through the sympathy of the mind。  But as
  she never complained; and as the singular serenity of her manners
  seemed to betoken an equanimity of temperament which; with the
  vulgar; might have passed for indifference; her sufferings had so
  long been borne unnoticed that it ceased to be an effort to
  disguise them。  Though; as I have said; not handsome; her
  countenance was interesting and pleasing; and there was that
  caressing kindness; that winning charm about her smile; her
  manners; her anxiety to please; to comfort; and to soothe which
  went at once to the heart; and made her lovely;because so
  loving。
  Such was the sister whom Glyndon had so long neglected; and whom
  he now so cordially welcomed。  Adela had passed many years a
  victim to the caprices; and a nurse to the maladies; of a selfish
  and exacting relation。  The delicate and generous and respectful
  affection of her brother was no less new to her than delightful。
  He took pleasure in the happiness he created; he gradually weaned
  himself from other society; he felt the charm of home。  It is not
  surprising; then; that this young creature; free and virgin from
  every more ardent attachment; concentrated all her grateful love
  on this cherished and protecting relative。  Her study by day; her
  dream by night; was to repay him for his affection。  She was
  proud of his talents; devoted to his welfare; the smallest trifle
  that could interest him swelled in her eyes to the gravest
  affairs of life。  In short; all the long…hoarded enthusiasm;
  which was her perilous and only heritage; she invested in this
  one object of her holy tenderness; her pure ambition。
  But in proportion as Glyndon shunned those excitements by which
  he had so long sought to occupy his time or distract his
  thoughts; the gloom of his calmer hours became deeper and more
  continuous。  He ever and especially dreaded to be alone; he could
  not bear his new companion to be absent from his eyes:  he rode
  with her; walked with her; and it was with visible reluctance;
  which almost partook of horror; that he retired to rest at an
  hour when even revel grows fatigued。  This gloom was not that
  which could be called by the soft name of melancholy;it was far
  more intense; it seemed rather like despair。  Often after a
  silence as of deathso heavy; abstracted; motionless; did it
  appearhe would start abruptly; and cast hurried glances around
  him;his limbs trembling; his lips livid; his brows bathed in
  dew。  Convinced that some secret sorrow preyed upon his mind; and
  would consume his health; it was the dearest as the most natural
  desire of Adela to become his confidant and consoler。  She
  observed; with the quick tact of the delicate; that he disliked
  her to seem affected by; or even sensible of; his darker moods。
  She schooled herself to suppress her fears and her feelings。  She
  would not ask his confidence;she sought to steal into it。  By
  little and little she felt that she was succeeding。  Too wrapped
  in his own strange existence to be acutely observant of the
  character of others; Glyndon mistook the self…content of a
  generous and humble affection for constitutional fortitude; and
  this quality pleased and soothed him。  It is fortitude that the
  diseased mind requires in the confidant whom it selects as its
  physician。  And how irresistible is that desire to communicate!
  How often the lonely man thought to himself; 〃My heart would be
  lightened of its misery; if once confessed!〃  He felt; too; that
  in the very youth; the inexperience; the poetical temperament of
  Adela; he could find one who would comprehend and bear with him
  better than any sterner and more practical nature。  Mervale would
  have looked on his revelations as the ravings of madness; and
  most men; at best; as the sicklied chimeras; the optical
  delusions; of disease。  Thus gradually preparing himself for that
  relief for which he yearned; the moment for his disclosure
  arrived thus:
  One evening; as they sat alone together; Adela; who inherited
  some portion of her brother's talent in art; was employed in
  drawing; and Glyndon; rousing himself from meditations less
  gloomy than usual; rose; and affectionately passing his arm round
  her waist; looked over her as she sat。  An exclamation of dismay
  broke from his lips;he snatched the drawing from her hand:
  〃What are you about?what portrait is this?〃
  〃Dear Clarence; do you not remember the original?it is a copy
  from that portrait of our wise ancestor which our poor mother
  used to say so strongly resembled you。  I thought it would please
  you if I copied it from memory。〃
  〃Accursed was the likeness!〃 said Glyndon; gloomily。  〃Guess you
  not the reason why I have shunned to return to the home of my
  fathers!because I dreaded to meet that portrait!because
  becausebut pardon me; I alarm you!〃
  〃Ah; no;no; Clarence; you never alarm me when you speak:  only
  when you are silent!  Oh; if you thought me worthy of your trust;
  oh; if you had given me the right to reason with you in the
  sorrows that I yearn to share!〃
  Glyndon made no answer; but paced the room for some moments with
  disordered strides。  He stopped at last; and gazed at her
  earnestly。  〃Yes; you; too; are his descendant; you know that
  such men have lived and suffered; you will not mock me; you
  will not disbelieve!  Listen! hark!what sound is that?〃
  〃But the wind on the house…top; Clarence;but the wind。〃
  〃Give me your hand; let me feel its living clasp; and when I have
  told you; never revert to the tale again。  Conceal it from all:
  swear that it shall die with us;the last of our predestined
  race!〃
  〃Never will I betray your trust; I swear it;never!〃 said Adela;
  firmly; and she drew closer to his side。  Then Glyndon commenced
  his story。  That which; perhaps; in writing; and to minds
  prepared to question and disbelieve; may seem cold and
  terrorless; became far different when told by those blanched
  lips; with all that truth of suffering which convinces and
  appalls。  Much; indeed; he concealed; much he involuntarily
  softened; but he revealed enough to make his tale intelligible
  and distinct to his pale and trembling listener。  〃At daybreak;〃
  he said; 〃I left that unhallowed and abhorred abode。  I had one
  hope still;I would seek Mejnour through the world。  I would
  force him to lay at rest the fiend that haunted my soul。  With
  this intent I journeyed from city to city。  I instituted the most
  vigilant researches through the police of Italy。  I even employed
  the services of the Inquisition at Rome; which had lately
  asserted its ancient powers in the trial of the less dangerous
  Cagliostro。  All was in vain; not a trace of him could be
  discovered。  I was not alone; Adela。〃  Here Glyndon paused a
  moment; as if embarrassed; for in his recital; I need scarcely
  say that he had only indistinctly alluded to Fillide; whom the
  reader may surmise to be his companion。  〃I was not alone; but
  the associate of my wanderings was not one in whom my soul could
  confide;faithful and affectionate; but without education;
  without faculties to comprehend me; with natural instincts rather
  than cultivated reason; one in whom the heart might lean in its
  careless hours; but with whom the mind could have no commune; in
  whom the bewildered spirit could seek no guide。  Yet in the
  society of this person the demon troubled me not。  Let me explain
  yet more fully the dread conditions of its presence。  In coarse
  excitement; in commonplace life; in the wild riot; in the fierce
  excess; in the torpid lethargy of that animal existence which we
  share with the brutes; its eyes were invisible; its whisper was
  unheard。  But whenever the soul would aspire; whenever the
  imagination kindled to the loftier ends; whenever the
  consciousness of our proper destiny struggled against the
  unworthy life I pursued; then; Adelathen; it cowered by my side
  in the light of noon; or sat by my bed;a Darkness visible
  through the Dark。  If; in the galleries of Divine Art; the dreams
  of my youth woke the early emulation;if I turned to the
  thoughts of sages; if the example of the great; if the converse
  of the wise; aroused the silenced intellect; the demon was with
  me as by a spell。  At last; one evening; at Genoa; to which city
  I had travelled in pursuit of the mystic; suddenly; and when
  least expected; he appeared before me。  It was the time of the
  Carnival。  It was in one of those half…frantic scenes of noise
  and revel; call it not gayety; which establish a heathen
  saturnalia in the midst of a Christian festival。  Wearied with
  the dance; I had entered a room in which several revellers were
  seated; drinking; singing; shouting; and in their fantastic
  dresses and hideous masks; their orgy seemed scarcely human。  I
  placed myself amongst them; and in that fearful exciteme