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作者:冬冬      更新:2021-02-20 15:53      字数:9321
  undesirably located (but cheap!); with a few straggling acres of garden and
  meadow        upon     which     the   minister     and    his   boys    were    trying    with
  inexperienced hands to piece out their inadequate living。 At the very first
  glimpse of the garden I wanted to throw off my coat and go at it。
  And yetand yet…what a wonderful thing love is! There was; after all;
  something   incalculable;   something   pervasively   beautiful   about   this   poor
  household。       The   moment      the   minister    stepped    inside    his  own    door    he
  became   a   different   and   livelier   person。   Something   boyish   crept   into   his
  manner; and a new look came into the eyes of his faded wife that made her
  almost   pretty   again。   And   the   fat;   comfortable   baby   rolled   and   gurgled
  about on the floor as happily as though there had been two nurses and a
  governess   to   look   after   him。   As   for   the   four   boys;   I   have   never   seen
  healthier or happier ones。
  I   sat   with   them   at   their   Sunday…evening   luncheon。   As   the   minister
  bowed his head to say grace I felt him clasp my hand on one side while the
  oldest boy  clasped   my   hand   on   the   other;  and   thus; linked   together;   and
  accepting the stranger utterly; the family looked up to God。
  There   was   a   fine;   modest   gayety   about   the   meal。   In   front   of   Mrs。
  Minister stood a very large yellow bowl filled with what she called ruska
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  preparation unfamiliar to me; made by browning and crushing the crusts of
  bread and then rolling them down into a coarse meal。 A bowl of this; with
  sweet; rich; yellow milk (for they kept their own cow); made one of the
  most appetizing dishes that ever I ate。 It was downright good: it gave one
  the unalloyed aroma of the sweet new milk and the satisfying taste of the
  crisp bread。
  Nor   have   I   ever   enjoyed   a   more   perfect   hospitality。   I   have   been   in
  many   a   richer   home   where   there   was   not   a   hundredth   part   of   the   true
  gentilitythe gentility of unapologizing simplicity and kindness。
  And after it was over and cleared awaythe minister himself donning
  a long apron and helping his wifeand the chubby baby put to bed; we all
  sat around the table in the gathering twilight。
  I think men perish sometimes from sheer untalked talk。 For lack of a
  creative listener they gradually fill up with unexpressed emotion。 Presently
  this   emotion   begins   to   ferment;   and   finallybang!they   blow   up;   burst;
  disappear in thin air。 In all that community I suppose there was no one but
  the little faded wife to whom the minister dared open his heart; and I think
  he found me a godsend。 All I really did was to look from one to the other
  and   put   in   here   and   there   an   inciting   comment   or   ask   an   understanding
  question。   After   he   had   told   me   his   situation   and   the   difficulties   which
  confronted him and his small church; he exclaimed suddenly:
  〃A minister should by rights be a leader; not only inside of his church;
  but outside it in the community。〃
  〃You are right;〃 I exclaimed with great earnestness; 〃you are right。〃
  And with that I told him of our own Scotch preacher and how he led
  and   moulded   our   community;   and   as   I   talked   I   could   see   him   actually
  growing; unfolding; under my eyes。
  〃Why;〃   said   I;   〃you   not   only   ought   to   be   the   moral   leader   of   this
  community; but you are!〃
  〃That's what I tell him;〃 exclaimed his wife。
  〃But he persists in thinking; doesn't he; that he is a poor sinner?〃
  〃He thinks it too much;〃 she laughed。
  〃Yes; yes;〃 he said; as much to himself as to us; 〃a minister ought to be
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  a fighter!〃
  It was beautiful; the boyish flush which now came into his face and the
  light that came into his eyes。 I should never have identified him with the
  Black Spectre of the afternoon。
  〃Why;〃 said I; 〃you ARE a fighter; you're fighting the greatest battle in
  the   world   todaythe   only  real   battlethe   battle   for  the   spiritual   view   of
  life。〃
  Oh; I knew exactly what was the trouble with his religionat least the
  religion which; under the pressure of that church he felt obliged to preach!
  It   was   the   old;   groaning;   denying;   resisting   religion。   It   was   the   sort   of
  religion which sets a man apart and assures him that the entire universe in
  the   guise   of   the   Powers   of   Darkness   is   leagued   against   him。   What   he
  needed   was   a   reviving   draught   of   the   new   faith   which   affirms;   accepts;
  rejoices; which feels the universe triumphantly behind it。 And so whenever
  the   minister   told   me   what   he   ought   to   befor   he   too   sensed   the   new
  impulseI   merely   told   him   he   was   just   that。   He   needed   only   this   little
  encouragement to unfold。
  〃Yes;〃 said he again; 〃I am the real moral leader here。〃
  At this I saw Mrs。 Minister nodding her head vigorously。
  〃It's   you;〃    she    said;   〃and    not   Mr。   Nash;     who    should     lead   this
  community。〃
  How      a  woman      loves   concrete     applications。     She   is  your   only    true
  pragmatist。 If a philosophy will not work; says she; why bother with it?
  The   minister   rose   quickly   from   his   chair;   threw   back   his   head;   and
  strode quickly up and down the room。
  〃You   are   right;〃   said   he;   〃and   I   WILL  lead   it。   I'll   have   my   farmers'
  meetings as I planned。〃
  It may have been the effect of the lamplight; but it seemed to me that
  little Mrs。 Minister; as she glanced up at him; looked actually pretty。
  The minister continued to stride up and down the room with his chin in
  the air。
  〃Mr。 Nash;〃 said she in a low voice to me; 〃is always trying to hold
  him   down   and       keep   him   back。    My   husband   WANTS           to   do   the  great
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  things〃wistfully。
  〃By   every   right;〃   the   minister   was   repeating;   quite   oblivious   of   our
  presence; 〃I should lead these people。〃
  〃He sees the weakness of the church;〃 she continued; 〃as well as any
  one;     and   he   wants     to  start   some    vigorous     community        workhave
  agricultural meetings and boys' clubs; and lots of things like thatbut Mr。
  Nash says it is no part of a minister's work: that it cheapens religion。 He
  says   that   when   a   parsonMr。   Nash   always   calls   him   parson;   and   I   just
  LOATHE that name has preached; and prayed; and visited the sick; that's
  enough for HIM。〃
  At this very moment a step sounded upon the walk; and an instant later
  a figure appeared in the doorway。
  〃Why;      Mr。   Nash;〃    exclaimed      little  Mrs。   Minister;    exhibiting    that
  astonishing   gift   of   swift   recovery   which   is   the   possession   of   even   the
  simplest women; 〃come right in。〃
  It   was some   seconds   before   the   minister   could   come   down   from  the
  heights and greet Mr。 Nash。 As for me; I was never more interested in my
  life。
  〃Now;〃 said I to myself; 〃we shall see Christian meet Apollyon。〃
  As   soon   as   Mrs。   Minister   lighted   the   lamp   I   was   introduced   to   the
  great man。 He looked at me sharply with his small; round eyes; and said:
  〃Oh; you are thethe man who was in church this afternoon。〃
  I admitted   it; and   he looked   around at the   minister with   an   accusing
  expression。 He evidently did not approve of me; nor could I wholly blame
  him; for I knew well how he; as a rich farmer; must look upon a rusty man
  of the road like me。 I should have liked dearly to cross swords with him
  myself; but greater events were imminent。
  In no time at all the discussion; which had evidently been broken off at
  some previous meeting; concerning the proposed farmers' assembly at the
  church; had taken on a really lively tone。 Mr。 Nash was evidently in the
  somewhat   irritable   mood   with   which   important   people   may   sometimes
  indulge themselves; for he bit off his words in a way that was calculated to
  make      any    but    an   unusually      meek     and    saintly    man     exceedingly
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